"喜欢一个人孤独的时刻
但不能喜欢太多"

太多 - 陳綺貞

this is the song on the tv advertisement of her album....

oh man, what can i say...strong sense of character in her song..uniquely good...

omg i bought another cd again today!!!
it's my #?? cd in 2 months....

let me see...bought S.H.E cd...yanzi's new album...corrinne may 2nd album and now, 陳綺貞 - 華麗的冒險...hmmz...

but 陳綺貞's album is good larz...listening to it now...she's so talented but why doesn't she get the fame she deserves?

jay's slow songs i his new album also not bad...esp 珊瑚海!!! damn nice...

haha..my parents bought 真命天女 vcd today...so happy...shall i preview it abit first? or should i wait till the exams are over?

oh well...study 1st ba

for the 1st time, i feel that i'm so hardworking...i have completed my last physics web assign which is just 'fresh from the oven'..lolz/...

hopefully then i can concentrate on other things...

i hope consistent work does pay off...

decided to stop early today coz i can't seem to absorb anymore...geo for the whole day can kill...especially if it's only an SSA2215...

fark the stupid ss module...that i never s/u..haha...

letz see what i want to do now...hmmz...i shall post a photo later...okz...

my desktop 


here's my new desktop that i have changed to...so nice...

things to note: 4 msn windows...4 ie windows and a media player when i took this screen shot....

duhz...crapz....it feels hot even though it's raining damn heavily outside...

lost in the world of physics...i can't seem to get out...rotation makes me dizzy..thermal makes me hot...forces and kinematics make me breathless...i'm dying...help!!!

cleared my 60% of ctw finally... o.d was over...'smoke' grenade used...final draft handed in also...

think i shall finally get down to some serious revision soon...serious...

am i stressed? i guess i am...but i try to make myself feel better and less stressed by comparing with others that should be more stressed...as i was telling andy "when you only revise 1 chapt, you should compare with those that didn't even complete one chapt and you will find yourself in a far better state than them" ...the concept of self-deceiving...but that does not mean for you to stop revising and go play..it just makes you revise at a more relaxed pace...it works...trust me...

guess everyone is mugging up in wateva ways possible...

parting msg for tonight: good luck to all!!

夜曲
so typical zhou jie lun's song...but it's nice

tmr oral defence for my ctw position paper...hell...i realise i can do nothing much abt it but to pray...hope the tutor ask something simple so that i can crap it through...

handing my last ss proj tmr...(deadline on friday)...and after all these i will get down to some real serious mugging bahz...

so stressed....so little time to study for so many things...

oh...did i mention that i have got 24 marks for my mid term soci test? amazingly high...out of 30 marks...haha...but i s/u-ed it...so maybe this will make my prep for final yr soci less tedious...i only need to scrap some more points for the 2 essays to get my satisfactory...

other modules are going to be a headache!!!!

jj's pizza treat on monday...hmm...okay lorz....selina's bday!!

happy bday selina! (of coz this selina is hebe's good jie meiz..not anyone else)

"有些是我没说，但我有感觉
有些是我没说，但我知道结果
有些是我没说，但你有感觉
有些是我没说，但你知道结果

有一天我会，插上翅膀飞
有一天我会，张开双眼看
有一天我会，见到我的梦中有谁
有一天我会，飞过世界的背"


amazingly simple lyrics...

blogger recently keeps losing my posts...so many errors when i tried to post my entries...anyway...i was trying to blog abt my dream again...

i dreamt of hebe last last night...so sweet...lolz...

"有你多好 幸福再远 我愿意陪你冒险"

the indian girl changed my tuition time with here again!!! the 2nd time in 4 dayz...wtf...i dun wanna teach her anymore...heck abt her a'level...to hell and i dun care....

keep changing my schedule..i need to study also wan lehz....

been wasting my time...listening to music on my laptop...blogging...thinking of useless stuff instead of going to sleep...."while, it's not even 12am yet"...my usual sleeping time...but...i haven't napped today...which explains why i'm a little bit tired by now....

THE DREAM
yes...the dream that i mention in the previous previous post...it felt so real when i was still in the dream...even till now, i still remember bits and pieces of it...though i never make any special effort to remember it...

maybe thatz becoz i woke up a 'slow wake-up'...if you know what i mean...not waken up by anything abrupt...sudden...like an alarm sounding off...yahz...study has shown that this will help you remember your dream better...it's worth trying...

okay...as for the content abt the dream...i shall not speak too much on it...simply becoz i wish for it to remain in me...and not shared with my beloved viewers...anyway..it's abt Miss X (no intent of choosing the alphabet X)...and something happened to her...and i happened to be with her...so i consoled her...blar blar...then her uncle came..(god knows why is there an uncle) and she was crying....and blar blar.....(bits and pieces of the 'bits and pieces' that i remember)

strangely...i haven't been having dreams of Miss X lately...but she visited me last night...not particularly affected by the dream for the entire day...in fact i woke up feeling good...(other than the lethargic part)...yahz...

okay...fair enough...i haven't been having dreams lately too...lolz...nothing significant though...coz i have come to realize that dreams are really nothing...nothing at all...no significance should ever be put on such fictional...subconscious...inexplainable phenomenom of life....

okay...almost a time for bed....


ciao

omg...i'm already thinking of what should i do for the dec hols...when the exams is not even here yet...lolz...how i wish i can plan ahead for my exams also...but well...

anyway...letz talk abt the hols...it's more fun ...1st of all, i tink i should read a book...it's been a long time since i last read a book...when i say book i dun include serway jewett...(my physics text) and such...but it's storybook...fictional...haha...paulo coelho...gonna try to complete his collections..which i only manage to read a few during my ns....

hmm..my jc friends plan for a trip to kl i think...that shall feature in my plan too...letz wait for good news....

not to forget...yanz' very belated bday chalet on ...hmm...4th dec i think...yahz...how can i forget such date...

as for my own bday....i dun think i'm coming up with anything extravagant...maybe just a simple celebration...hopefully a simple pandan kaya cake...yep...a strange choice? but thatz my fave kind of cake ...(in case you dun know yet)...a simple guy hoping for a simple miracle...hah...simple miracle? (thatz hard)...okay...enough of crap...to summarize...a simple celebration will do larz...

i dun wan to plan anything big...coz when you're alone...you tend not to make things grand...you dun want too much attention...you will choose to remain simple....

omg...how many times have i used the word 'simple'?

well...i'm just a 'simple' guy...

i had a dream last night...a dream of you and me...a dream that's impossible in reality...a dream that will remain a dream....

the bball session this morning was fun as usual...a common interest...a common activity...a group of common friends...watz more fun than that?

haha...tiring sia...haven't been working out lately....not going to in the near future also...1 month to examz...revision should start...soon...now that i have cut my hair...and my projs are done....

yawnz...

i have found my mugging partner...corrinne may...i so so love her songs suddenly....her songs have been accompanying me through these nights of rushing reports....i hereby announced that i have completed my 22 ss proj and my ctw only needs to cut some 30 odd words....


hooray...i'm on my way to start my revisions for the 1-month ahead exams....lolz...maybe tmr got some last class activities...and sat maybe got for the bball in nus....then it's full-blast effort liaoz....


haiz...uni suckz....

oh yah...one more thing .... i'm recommending nan quan mama..coz their songs are really nice...got abit of jay chou style...i like the new gal's voice...

ahz...just nice 0000h and i have decied to stop my work on my mangrove project....20% weightage...ss module....it's crazy...i dunno what to write abt...got a huge chunk from the textbook...haiz...

dunno...i very tired to even think liaoz...

this morning...got a person (in fact 2) knocked my door...then asked me go out to question me abt the flower pots and all the stuffs that are placed outside my house...haha...of coz...they are all my father's...the person said there will be some minister visit on sat and for sure, they will come to the highest floor...so what we need to do is to clear the unnecessary, unpresentable stuff....and keep the place neat....and of coz...free from mosquitoes breeding ground....

when i came home today...my ground floor was undergoing some neat paint...to remove graffiti...lolz....so fake sia...ministers come then do all these....

i should meet the minister on sat and tell him to come more often...so that there will be more of such tidying up for my block....

it's a fake world....everything is fake....even love can be faked....argh...what has love got to do here....lolz...

going to slp....

tired...

been working on my ss project for the past few hours....like copying out from textbook....lolz...too lazy to do more research....haiz

settled! i will go to the final conference alone with ms peggie chan (my ctw tutor) for the entire 30 minutes...as for the editting for final draft, i guess can only discuss with my only chicken poxy groupmate online and settle it within a week...

oral defence will be postponed to some date nearer to exam...argh...exams...yesh...and what's after that? dec is coming....funz and loads of funz i hope...i and not going to work!!!

me and jj...photo taken during a stupid ss field class in Kent Ridge...it's self-snapped by me..pro right?

a post before i sleep...stress level is building up i guess...

pimples start popping./...lolz...so many things to be done and so much revision and catching up to do...so many readings and knowledge to be processed....

my ctw group mate is down with chicken pox...argh!!! then how? go final conference with my tutor one-to-one...edit the draft by myself to produce a final one??? go oral defense alone?? sigh~...already in a group with only 2 people...and now one is down...left me alone...standing...but falling soon too....

physics in uni always make me feel stupid...coz i can never figure out what the question wants...if i do, i can't find a way to get the ans....

maths is okay...but when i think that it's ok...the tutorial will defy and say "no, it's not, at all, okay...that's just your imagination"....hell!!!

消失 -- 南拳妈妈

the last relaxing weekend...

it's been a long time since i played so much over the weekend...ktv-ed yesterday night with shaggerz...though not many pple went...and they left one by one...it's a great session of joy and yahz...singings and shouting as usual..by me and craig...

went billiarding this morning wiht kokz...and pj joined us for a while later...i was quite 'zhun' before pj came larz....so shiok...but after that...lost all form...air -con was cold...

pj looked sad as usual...(i mean the recent few times i meet him, he's already like that)...dunno whatz wrong...never ask coz he wouldn't tell also....kokz realised that also...and he didn't dare to ask also...lolz...sometimes...it's still strange for guys to pour out what's in their hearts to each other izzit it? i dunno...but for me...i personally seldom speak to anyone in particular abt how i feel, what i was feeling...and why do i feel that way...coz most of the time, my feelings will find their own ways out...hopefully...optimistically....

went west mall with parents for dinner...saw the billiard couple whom we always see in west coast RC...so nice to have a galfriend to play billiard with you horz? (pj and kokz will nod their heads)...

haha...then i came home...panicked abit coz i haven't done any serious mugging for 3 dayz....went on to webcast my maths...d.e.....farking complicated and tedious....

stopped just awhile ago....maybe go watch abit of tv and go sleep....tmr gonna teach tuition....

buzi buzi buzi....

i guess everyone is....

this is the stress/tension period for all uni pple bah....1st time feeling it for 3 long years...not too good...but wat to do....kill myself meh? maybe i should go coerce (dunno if i spell it correct) all my friends to mass suicide...hahaha...so spastic(spelt wrongly again?)...oh god...what's happening to my english

a trip to lot 1 after school...it's friday and i don't feel like doing any studying...and the people all ending at 4 plus 5..so late...

bought 燕姿's 完美的一天 album...

saw 真命天女 vcd out in the mkt!!! 50 bucks...haha...very tempted to buy..but seems like i wouldn't have time to watch until dec...sigh~ maybe after exam then buy....

wanna get a wallet....a sling bag....a pair of bball shoes....all on my shopping list for some time already....

going ktv (party world) later with shaggerz...pj not going...coz he said he didn't feel like going...jj going for sports with his class and ex class....tao discussing projects as usual....guys only left me and craig again!!!! haiz....partyworld @ clementi...CLEMENTI again!!!! maybe i can go sch again then...

"才发现笑着哭最痛...

...那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞"

知足 - 五月天

i love simple songs like this...simple melody...simple lyrics...
simply touch your heart

time really flies....i didn't even notice when it's gonna be 12....

as the story goes..little zs starts to feel rather tired...

ctw draft 1 completed...hopefully don't have to change much....next 1 or 2 weeks gonna pia for my ss projects!!!

i wanna start revision soon...real soon!!!

new photos uploaded on flickr..abit lazy to photo-blog..coz no particular photo that i wanna share...so uploaded whole chunk..courteousy from ck...omg..i haven't circulate the photo cd amongst the guys...lolz...

time for bed...

"when the clock stuck 12, all are well and little zs goes to bed"

forecast of events!!! (FoE)

this week:
complete ctw position paper draft 1 (final draft should not change too much).
maths - d.e webcast
phy - online assignment on gravitation

next and next next week:
ss report for today's lab (1500 words) slope modification, erosion...blar, blar...
ss fieldwork project (1500 words) on stupid mangrove (coz i dunno what else can i do)
and hopefully, start revision!!!
readings for soci...selective readings...gonna choose topics for this module...


i thought only army does forecast of events...training programme...i can't imagine i'm still doing this in my immediate life after ns...

guess army has helped me become more organised...really...thanks to the many ppl i have encountered in my 2 and half year....special thanks to my oc...my colleague...and every tom, dick and harry that serve the country with 'pride'...

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so sad...my ankle still hurts from the sprain months back...i think my legs and limbs are gone...aching whenever i walk up ad down steps...the sprain was really bad...should have gone to the sinseh...now, i think it can't be cured anymore...stil feel some minor pain that won't impede movement...but it's gone larz...

all sportsmen should take good care of their bodies...quit the sports and join some cultural clubs!

asthetics!!

who the fark still wanna play sports for life? not in singapore...you will die...either from exhaustion or hunger!!

to conclude, lavender is not functionally effective to me...

it fails me...i guess it's the counter-effect of my afternoon/evening nap...

maybe

"昨天的我 泪流心中
茫茫人海中孤帆支身独漂流
千般温柔 没人能懂
渐渐我忘记幸福滋味是如何"

- 感谢你用心爱我 -- 彭羚

i burning some lavender tonight....

"你离去的那条路线 消失地平线
时间背着我悄悄捏碎从前
你离去的那条路条 伤痕在蔓延
落月照射的悲伤映入眼蠊"
- 消失 -- 南拳妈妈

hopefully i can sleep more peacefully...anyway...tmr is a late day for me....meaing start late and end late...

ever wonder why are 'deadlines' called 'deadlines'?

coz it's 死线 in chinese...you can use them to strangle yourself to death...

just a crazy thought after my phy tutorial.

摩天轮 - hebe

坐摩天轮 送你一程
慢慢升高 心慢慢冷
趁着机身 划过云层
愿你受到 我留的吻

离别气氛 往往会拉长泪痕
怕我郁闷 打起十二分精神
僵硬的唇 是逞强的后遗症
不想谁 看见你泪在翻滚

心真的疼 目送着我爱的人
难舍难分 却隔一道玻璃门
转身飞奔 到常去的游乐城
在空中 才道别 能不能

坐摩天轮 送你一程
慢慢升高 心慢慢冷
从此每当 我对你的想念太难忍
坐摩天轮 心会平稳
(满天星辰 会陪我等)

看摩天轮 像不像时间齿轮
转了一圈 又到了什么月份
每张票根 压载枕头下加温
霓虹灯 温暖等待的人


in case you don't know, my hebe sings good song 'solo' too!

the readings for my stupid soci module are piling up like hell...

i guess it's a wise decision to s/u it...but still...must get it to be an 'ass' grade...i dun wanna repeat modules....and extend my 4 years to 4 and a half....

do you know that you are becoming more and more like her?

well...you won't know...coz you didn't even know me...

a growing resemblance...

omg...i just wasted 2 hours on a lousy "ocean's twelve"...it's really a waste of my time...dun watch!!!

"爱就是让你所爱的人得到幸福"...the theory of the humanoid plant being abt love...

i am like 'cinderella'...when the clock strikes 12a, i can't do anything...pronounced 'brain dead' instantly...it's been a tiring day..and i'm falling sick real soon...running nose has been running the 168km marathon for almost a day...hopefully, it can complete the journey tomorrow to celebrate the NTU spirit!!! (i'm an NUS student)...

so tired and stressful once again...ctw is demanding...so much work and words to be written (or in this case, type)...600 words for the 'body' of my position paper by thurs morning..hell...only managed to scrap out a flawed introduction just today...

tabulated the survey results...counting shiits...hmm..yahz..sheets like never before...played around with excel till now to plot the graphs...

the tuition just now was quite okay...just that i can have more things done without the seesion today...but i need some hard cash!!!

the 'cinderella' has to sleep at 12am...coz the carriage is turning back into the pumpkin...okay...i will purposely leave a 'glass heel' behind for the prince(ss) to pick up then...

and hopefully live happily ever after....

lolz...not such 'happily ever after' ending in reality...there's only a 'rest in peace' type of ending...which is not bad at all...

tmr got a soccer session with my class...but before that...phy lect....and before that....ctw project!!!!!

yeahz!!!!

wat abt my ss projects!!!!! haiz

it's the dreadful tuesday again!!!

yahz...for the various reasons...i just hate tuesday...1st i gotta wake up at 6:45am for my 8 am lect...and it's a maths lecture...(it only makes thing worse by being the 'wonderfule maths lect' by the taxi driver uncle)...then i got a 4 hrs break...(on every even week)...on odd week, i will have to rush to arts for my soci tut...so on an even week like this...i will need to find something to do for 4 hrs..anf i often end up in the library...not studying...but BLOGGING!!!

the day will be made worse by the fact that at 2pm...i have the most hated CTW tut....not that i dun like the tutor..she's quite alright...i just dun like gp stuff...the 'english englih thing'....

today will be much jialat...coz i still got tuition at 7pm....

tired...lethagic...aimless..purposeless..wasting my life away...

was talking to a friend online the other day...he sounded not too good...his msn was somethin like 'depressed but dunno why'...hmm...so i decided to talk to him.

it's only then that i found out that he's actually seeing a doc for his depression..."serious?" ..yahz...didn't realise that...he looked so okay in school all those while...well...maybe except for the mid term break week when i didn't see him...."stress?" i think so...stress from the many things in sch?

thinking abt it, i got lotsa stress lately too...but getting much better...i think the most important thing is that you prioritise your stuff and get things that you want to do done...sometimes....the results can be discouraging...sometimes...they can be disappointing coz you know you can be better....but nonetheless...if you have done the best that you can when in that particular situation...live with it...

sometimes...i got stressed out and i become simply 'dun care'... chuck everything aside and go do something that can tire myself out physically (i mean sports larz...like running...swimming...) it often makes me feel very much better...then with a relaxed and clear mind...i start getting myself stressed by the same thing that kep t me stressed previously...ironic cycle huh...yesh/...thatz life...

blogging is a good way to let things out too....amazingly...a channel to express your disgrunt (is there such a word?) ...to farking scold every mudder-farkers in the world...(pardon my vulgarity here)...lolz....it just make me feel relaxed....


anyway...i love my new blog skin...took me a while to place everythin back in order///...cool

season of love

hmm...somehow or rather...pple like falling in love...even if the person you've have fallen in love with may not even know you well enough...and you may not know him/her that well either....

that'z the reason why pple keep falling in love and out of love....to 'experiment' with the various pple....hmm...experiment? can't find a better word....thatz why life is so amazing with this thing called 'love'

think a few of my friends (i shan't disclose names here) have grown to like someone whom they got to know in university...haha//...why wait? go forth and tell her how you feel lorz...and see if she feels the same towards you also....

lolz....it's so much easier to say than to do....well...sometimes, it just takes another person to trigger you to take the 1st step....me lorz....expert in the feild...haha....

hmm....does it feel good to be in love again? i dunno...i think i have lost the ability to love....thatz probably why i dun feel a thing anymore....or i tend to suppress everything little feeling that comes...

sounds sad? i dun think so...i dun think it's that bad as yet...though i admit i can be better....

haha...

friends, here my advice: 敢敢爱...and dun regret if you choose not to...

phew...finally done with my new blog layout....when i say 'done' i mean when i am really satisfied, of all the things that i wanted to be fine tuned...2am!!!! i got school tmr....

anyway....basically, what were founded in the previous blog will be found here...everything now looks more exposed and not hidden...and yahz...got some glitches that i dunno how to solve...1st it looks out of alignment when it's viewed in minimised window....dunno why...and for now..the songs will keep repeating itself...just stop it using IE stop function

i needa go sleep...bye

if anyone knows what's wrong with the aligment..pls help...=)

trying out new blog skin

she has the type of hair i like

i have gotten a change of heart? no way! to me, i still love her the most...she will always be my 最爱..

sat morning - field trip to pasir ris park
sat lat afternoon - ctw project
tmr - stay at home
tmr evening - tuition

am i still breathing? then why am i not feeling any life in me?

initial D stage 4 episode 17 and 18....downloading complete

tired.

going to sleep i guess.

not productive at all.

6 wrong attempts at phy online assignment and i have 2 more questions dunno how to solve.

guess i'm just trying my luck. and it has proven once again that it's never good.

/tired.