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Thursday, February 28, 2008

the guessing game

"Every waking minute that we are in the presence of someone, we come up with a constant stream of predictions and inferences about what that person is thinking and feeling."

we like to guess, like to hslx...coz we are afraid to ask...afraid to face what might be the truth...and so, behind the closed door of our mind, we would start drawing up various scenarios, willingly or unwillingly...but deep in our conscious mind, we know that none of these imagined scenarios would surface if we didn't choose to act upon what we would have wanted...the constant struggle between rationality and irrationality...

all it takes, is just that little bit of courage and who knows, things might turn out good? nah~ senseless courage...不理智的冲动 would only drive pple away...it's intimidating...yah...so, we would keep on guessing and guessing until someday, the subconscious mind decided that it has got better things to take care of and stop the meaningless hslx game...




how i wish that i could look into ur eyes and know how u feel...and convey how i feel...



wouldn't it be cool if all these constant predictions and inferences about what pple is thinking or feeling can cease with just one look in the eyes? or face? in fact, facial expressions can tell so much...let alone the eyes...人家把眼睛称为 "灵魂之窗" 是有原因的...



sigh...my eyes aint good at telling...nor are they good at saying...


argh...going crazy...

perhaps the only thing that's keeping me sane these dayz are the cold night breeze once in a while...the same wind that blows straight into my face and tell me, "wake up! 想再多也没用!" the same wind that's high up in the hill...the same wind that's present along the stretch of road...

wootz....it's 1am already...time for bed....



sidenote: at least it's weekend again...and i'm gonna play bball finally....

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

NESWG photos

somehow...the person who managed to get all the photos via bluetooth didnt send out the email huh?!?!?! must be njoying himself in the 'Seoul' of Asia already...(right, jianxiong?)...anyway...for those who happen to chance upon my blog...here's what i have...

click on NESWG to go to photos...


and yes/...i have reinstalled my phone to my laptop...

Tuesday, February 26, 2008




Your Five Factor Personality Profile



Extroversion:



You have medium extroversion.

You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.

Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.

But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."



Conscientiousness:



You have high conscientiousness.

Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.

Most things in your life are organized and planned well.

But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.



Agreeableness:



You have high agreeableness.

You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.

Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.

You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.



Neuroticism:



You have medium neuroticism.

You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.

Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.

Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.



Openness to experience:



Your openness to new experiences is high.

In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.

You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.

A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

i drank the cough syrup...coz the label says 'may cause drowsiness'...i gobbled it down...whatever thats left in the bottle...i hope it's not too much...was abit lazy to use a spoon...and there wasn't much left...

that should help me sleep tonight....i hope....gdnitez....

Monday, February 25, 2008

emotionz...negative or positive?

因为曾难过。。。才懂得快乐的可贵。。。
才不至于把开心当作理所当然。。。
才知道幸福得来不易。。。

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haven't been feeling good since....i dunno....last night?
dun ask me why....i have lost all my reasons for emotions...
i just know that they are negative emotions....

maybe it started from the slight headache...and then abit of the 'persistent' cough came back...and after which...the failure to fall asleep despite the tiredness...the stupid heat in the midst of the night...and the lack of sleep really didn't make today better...(i only manage to fall asleep at abt 3am...and it's interrupted by a brief moment of waking up at 6 plus...)...sigh...

i am SOoo damn tired today then i fell asleep in the office...twice! luckily there's nothing much to do today AGAIN...so yah...continued with my reading of 'BLINK'...

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sigh...having this confused state of mind again...it's been awhile since i last felt it....

我想 我可能又被动摇了。。。

因为某某的某某。。。一些些的一些些。。。

因为夜空的星星。。。

因为一阵阵凉凉的微风。。。

因为已经开始不圆的月。。。

因为。。。。。。

有说不出的原因。。。有不想说出的理由。。。有不知道该不该说出的答案。。。


pardon me...i know i'm not making any sense now...and thatz exactly how i'm feeling...just wanna purge out all the negative emotionz...wanna stop dreaming...coz the things that happen in my dreams are the unrealities in life...


why is it tat hard to find contentment...contentment in the simplicity of life...the simplest things on earth like the sunrise and sunset...the dazzling stars and moonlight...the comfort of the breezing wind...the wish-wash of the waves...the joy of digging ur feet into the sand....the peace of just letting time past with no worries or whatsoever...

impossible? i dunno...maybe i should really stop indulging myself in such thots...gotta work hard bah...can't just slack the life away...needa jiayou so that the slacking can come perhaps later in life...when i'm old...maybe then i would be able to stroll down a peaceful stretch of beach...hand in hand with my other half...listening to what the winds and waves have to share...

ha...so far fetched suddenly/...for now...i shall stick to my chi popz...slow rock ballads...and walk those cemented pavements...njoy the 'global warming' 'air-con'...


ciao~

a right brainer trying to behave like a left brainer...


tatz me...





a right brainer by birth...a left brainer by choice?




dunno....i think i'm pretty much a confused person afterall...

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Test Post

well...let me try posting an entry here and see if it will appear in my blogger site as well...

havent been doing much lately...just slacking as usual...catching up on some dramas:
1) 斗牛 要不要
2) 原来我不帅

i still have my entire heroes season 2 which i haven't yet started on...my bleach tat i stopped very very very long ago...ever since the anime-download incident in sg that created quite a big hoohaa~

i still have some movies here and there in my laptop...external HDD...DVDs to watch...
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oh...and i have been reading some bookz....surprise surprise~! haha...:P

1) Witch of portobello
Finished this book already...haha...i like Paulo Coelho's books for some reason...i can't really tell...but i read almost all of his books...

2) Blink
blink blink blink...trying to understand the art of knowing without knowing that you know...

3) Like the flowing river
another of paulo coelho...just bought it recently...consists of short stories...short enough for me and my short attention span...



hoohoo...as everyone can infer by now...i'm having abit of free time lately...

available for dates!!!! wahaha...please call 97**6*** to book an appointment with me! yah! anyone is welcome...but whether or not ur booking will succeed is subjected to....
- zs mood
- zs mood....
-and zs mood!!!!


cheerz
:P

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

害怕 - 孙燕姿

忘 我没有很努力要自己去遗忘
那些和日记一起收藏的过往
孤单在思绪之中变得很漫长

想 我没有很刻意让自己不去想
那些和照片静止的模样 我学着坚强
坚强到不用学着不想 学着遗忘


还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你
还是害怕不经意听见你的消息
然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰
当拥有已经是失去 就勇敢的放弃

还是会害怕一个人时就很难忘记
还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定
然而当爱最后的出口是分离
我会这么相信
走下去

Tuesday, February 19, 2008


who wanna watch!!!!



oh...btw...i haven't watched...

kungfu dunk
cj7
ah long pte ltd




so sad....

Sunday, February 17, 2008

想太多

是我想太多 你总这样说
但你却没有 真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也这样说
这是唯一能 安慰我 的理由...

Saturday, February 16, 2008

cough

the cough just gets so much worse at night...and looking at the amount of lozenges i consume everyday...


if i dun die from cough...i guess i would die of a heart attack or diabetes....


sad...




bo lang sayang....wahaha...so funnie...

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

aNohter random blogthings quiz

You Are a Red Crayon

Your world is colored with bright, vivid, wild colors.
You have a deep, complex personality - and you are always expressing something about yourself.
Bold and dominant, you are a natural leader. You have an energy that is intense... and sometimes overwhelming.
Your reaction to everything tends to be strong. You are the master of love-hate relationships.

Your color wheel opposite is green. Green people are way too mellow to understand what drives your energy.

a random blogthings quiz

You Are A Romantic Realist

You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance.
Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know.
And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball...
But you'd never admit it to your friends!
Storm

how long have i been in this storm
so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
water's getting harder to thread
with these waves crashing over my head
....





no you didn't bring me here to drown
so why am i ten feets under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
'cause i'm so used to live underneath the surface
.....

Monday, February 11, 2008

the blank space

butmusiconlyexistsbecausethepausesexist,andsentencesonlyexistbecausetheblankspacesexist...

Saturday, February 09, 2008

who am i?

just an online friend....

Monday, February 04, 2008

emo emo

dun ask me why...i also dunno...

it's just that i woke up today...feeling that there's something missing in my life...it's as if there's a hole in my heart...i felt a bit empty...sigh...actually..it happened a few times already...but it's particularly strong today...i wonder why...

and now...my emo songlist is playing...argh...i dun wanna get back into the hslx habit...




"问自己习惯了吗
没有你每当夜里回声变得好大
有没有什么好方法
让寂寞更听话"

-- 你最近还好吗 - S.H.E.




it struck me when rd reminded me that 我也是 '犯贱' 的人 yest at wenhui's hse...(yah...i belong to the FJ clique...lolz) But i tot all these while i have been doing a good job...keeping myself away from those hslx activities...trying to keep myself as busy as possible...(but with really nothing much to do..i have to admit it's hard...esp when even at work...i'm still quite free...)




"我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人"

-- 爱我别走 - 张震岳



hmm...picked up a few books from the library and popular...hope they can last me for some time...

Paulo Coelho's "the witch of portobello"...weird book...coz it consists of many short anecdotes of pple writing abt a person who has passed away...a biography but in the 3rd person's perspective...

the other is "blink" by dunno who (too lazy to go check the author's name)...but shall put that till a later date coz the Portobello book is loaned from library and not for this...




hmm...suddenly 跳tone in this entry...i guess thatz becoz i'm feeling much better already...yah! maybe thatz what pple call 'mood swing'..ha...

okie...time for bed...tmr i have quite a hell lot of things to do...boring things...well..at least i will be kept busy...

:)





"冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快"

-- 背叛 - 曹格

Sunday, February 03, 2008

DAY 5 - going home
but before that...lets feast on the so wonderful KFC that tasted so much better (and oilier more oily) than those skinny chickens sold in sg outlets...

yeah!



looked all ready to go home...but actually i didn't wan to...coz it would be back to the reality..and WORK!!!



caught up on some sleep on the ride back...no free upgrade this time...but comfy enough...





GOODBYE malaysia...

WELCOME cough...who is here to stay for long...wth...




ps: still suffering from cough while finishing up the post...
DAY 4 -

brunched at Kim Gary...here are the food...

The french kiss..eh ...toast that the rest like so much...me? well...i prefer the kiss...lolz...


food..


and food...



and more food...it's not ending...after brunch...the gals went to shop while the guys played LAN...and then....to search for the LEGENDARY 'lao shu fen' at i forgot how to call that place...








and here it was...the claypot...


买东西,吃东西,买东西, 吃东西。。。and the night was ended off with a long LONG ktv session...








my throat gave way after that...sigh..



DAY 3 - kl


making our way to kl...the 'lok kok' bus that's damn cheap...


the petronas tower in the day...


SECRET RECIPE cakes...shiok!



dinner was at the dunno-what-food-street...and of coz...needed some beer to subside the cough that we were all having....(not much effect...)


the 'recommended' food!! tasted alrite...decent..but not very very delicious...



the tower that stood directly in front of the hotel windows...i DUNNO wat tower lai de...



oh oh...the petronas at night! quite nice huh? very