stealing some time off...coz i really dun feel like doing any work...

youtubing is good....

i'm so sick....of school!!


i need to sleep...more sleep!!

i feel like updating...

but i'm too tired to think...


i can only say that there's something that's changing within me...i hope it's gonna be a good one...



one more month to examz....


welcome back, stress!

have you ever been irritated by someone that now...

u actually miss that person irritating u?



well...humans are strange....the world IS strange....

i need to be resolute....


stop idling!!!

there's something in me that'z changing...

i dunno if it's for the better...but...now...i'm not better....

放不下你 是我活该 ！!！!！

心情的起伏。不定
心理的平衡。不稳
心事的累积。承重
心。不在焉....
也不知道在哪里....
就是不在我这里....




monday...i was sitting at the cui 'cafe' outside LT7a...she was walking to the lift....she didn't see me

tuesday...i was on my way to LT6...she was outside LT7...we waved...

wednesday...i was having lunch in eng canteen....she's there with him and a friend...we waved...

perhaps...we are only 'waving' friends....or what i termed as 'hi-bye' friends...




no matter how hard i try...this is going nowhere...



in a way...i think it's me...i really still can't treat her as just a friend...although i really wanna remain a friend...


i think my heart is SO small...it's not big enough to accommodate everything...much as i want it to....sigh....i'm banging my head against THE wall again...




it's bad...when everyone is whacking projz and stuff....i'm just 'swinging' my mood time and again...

pardon me...i really need some time...MORE time...INFINITE TIME...


i'm such an ass! stupid me!

somehow...nothing seems to be working out this sem...

but i'm glad...i got the 'best' grp of company that anyone would die to have...

we play normally...study insanely...and got some many 'god-like' pple who are simply 'wicked sick'...out to 'own' everyone else! haha...and we whack like siao to get things that aren't working, working...





i'm also glad...that u are as happy as always...

"是谁的心啊 孤单地留下
他还好吗 我多么想爱他
那永恒的泪 凝固的一句话
也许可能蒸发

是谁的爱呀 用泪水坚强
今生呼唤 就让我融化
那一滴雨水 演化成我翅膀
向着我爱的人
追吧"

hmm...it's been sometime since i wrote a decent post...(decent in the sense that it's not those short short stuff)...midterm tests week is over...SHE hazop and term paper over...next up...design proj (hysys and mechanical)....argh...life sux...

endless work suddenly...this later half of the sem is gonna be extra hectic....looking back at the 1st 6 weeks when i practically did nothing but just keeping pace with tutorialz...wonder why is the schedule for this sem like this...

friday and sat(hari raya) cooped in sch's e5 comp lab to work on proj....sigh...where's the life?

and i really haven't played billiard or bball for a very long time...










brudder said he needs a PID controller for emotions....i can't use a PID...coz the D-action will amplify noises...i need a PI one!!! haha...only control engineers will know what i mean...

up and down ...up and down....on and off....on and off...

i think i need to use work to keep myself occupied...if not...i will get back to the hslx cycle...

trying to be a happier me....

i really wonder why i'm persisting....i'm feeling exhausted from all these....sigh....if there's anything that could make me stop...pls make me STOP! i don't wanna carry on like this anymore!!!!

i think i should be a ball...



since i like to be a-round....





sometimes...i just feel so angry abt myself.....

all i can do...is to be around...

just in case u needed someone...








but who's there for me?

as per promised....in random order...too lazy to line them up in chronological order...

didn't have a good midterm this time round...argh....

it was a happy day today...

though long...and no time to mug...(yah...maybe it's becoz i nvr mug...tatz why i feel so happy...)



guess who i met this morning...haha...

shhzz...

*winkz...


jiayou jiayou!

nothing beats a word from u...


thankz...thankz for ur kind words when i'm feeling low...

it really makes me feel alot better...








flanked a test today...a wake up call...coz September has already ended....