RevamPinG....Just a BloG...

"tHe GreaTesT tHinG, YoU'll eVeR LeaRn, iS jUsT tO LoVe anD bE LovEd iN rEtUrN..."

Thursday, May 31, 2007

for most of the time...i just wanna be appreciated...

even a small 'thank you'...
or be it a kind smile...

yes...that would have worth everything that was done...



day one at pc show sux...was being assigned to the Compaq booth which totally cocked up big time...right from the beginning of the day...i think all other booths of PC Connect had suffered some kind of suck-ishness...man...i wonder why the team leaders just have no leadership calibre...

okie...so...here, the whining shall begin...

we were told to be there at 11am...and so..dutifully...we did...except for zhihao (a.k.a felix)...who arrived slightly later....but still...he's not late enough to NOT witness the perm staff...having a briefing....setting up only when the crowd started to flock in...and so...a grp of abt 10 temps were waiting and idling...still haven't yet received any instructions on wat to do...

pissed....

and why am i assigned to compaq? when all its stuffs are kinda lousy to begin with...lappie and desktop specs are just soso...nothing impressive...no selling factor...okie...thatz probably becoz of my luck...since it's coupled with the location of the booth being in the middle of 2 other compaq booths by other shopz...

okie...wat more to add on to a lousy day like this?

almost zero salez..."i'll come back later" is the most often reply that i got...no! i'm actually okie with the reply...in fact....i should thank them in expressing interest and listen to me trying to smoke them out with stuffs that i dunno...

but the fact that no single one of them actually come back later...ouchz! (dun rub it in pls!!!!) it's...well...'encouraging'!!! okie...one did return after a short while larz...a very crappy lady...lolz...my 1st and last sale of the day at 2045? yeah..that you, miss...


wat actually pissed me off more were those customers that didn't even give me a 'stare' (okie..maybe not a STARE! but you know what i mean...) when i tried to talk to them in the most polite manner that i can afford to give....(pple who know me should know how cynical i can get...) yahz! was i practically talking to a wall...or just air then?

okiez...i do have my rule of thumb when approaching the pple...

1. pple on the phone...i dun disturb...
2. pple with ipods or any-crap-shiity-mp3-players plugged in...i leave them alone...(coz i myself tend to plug in my ipod shuffle when i wanna be dnd mood...i UNDERSTAND!)
3. pple who are looking at flyers that are not relevant to the ones i have...i dun kajiao....


so...these leave me with idle pple...with nothing to occupy that tiny 'world' of theirs...."omg! could you just like me into your world for a moment?!?!?! i just wanna share something ttz not so attractive, with you..."

of coz...there are always 2 sides to a coin...there are pple who are really nice to entertain me with a few kind words of 'thank you'...





the feeling of being appreciated is really wat pple need...

like the pple in simei care centre...even though they nvr express it...you can feel it...when you actualli go down to their place and make cards with them...some of them even make their way down to suntec world book fair to show support to the pple helping them...so swt!

yah...it's like when you organise gathering for friends..and some didn't even bother to reply...how would you feel man? totally unappreciated and sux!

like when i try my best to establish this friendship...hoping it can go one step further...trying to arrange for simple meals...and more often than not...the replies are...erm...sometimes...there's no reply even bah....

it's sad...but these things are happening...yahz....zs goes by...being unappreciated...when all that he wants...is just some recognition of his effort....


lolz...wat a long, whiny post!


i would like to leave with a simple note: it doesn't take much to make a person's day...a simple smile will do...

so...start showing some kindness to those around you...dun be stingy with that...it's not an expensive item to you...but it may worth a hell lot to otherz....

\be kind...

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

new song on blog: 说你爱我 by S.H.E...

nice song isn't it?

sad song still has its appeal to me....hmm...

and its lyric is penned by the wonderful...talented...beautiful...angelic...most-precious...whoelse-but HeBE!!!!

njoy it!


"说你爱我
变成一种问候
不如趁早放手
把爱坠落
让满地鲜红
说你爱我
变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后
我承担不起你的承诺"

Monday, May 28, 2007

strange dreams...random ones...

abt you...abt her...abt stranger...

i think subconsciously...i'm hslx-ing too much again...
hmm....so many interesting conversations tonight...

abt family...
abt love...
abt a person's character and pple's acceptance of them...
abt results and expectationz...


intriguing....



but of all the conversations...the one i find it hard to maintain the flow, is with you...i wonder why...kinda find it too 'one'way'...



and it's not even asked...when i tot everyone should be at least talking abt it...even if it's just a mere minute...
a day in suntec...

helping out at suntec today seemed fun...had a great time meddling with the cashier machine....and trying to get customers to come take a look at the cards(which i spent a little time on...coz i hate doing sales talk and my throat couldn't handle a day's talking...)

yah...and some customers were just not forthcoming at all...

ask ghim song...cheehao and scott and you will know what i mean...(oh...cheehao is my long lost primary sch friend that just so happen to be JK's army friend...and scott is someone that i got to know today...JK's friend as well...)

but to sum up...it's still a good sunday spent down there...though tiring...





well....certain pple's expectations are really like 'Mt Everest'...i guess it's just because of the different calibre bah...

i used to have every high expectations also...and i always feel that i could have done better...and it really gets me nowhere...at least not in the direction to be high up on top until there is no further way up...

so i learn to play down these irritating expectations...of mine...and of others'...everything that turns out good will be a blessing...a bonus...well...at least i wun feel too disappointed...no matter the outcome...at least i have answered to myself....and thatz enough...



hmm...to you who have mountainous expectations...maybe it works for you...and i sincerely hope that everything will just turn out well for you....i know you can achieve anything you want...you know that urself...it's just that you are being modest...

haha...all the best to you...and keep striving for the best...coz it belongs to you...

Sunday, May 27, 2007

'later'....


it nvr comes....

Saturday, May 26, 2007

is there no one to share the joy with?




我可以忙呀忙
我可以享受寂寞
一个人也能开party

天气有好有坏
热热闹闹朋友来
放开脚步我们一起去追风

喜欢自己那么意气扬飞
表现到底那个我
追逐自由自在的生活
天地多辽阔

我爱享受美好
just be yourself
我爱就勇敢的拥抱

当我奔跑在人生大道
阳光风雨都难不倒


我在等一个真心来对我好
nothing beats a lunch with you...

i would rather there is endless food on the table so that we could keep on eating...
i would rather the waiter keeps refilling the ice water...
i would rather just sit there with you in front and not do anything...

but i know that wun happen...


anyway...the lunch @ ichiban boshi at wisma was simply great...great food at decent prices...comfortable service...an ideal lunch partner...and 2 funny angmohs at the table beside...

ur presence nvr fail to make me smile...the day just seems brighter...




went home straight after since you got something on and i had got nothing...one of the earliest days that i reach home...


okay...some updates of wat i've been doing...

practically....nothing!

helping out ru de...andy...kangjie...and yin yee for the simei care centre thingy...yesh...it's simei...a freaking far place in the east of singapore...and i have been going there once in a while to help out for good cause...

helping to make handicraftz....cutting and pasting papers...for cute cute designs to be pasted on cards...the amt of handicraft work these few dayz would have easily surpassed those that i had done in primary school....

will be down at suntec for the world book fair on sunday to help sell those stuffz coz they have a booth there....

and probably going down a few more times next week...





yan msged to announce her bad news today...hmm...dun feel too bad...just try again in sem 2!!! jiayou!! well...on a brighter note...haven't you sort of prepare for wateva kind of outcome? be strong, okay....you will still have alot of lunch kaykee in sch...and our BK agreement will hold...

you will always have us!!! the bunch of idiotz...erm...friends...





dunno what i'll be doing next week...badminton on tues...and pc show on thurs to sun...hmm...i think i will go swim on one of those free dayz...suddenly feel like soaking myself in water and do some peddling...

swimming, anyone?

haha...i will probably swim alone...unless....hmm...

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Come What May - moulin rouge song...

the same song that touched me 5-6 years ago...it still does have the effect today...now..thatz what i call a love song...probably becoz of the story behind it...

"oh....come what may....come what may...i will love you...until my dying day...."

Music Video Version -


Movie Version -




here'z the full lyricz:


Ewan McGregor / Nicole Kidman Lyrics - Come What May Lyrics

Artist: Ewan McGregor / Nicole Kidman Lyrics
Song: Come What May Lyrics


Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Come back to me, and forgive everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

[Chorus:]
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

[Chorus]

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

[Chorus]

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

it's conveniently forgotten...and happily avoided....

Monday, May 21, 2007

no zs....you are not even close...

you are nobody....

Friday, May 18, 2007

hmm...gone blog surf for awhile and came across weiz's post on friendship...(oh...btw...he's my chem eng 'jie bai' brudder...haha...we have so many things in common...and i keep bumping into him in sch..)

well...it's indeed amazing how some friendships are formed and remain strong with the minimum effort...maybe it's the thing called 'fate'...it's just like how i can dun see my sec sch friends for ages during sch term...but when we meet up during the hols...the bond is still there...staying strong...hmm...maybe it's becoz of the many moments we shared in the past...

but then again...minimum effort is still needed...yes...a once-in-a-while 'Hi' over msn can hit off a decent chat to update on each other's life.....sadly...a few of these sec sch friends are somewhat more drifted away...i shan't list names here...hopefully..this sunday's bbq can serve as a chance for everyone to meet up again...




it does hurtz when you realise that the effort to maintain the friendship is pretty much one sided...(yes...even friendship can be unrequitted!?!??!!!?)...disappointed...is it really so hard to be just good friends? is it not possible to be good friends? well...maybe like what weiz said...this friendship might nvr reach that kind of level...no matter how hard i try...

i may be misinterpreted...but for now....i really just wanna be a good friend...nothing more...

i'm getting tired of all these...i'm beginning to wonder if it's worth it...
'te quiero' means 'i like you'...

'te amo' is 'i love you'...


it's spanish...if i'm not wrong...

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

it's wednesday already...then comes thursday...comes friday...

another week has gone by...
another week of disappointment...
another week of hope dashed...


argh...i wonder why am i still hoping...i shouldn't be...afterall...there's no obligations on both sides....there's no promise....just a verbal agreement that counts for nutz....

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

and yes...i tot i should mention something i came across in the book also...

it abt this 'second mind' that is within each of us...you can't control it...and it will just think abt what it wants to...

just listen to what it has to say...dun argue with it...just let it spurt out whatever it has...it will get tired...so let it be...

i conclude myself that it will not affect you if you just let it go on until it gets exhausted and stop...


a second mind that does the hslx? haha..probably...

Monday, May 14, 2007

another visit to the doc today again...

endless pills...cough syrup...antibioticz...and on top of those...pi pa gao...lozengez...

i hate coughs/sore throat...coz i always take a long time to recover from that...this time i dunno why...but the entire throat is just swollen...have difficulty swallowing food...and even plain water...

there's nothing really exciting in the hols...all the things that i have so much wanted to do during the exam period...i have hardly done any...

haven't dmj...haven't ktv...haven't gone to the beach...haven't met up with shaggerz...haven't met up with NESWG...


things that i have done:

1. once to ecp with some pple from acqua (but many pple nvr go)

2. read a book...finished Paulo Coelho's "Valkyries"..which for most part of the book...i was actualli quite lost...it's abt searching for your angel...and as many have already known...i'm not a very spiritual person

3. some billiard sessionz

4. one bball session

5. spiddy 3 which was quite a disappointment..

6. doc visiting twice for my cough...

7. and some tuitions...

8. and many many zs' movies for the nights



boring boring life....

Saturday, May 12, 2007

when you have a cough, don't tell the doctor that no phelgm comes out. She will give u medicine to cough all the phelgm out. In fact, you might even cough your lungs out. Damn!

Friday, May 11, 2007

"五月天" - S.H.E


Thursday, May 10, 2007

oh man...even the number of pple to play bball with decreases....we have 7 today...

well..actualli...7 is good too...i just hope it won't drop to a one-on-one type of bball session...i guess the rest of them are just too lazy to nie bah...

but wat else can replace an evening of funz? i really dunno...ha...



went to watch spiderman 3 today with yan and pj...before tat..went sakae for lunch coz pj got a 20 bucks voucher...well...had i-forget-watz-the-name don....a freaking 12.90 that tasted not-too-fantastic...and that looked so different from the menu....crapz....sakae is really not worth its ala carte...just go cheong its buffet!


spiddy 3 wasn't too good too...i guess Peter Parker has too much relationship stuffs to deal with...with MJ...with his best friend(whom i can't remember the name)...to the sandman that 'killed' his uncle...to the photographer that turned venom.....wth! and there's really so little action...

and the afternoon crowd wasnt too pleasing too! ask pj and yan and you will know what i mean...2 tamil kids that went "sandman" here and "sandman" there....and a group of rv kidz that giggled so loudly with Peter Parker mention penies peonies and handed them to Mary Jane...

my advice: west mall (or anywhere with schs nearby) cine crowd in the afternoon after the sch/exam time is really a no-no...

i'm glad i have high tolerance level and can filter out noisies that i dun wanna hear...trained from my mugging for this sem...haha...i wasn't very much irritated....



well...then on...after the movie which ended at 5:45pm i guess....me and pj hitched a taxi down to nie for bball...and wth! got on the taxi only after 6pm...peak hours!! subcharge = $2!!! all thankz to yan who had to go atm to withdraw money to pay me...

bball was okay today...didn't have the chance to get too tired coz the nie court sorta auto-switch-off-the-lights at 8pm...yah!

went JP for dinner and a ride back home on weilun's car...


and here i was...blogging after i watched yet another zs' night time movie...yup...on-screen tonight was "Pursuit of Happyness" ...purposefully spelt with a 'y'....the story abt Chris Gardner...some big ass that i dunno who...his way to success...and he was quite a loser in the 80z...but his perseverence and determination and will are all too commendable...he definitely deserved what he got in the end...


tough times...yesh..there will be...there will always be...but the constant pursuit of happiness has to be there...to some...happiness is just simply things like a shelter overhead for that night...to others...it might be something of a far greater scale...but no matter wat...happiness is definitely not materialistic-al...the bare minimum to survive is wat suffice...wateva extras are bonuses....the most important thing is..tat you have loved ones to go thru anything with you...



alrite...it's been long since i typed so much...fingers kinda tired...need for dotA training for stronger fingers...haha...

ciaoz

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

"Dont' write me off"

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

gosh...i'm beginning to get used to watching movie alone...at home...

solitude...

i can pause when and where i like...and laugh and cry whenever i feel like it (but i realize my tear glands are spoilt...i haven't teared since dunno when...)

but to be frank...i miss those dayz when i watch movies in the cinema with friends...and loved ones...

"going for movie is the most anti-social social event" --- joanne peh in "afterhours"

in a way...it's true...but it's still fun to be able to laugh together aloud in the theatre...or just crouch yourself in the 'comfortable' cushion seat to njoy yet another masterpiece that conveys deep msg to the viewers...or simply a blockbuster to awe everyone thatz willing to pay the 9 buckz? (omg...i dun even know the ticket price these dayz)

i believe every movie has its story to tell...so just sit back and listen to wat it has to say...

and isn't it amazing that you hardly find things that happen in movies appear in real life? perhapz thatz becoz life's more than what you think it is as of now...it could have been more...if only you allow it the space to expand...

direct your own life movie....it will be the next big hit on screen...well..at least you have one viewer....tatz yourself! njoy it...coz it's your very own masterpiece....

Sunday, May 06, 2007

200 pounds beauty is such a touching show...

i almost cried watching it!....i'm such a weeper!



KANG hanna!

Saturday, May 05, 2007

feeling kinda lost....and it's just less than a week since my last paper....





i dun wanna waste my holidayz away...

Friday, May 04, 2007

Don't write me off

It's never been easy for me
To find words to go along with a melody
But this time there's actually something on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines

Since I met you my whole life has changed
It's not just my furniture you've re-arranged
I was living in the past
But somehow you've brought me back
and I haven't felt like this since before Frankie said relax

and now I know based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I'm asking you
is Don't write me off just yet

For years I've been telling myself the same old story
That I'm happy to live off my so called former glories
but you've given me a reason
to take another chance
now I need you despite the fact
that you've killed all my plants

and now I know
i've already blown more chances
than anyone should ever get
all I'm asking you
is Don't write me off just yet
don't write me off just yet
"i need inspiration...not just another negotiation..."

Thursday, May 03, 2007

"All i'm asking you,
is don't write me off just yet..."


--some song in music and lyrics




such a nice movie with nice songs....