if there is one person that i really really wanna beat up....that person would be ...my BROTHER...yes....it's him!! i shall dedicate this entry to badmouth my stupid brother...who thinks so damn highly of himself...who thinks he is so f@rking good in mahjong....who is so boastful.....

fark....

it's always new year when i got flared up with him....playing mahjong with him is so damn farking irritating....

i mean i do not consider myself as a pro larz...but at least i am not a noob...i don't have to be lectured....i did my own rationalization of the situation before i made a decision....i may make mistake sometimes (as i have said..i'm not really pro)....but if there is something that you think i did wrong...you dun have to be so farking sarcastic....things can be said in a better and more friendly way....

害他一起给钱...so? 给 lor...if you dun wanna 一起给...go play the computer mahjong larz...if you think i too noob...dun play when i play lorz....

i've learnt to handle such situation well enough...still remember last year...i farking yelled at him on my way home...and he farking yelled back....

this year...i've learnt...i boh chap.....you sarca me...i sarca back....i play my own way...

but playing mahjong with him is never funz....arse....maybe i should never play with him again....

maybe...that'z just my life....i never seem to win during new year....during normal times...i seldom win also....

maybe i should follow taoz....quit mahjong for a while and make a big comeback....lolz

haiz...am i fated to stay like this? why is luck never seem to be on my side?

where are YOU?!?!?!?

am i too good to pple i know well? sometimes...i feel that i'm being taken for granted....

am i too cold to others? sometimes, i feel that i can be more sociable....

am i supressing to much? sometimes, i feel that i should open up more....

不想睡 vs 睡不着. explain the differences and similarities between the 2.

sounds like an exam question huh? an essay worth 25 marks may not even justify/clarify the subtle differences between the 2.

how many late nights have you been through in a year? how many of them are voluntarily and how many are forced circumstances?

have you ever wonder some people stay up all night? 'for fark?' ... (not the literal meaning here)...mugging?...gaming?...思念ing?...pondering abt the philopsophy of life....

some pple just choose not to sleep simply because they dun feel like it...as in the former case...sleeping = waste of time...how true....i remember once a friend told me...if we sleep 8 hrs a day..by the time we reach 30 years old...we have slept 10 years of our life away...'quality' time spent with 周公...well..maybe not playing chess anymore...(can perhaps play billiard...blar blar...)

what is the point that i'm trying to drive at? i also dunno...just wanna talk abt sleep....

abt why i'm very tired NOW...but i still choose to stay online...listening to songs and blog....

perhaps there is really no reason for that...people are irrational, emotional freaks....that only 'god-knows-who' can understand...


it's amazing how a song can set the mood and prepare myself for the night in bed (slping)...


just went to a few of my friends' blogs...a few afterthoughts...

it's always easier to rationalize things when taken from a 3rd party viewpt...(旁观者轻）....

_time heals all wounds...and even if it doesn't it will, to a certain extent, successfully numb the hurtful feelings and life does go on...it's pretty stupid to have your life stagnanting...

well..but then again...旁观者清....hmm...is this 清 as in 清楚 or the other 轻 as in 'light'? haha...chinese language...chim....or i getting rusty....


feb....the season of love....getting into the mood of loving....ohz....not me...but i can feel the loving atmosphere of the pple around me....

understooded? or should i say it more clearly? not that i love someone or someone loves me...but...people around me are loving people around here and there...

still not clear....周围的人都在爱来爱去....hmm...i also '爱来爱去' (i love going here and there)...pretty lame....well....

observe around yourself and you will see...it seems like a trend...to be in the loving mood for feb....

dun be particularly disturbed to this post....dun pay particular attention to it either....i'm just crapping as usual....

but really...a well selected list of songs prepare me for a good night sleep now....

ciao~

and happy new year...

梦中情人

just bought SHE 不想长大 dvd mv today...and guess what...it came with a giant size poster....so big that i can't find available wall area in my room to put it up...lolz...will try to rearrange those on the wall to accomodate this super big one after cny....next time you come my room(if you ever have the chance to come my house in the 1st place)...you will see it...wahaha...

oh yahz....新年快乐 to all!!!1

and thankz wanling for the egreeting card...take care....

i finally ran this morning....but really, i could feel my heart collapsing anytime (wahaha)...what i mean is that i felt super unfit ...ran from home to the stadium...roughly less than 1 km ba..and i wanted to quit le...but persevere to complete a mere 6 rounds around the track...abt 30mins of running time...

felt...super tired after that..and went on to sleep for 2 hrs till 11am....(yah..i ran damn early de)....shall start this running regime every monday morning....

hmm...a new year with new hope....

i wanna go to sleep with a smile...and wake up with an even greater smile....

just went dongli88.3fm webbie and saw gong shijia's photos @ ntu campus....got me inside...wahaha....

http://www.dongli883.com.sg/EventDetails.aspx?UID=117...go see if you got time....

these are the songs that are always with me wherever i am these dayz (playing on laptop....listening to my xphone)...

白鸽 - 龚诗嘉
不要说抱歉 - 陈慧玲 (i'm looking/waiting for shi xinhuey's version)
没有你的每一天 - 徐捷儿
Kiss Goodbye - 王立宏

hmm..what should a blog abt ne? the 1st coming cny as a uni undergrad? the cny that does not feel like cny? the stressful life in uni? the slacking me? the ever stressful-BUT-still-slacking me?

the song on my blog is nice yah?

anyway..went for dinner with weekwok..alvin...amelia and selina this evening....nver heard of these people? haha...they are some of my uni classmates...actualli not joining them one..but bcoz my mum didn't cook (she was busy preparing stuff for cny)...so decided to go with them....well...it's the 1st official meal outside nus with them ba? if i remember correctly larz....lolz...quite a fun bunch of pple...pple that i will have to mug with for the many sems....


wonder how many people actually view my blog....why don't every single one who view it leave a post/comment on this entry? then i can count....hee~

going slp le...tmr i MUST run!!!!!

did i mention that ah lu's (tao'z) msn nick sounds happy these days? hha...

i feel happy for my friends....when they are happy.....



and sometimes...i wonder what will make me happy these dayz....

"任时光匆匆流去我只在乎你"

went out with sigma ex-collegues today for lunch @ 东海 restaurant..some teochew ala carte but no buffet dim sum restaurant...quite ex...18 bucks for all the food that we ordered and shared among us, which includes me xueying ronne tailin sean dennis weefang and celest...then there were christine and kelvin (i hope i did not remember their names wrongly) collegues that join the company after we left....

one thing abt going out with older friends cum working class....meals are quite ex....at least 18 bucks for the 穷书生 (3 of us) is alot for a sat lunch bahz....but it's quite a fun outing...sigma people are friendly and funz...haha

then we went off on our ways to do different stuffs....agreeing to meet for dinner later in the evening....me ronne xueying went shopping at far east as xueying wanna get his hair cut....tailin and seam tagged along and went home after a while...

weefang celestine and christine went metro shopping....

dennis and kelvin wakeboarding (how shiok)....

anyway to cut the story short....most of us did not meet up for dinner in the end....at least i didn't....

went home...ate dinner...and went out to west mall with parents. as the shopping trip in the day only ended up with me buying a nike bball shorts...haha....20 bucks....

so we went to west mall to buy my new year clothes....bought a shirt and a polo....70 bucks....one good thing of going out with parents....they tend to pay for your stuff when they are in a good mood and still have money after buying 4d and toto.....lolz....

came home...did a tut for cm1502....looks simple....did simply....but dunno whether correct or wrong....

i so hardworking...

tmr is doing-tutorials-day again!!!! so many tut to do for the upcoming week....

一个邻家的小女孩
一个才华洋溢的创作歌手
一把能够打动人心的嗓音
一个24岁的女生。。。。。龚诗嘉

最近一直都在听她的歌。。。每一次听。。。都一再的被感动

i feel i ought to blog abt this:

i lost my cash card today in the library!!!! or rather...i lent it to friends to photocopy stuff and we all forgot to retrieve it!!! sometimes, it just simply show how careless pple are with things that are not their, isn't it? i bet if the card were my friends' they wun forget abt it....

it's just my luck bahz...

the first bad thing that happen to me in 2006...

why do bad things only happen to me?

why do only bad things happen to me?

note the difference....

雨天。。。

今天午后下起了一场大雨。。。原本兴致勃勃的我，提着装满衣裤和篮球的背包，往学校去。。。这一场雨来得真不是时候。。将我原有的计划推翻了。。。好想运动！！！ 好想好好的出一身汗。。。想一想。。也以有好久没打篮球了。。。怀念那些在球场上飞奔的中学时期。。。我喜欢打篮球的快感。。。不顾一切的勇往直前的冲劲。。。那股冲动，也只有在球场上才能感觉到。。。平时的我。。。也许太冷静。。。太沉闷。。。有很多想做的事。。。很多想说的话。。都藏在心里。。

我讨厌下雨天。。。懒懒的心情。。。提不起劲。。。只想赖在床上。。。什么都不作。。。

龚诗嘉的歌声好好听。。。

“如果有一个乐园 我一定看得见” - 白鸽

我也想看见那一个属于我的乐园。。。我也想追逐我自己的梦想。。。但我却还不清楚我要的是什么。。。我不贪心。。。不要求很多。。。只求一种平凡的快乐。。。能和一个相爱的人分享。。。

2005 年过得真快。。。转眼又是新的一年的起点。。。这不是我非常向往的一段
期间。。。可能是因为这一二月份会让我想起一段不开心的回忆吧。。。一段我以渐渐忘记的事情。。。

或许情伤需要的是另一段感情才能够痊愈。。。

不要误会。。。我不是忘不了曾经的事。。。我只是找不到曾经感受过的快乐。。。

好久没以华文写字了。。。感觉不错。。。虽然需要较多时间。。。可是却比较容易。。也比较准确地描写出我内心的思索。。。

once in a while, i shall post a picture of my dear...

my timetable for sem 2

latest maple status update....
archer lvl 38....02 x 10% glove dex scroll....03 x lvl 35 archer top....02 x weight earring for quest...01 x lvl 40 hat...02 x lvl 35 mage hat....2m of mesos....and BANNED!!!!!

haha..i think the picture sums up everything....it marks the end of my mapling dayz....why? coz i hacked into the game...yes...i do hack...but i am a noob hacker...know nuts abt hacking and that may explain why i got caught....

previously, in CO (conquer online) i was macro-ing and lost a great deal of my equipments...now in maple....i use vac hack..godmode...and macro-arrow bomb....someone saw..and he said hat he wans the hack..i never gave it to him and asked he to go and learn himself..JJJ1112 is his ID...then he tracked me...and then he logged off game...after a while a higher level character came to my map...(i guess is a gm after receiving hack report sent by someone) then after like one hour plus...i was BANNED....

hee...why cannot hack? coz if you hack..you lvl up fast...get more money....dun nid to buy prepaid card for the game...and ultimately...the collapse of the game server as they earn nothing if everyone hacks...this is from the moderators' pt of view...

from some gamers' pt of view...hacking is okay if you share the hack with me...if i spot you hacking and you refuse to share...i will report you....act of jealousy...the how-com-you-have-but-i-don't-and-i-want-to-have mentality....so unhealthy...

as for some patient players who dun mind spending time and money on the game....(definitetly not me)..they can spend hours and hours in the game levelling....never get tired of the routine action of pressing 'c' or whatever attk keys.....

looks ike gaming doesn't suit me...the CO lasted me quite long...i think about 1 yr plus..but this maplesea is disappointing....2 months or so only....

less game...and more study sports from now on...haha...i hope

朋友, 生日快乐!!!!



i reach lvl 37 liaoz....

what a long day...though there is no sch for me today...

met up with pj..jia and yanz fr shopping at queensway today...quite a fruitful trip i guess....pj bought a black adidas bball shoes...yanz an adidas shoe and 2 pair of socks and jia a pair for socks....

as for me...i bought a white blue with a silver stripe adidas garnett bball shoes...quite nice i think...but i still prefer it in black.. (the black color one does not have my size)...then i got a brown sling bag...retro feel..as my very belated bday present...and a pair of jeans...lack a shirt now for new year....

then me, pj and jia went off to meet ah yu to go ntu for gong shijia's campus concert...saw a few friends in ntu as usual...

then...when me and pj were talking and suddenly mentioned abt tiongz...wondering if he was coming to this concert as well..we looked across the area and what a surprise...he was at the other queue at the opposite side....

shijia is not too bad...can sing well and she composes some nice songs on her own...just that she is abit green and doesn't know what to say on stage....looks quite cute and sweet and yahz..she plays bball too...haha...

brought her album along and got her signature...the picture below (taken together with jiarong and weilun whom i met there) - courteousy to jiarong's camera and pj the camera man....

looks cute horz? the album in her hand is mine...lolz....should have asked her for S.H.E numbers horz....haha...i'm mad abt hebe...i confess!


cropped...me and shijia

昨晚, 我又梦见了她. 这些年来, 你还好吗?

爱着你的每一天 你就是我的世界
那时候还以为 我就爱着一遍
没有你的每一天 快乐里我很遥远
心已碎你走了 还能用什么感觉...

new song on blog....it's an old song which i love very much

i met the gal i love the most today!!!!!!!!!






went S.H.E 签唱会 today....initially i did not want to go coz no one accompany me...but heard from pj that weili(my sec sch classmate) going...so i decided to go after for lect ended at 6pm....weili skipped his lect halfway to go and queue ...haha/...

so when my lecture ended...i rushed down to marina square....cut queue...lolz..but still waited quite long...what makes thing worse was that i had a very light lunch with no breakfast at 2pm or so...no dinner...and i was damn hungry....

by the time we reached the stage...S.H.E were already very tired...could see from their facial expression...trying to force a smile when feeling tired...hebe looks super pretty up close...but a pity that they were so busy signing the lyrics books that i did not have a chance to shake hands with them..and most importantly ...her...sigh...if only i were in the front queue....maybe then she would smile at me and shake hands with me....

next time got S.H.E events i know i can get who to go with me le...yeahz

this post shall mark the end of the holidayz...a summary:

1. chun yen bday bbq at his condo
2. yanz super-belated bday chalet at chevrons
3. a few (i think 2 or 3) badminton sessions
4. a few bball sessions
5. a few mahjong sessions with a. uni friends, b. shaggerz
6. my bday buffet @ my house
7. jianxiong's bday buffet
8. chalet with jc friends
9. a mac dinner on new year's eve cum party world clementi countdown
10. sleep over at craig's condo on 1st jan
11. a movie i think "King Kong"
12. a book "Tha Zahir"
13. bleach episode 1-62
14. 真命天女
15. some billiarding
16. mapling !!!

and here are what did not happen:

1. beach
2. an organised k-lunch
3. some good shopping (i only got myself a new wallet during the entire holidays)
4. more movies
5. more sports
6. shaman king.....
7. shopping for new year clothes....and a pair of bball shoes...

to sum up...a disappointing holiday has just past....

finally found a song that i have always liked but don't know the title of it and the singer...by chance...i saw my friend's msn nick being set as a phrase in the lyrics...it prompted me to search for that song....

没有你的每一天 by 徐婕儿....a sad song....but very nice...it's one of my fave song...together with 了解...很想你...and recently, 不要说抱歉 and 天灰.....

"没有你的每一天 快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了 还能用什么感觉"

a new year ahead!!!!

a wonderful journey to orbis in maple...haha...it all started becoz a group of aimless young adults got so free that they started playing maple....then it led to them wanting to form a guild...

and so..everyone started saving up and hunting even more...trading items, scrolls and equipment for mesos (their money in the game)...finally...they got abit richer and decided to go form the guild...the following pictures will tell the story...


set off at 11:50 pm...6 persons have to be present to witness the guild forming...so...at 11:50pm on a sat night...they gathered in ellinia and bought the tix to the place....


once they got up the airship...they were all so excited...kept running abt exploring the ship...


and not to forget...an acting out of the famous Titanic scene...jack and ...hmm...where's rose? (the scene ALONE without a female lead)


high up in the sky...smiling...thatz me of cuz


me, on top, with my friends below...all of them can't get to the top!!! hahaha


guild forming part 1...we got onto the place..got abit lost here and there and finally, came to the LEGENDARY place to form the guild....






beyond this...we went to the orbis tower...trying to explore deeper but the monster prevented us...too strong for the non-magicians...so we decided to abort the adventure and we felt abit homesick...(actually, is tired alrz...we all wanna slp le)...so...climbed back up the tower and got out to buy tix for the returning trip...




the way home...a picture before we met some pirate ship..balrog monster i think..all of us died....then we re board a new ship and hid in the rooms...


1:55am back home...finally reached the place that we are all more fimiliar with...

sHaGgerZ is the guild name...haha....yanz miss out all the funz...but you still gotta pay pj!!!!

nus cors bidding is a chore....

seriously, i don't understand why bidding can be so hard...1st i got my por for 500 pts...thatz a hell lot..didn't know why this sem econs is so hot...next the bid for changing landscape..got pple put 100 points one...haha...then the bid went up to as high as 300...dun wanna waste my pts..so i withdraw...

round 2b...looking at einstein...initially was okay..till some stupid ass up the bid to 200!!!! and it ended up at 303...another battle lost...

i dun understand why they have to many points to spare...graduating sem? and so all the graduating students plunging all their pts down? where is the protection for the 1st year new students....i didn't see it happen...

poe was i think the engineer students ownself spoil market...bloody hell...i seriously think it could be gotten at 100 pts at most....now it's x 05

am i fated to take only 5 modules?

9 slots opening for einstein in round 2c...should i show hand? or should i change to genes and society which has 90 more vacancy next round?...but i dun have bio background....but i dun mind spending 1pt and s/u the module...but/...but...but...

we shall see how it goes....market spoilers!!! i'm ready for you....

it's been a few days straight that i have been sleeping ultra late....thurs chalet...so no sleep till 4am plus...friday continued with mahjong with ghimsong, wee kwok, shiyao and amelia till 11pm...saturday countdowned in clementi party world with jj, tiongz, yu, yanz, jia....sunday went craig's hse to sleep over (a.k.a no till till 4 am plus AGAIN) and only came home this afternoon...slept like crazy...but i always hate the super lethargic feeling when i do not have enough sleep at night and wake up from a day nap...it simply spoils the rest of that day...

like now...i can't sleep...though i'm still tired....

did plenty of party quests in maple just now...no other groups were doing it....coz tmr is the 1st day of sch for many pple....this shows the age group that's is actively playing maple....imagine on every other day during the hols....the pq was hard to get in...and tonight, we succeddfully get in on every click...

enough of the game...

craig's hse stay over was again, mapling (DID i JusT SAY ENOUGH OF THE GAME??!?!?!) yahz...me...pj...jj...and jia brought our lappies along and played there....other then that there's the 3 stars world cup achievement together with pj and jj on Xbox winning 11....england....lolz...we beat france through penalties in finals....the rest of them went down for some self help drink...they got a bit high i guess....

coming to think abt shaggerz...my clique of sec sch friends....it's a strange thing how we form this clique...really....we don't really share much common interests...most gatherings ae usually lunches or dinners....other than that...everyone seems busy with their own lifes....even billiard sessions with my 2 kakees are reduced...mapling takes up most of the time we meet online...lolz

and those who do not maple are somewhat left out if you ever notice....but i guess they are still very fine with that...coz to them...there are many more things to their life other than gaming with friends...

又要开课了...好讨厌这种感觉...上学回家上学回家...好无聊的程序...毫不多姿多彩的生活...看来我必须找个让我期待去学校的理由...

想一想...2006年已到...希望新的一年 能有一个新的开始 让过去的一切成为一段完美的回忆