i think that i'm not a good lover....not a very good friend either....such a failure...haha....
Monday, May 30, 2005
Last friday, pj, kokz and taoz came over for some overnight mahjong....haa..got quite abit of luck that night...da san yuan is the most shiok one...the pic below is the evidence...had such a nice hand even from the very beginning of that round....
played till 5 plus 6 in th emorning...had a bit of sleep and went for billiard with pj and kokz at abt 10 am....5 hrs straight action of snooker....so tired...haha..then in the evening...went to yishun safra for my jc friend's bday buffet...a simple meal and caught up with him since long never see him le...sunday was boring...slack at home whole day with my family... today and tmr no work...coz quitted sigma aldrich....
da san yuan
played till 5 plus 6 in th emorning...had a bit of sleep and went for billiard with pj and kokz at abt 10 am....5 hrs straight action of snooker....so tired...haha..then in the evening...went to yishun safra for my jc friend's bday buffet...a simple meal and caught up with him since long never see him le...sunday was boring...slack at home whole day with my family... today and tmr no work...coz quitted sigma aldrich....
da san yuan
Thursday, May 26, 2005
" i needn't be with the man i love "
--xuan xuan as "tian lan" in Golden Faith (channel u show)
began to watch it only recently...quite a nice show....i always like hongkie drama...of higher standard than our local delights....
What's the most annoying thing that existed in the world? Hmm....emotions ba....agree with me? maybe not...but really think so at the moment...haha...was dramas are full of the complicated issue.....touching songs never fail to touch on the thing called 'love' ...esp chinese songs....yupz...was talking to shiyun on msn the other day and she was telling me that chinese songs always about love, love and more love...so standard...nothing outstanding...haha...maybe i should listen to more english songs....but i don't like all the 'yoz' and the 'yeahz'...meaningless raps....haha...
yeapz..it's irritating....*applies both to emotions and english 'yoz-yeahz' raps....
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Am i living in the past? nope....the past is history....it's dead...or i'm already pronounced dead in the past....lolz....memories from the past may be sweet..or bitter...don't really matter....coz i have decided not to unveil them anymore....feel happy for me? why yes..you should....coz you guys simply love the lame me right? okayz....i will be lame...literally limping when i walk around....
--xuan xuan as "tian lan" in Golden Faith (channel u show)
began to watch it only recently...quite a nice show....i always like hongkie drama...of higher standard than our local delights....
What's the most annoying thing that existed in the world? Hmm....emotions ba....agree with me? maybe not...but really think so at the moment...haha...was dramas are full of the complicated issue.....touching songs never fail to touch on the thing called 'love' ...esp chinese songs....yupz...was talking to shiyun on msn the other day and she was telling me that chinese songs always about love, love and more love...so standard...nothing outstanding...haha...maybe i should listen to more english songs....but i don't like all the 'yoz' and the 'yeahz'...meaningless raps....haha...
yeapz..it's irritating....*applies both to emotions and english 'yoz-yeahz' raps....
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Am i living in the past? nope....the past is history....it's dead...or i'm already pronounced dead in the past....lolz....memories from the past may be sweet..or bitter...don't really matter....coz i have decided not to unveil them anymore....feel happy for me? why yes..you should....coz you guys simply love the lame me right? okayz....i will be lame...literally limping when i walk around....
had been having strange occurence of my left ear suddenly blocking recently...then i will heard this 'eee-ing' sound....whatz wrong with my ear...think i'm going deaf soon???
i dun wan to be deaf...
i dun wan to be deaf...
Soccer is like WWF....so fake...
haha...judge from the title...the critics gonna comment once again...are major soccer matches, like the champions league final early this morning, all fixed? Think about it...judging from the large amount of money pumped in on these matches worldwide..be it legal or illegal...i personally think that they are...though not all games...
based on yesterday's match (maybe it's just my imagination) i shall tell you why...first of all, liverpool..being the 'black horse' that has landed in the 2005 finals...they were obviously the underdog to lift the trophy in Istanbul (Turkey)....so, i can say that the majority of soccer punters (bettors) are on Milan's side...afterall they have all the champion-players...some even won with the club in the same tournament 2 years back...in the likes of Schevcenko (European Footballer of the year 2005), Seedorf..Kaka..Maldini...there is simply no way that they can lose to a team that 'never walk alone'...
okay...putting that aside...before the match even kicked off...i think only liverpool's fans were having their money on their fav team of course...okie...maybe some others minority that thinks that the merseysiders can defy the odds...
with the boat heavy towards AC Milan...the match kicked off...and Maldini scored in the very 1st minute from a Pirlo's freekick...Milan takers were laughing with their jaws on the ground when Crespo added 2 more before the 45 mininute mark...everyone tot liverpool was over...with their defence with loopholes...and steven gerrard in the 'hidings'...
*this part is purely my own judgement* 如有雷同 纯属巧合 *
this is the curcial point when match fixing could actually come into play...a halftime handicap given to liverpool?!?!? (meaning milan [- 1/2 ball] for the 2nd half)...judging from the form they were having...they could easily score a few more in the 2nd half...so..with this market opened...many that had previously place their money on the Reds would want to cut loss or even win and so...placed money on AC on the halftime odds??? maybe...could be...
then, the drama began...3 goals for liverpool in 6 minutes (54th to 60th)...and this would be the 1st sweep....bookies were grinning from ear to ear already...those that betted on AC at half time had already lost it almost for sure...
the next half an hour was exciting....viewers sweating palms and head and anywhere that can sweat...the AC supporters (in terms of betting) from the very start were suffering from heart attacks...strokes...and whatever they had...seeing every effort that failed to pay off....Schevcenko's endless good runs all saved by the floppy Dudek...and the hardworking Carragher...and Stevie G working hard to prevent crosses from the right flank....
the moment came when Andrei Schevcenko's strike in the late 80-something minute was saved by Dudek and so was his follwoing up...even when dudek was still on the ground...it marked the end of the 90 minutes...and soccer bettors (mostly) either lost on AC or won on Pool but lost on AC at 2nd half...see the irony....only pple that support liverpool with their money throughout the entire game won....and of coz...the bookies.....
the remaining of the extra time was just an extended battle as when money is concerned...most were done for the good of the 幕后黑手s....interesting..went into penalties and Dudek-the flop..who hadn't been performing in the match until the very late was the hero of the night....he saved abt 2 shots...and saw one flew over the post....and this the how liverpool created history....amazing it is....remarkable performance from the Reds...esp Gerrard and Carragher....Those that saw the match would have to agree with me for these 2 unsang heros...(more for Carragher i guess) wasn't him just everywhere on the field last night?!?!?
haha...think i can start a column in newpaper for after match analysis of possible fixed matches le....haha...maybe if GP has an essay topic that says "Modern soccer matches are money making machines and no longer just sport" Comment....
think i will definitely score an A for that....haha....and even more true..i would keep asking for more papers coz i had endless examples....lolz
that'z all for today...din go to work today..coz woke up with a headache...and hangover from the unacceptable reality of the darkness behind soccer....that'z why i quitted soccer bettin months or a year ago...coz i can't understand and make use of the 'power from the drak side'
'May the force be with you'....
based on yesterday's match (maybe it's just my imagination) i shall tell you why...first of all, liverpool..being the 'black horse' that has landed in the 2005 finals...they were obviously the underdog to lift the trophy in Istanbul (Turkey)....so, i can say that the majority of soccer punters (bettors) are on Milan's side...afterall they have all the champion-players...some even won with the club in the same tournament 2 years back...in the likes of Schevcenko (European Footballer of the year 2005), Seedorf..Kaka..Maldini...there is simply no way that they can lose to a team that 'never walk alone'...
okay...putting that aside...before the match even kicked off...i think only liverpool's fans were having their money on their fav team of course...okie...maybe some others minority that thinks that the merseysiders can defy the odds...
with the boat heavy towards AC Milan...the match kicked off...and Maldini scored in the very 1st minute from a Pirlo's freekick...Milan takers were laughing with their jaws on the ground when Crespo added 2 more before the 45 mininute mark...everyone tot liverpool was over...with their defence with loopholes...and steven gerrard in the 'hidings'...
*this part is purely my own judgement* 如有雷同 纯属巧合 *
this is the curcial point when match fixing could actually come into play...a halftime handicap given to liverpool?!?!? (meaning milan [- 1/2 ball] for the 2nd half)...judging from the form they were having...they could easily score a few more in the 2nd half...so..with this market opened...many that had previously place their money on the Reds would want to cut loss or even win and so...placed money on AC on the halftime odds??? maybe...could be...
then, the drama began...3 goals for liverpool in 6 minutes (54th to 60th)...and this would be the 1st sweep....bookies were grinning from ear to ear already...those that betted on AC at half time had already lost it almost for sure...
the next half an hour was exciting....viewers sweating palms and head and anywhere that can sweat...the AC supporters (in terms of betting) from the very start were suffering from heart attacks...strokes...and whatever they had...seeing every effort that failed to pay off....Schevcenko's endless good runs all saved by the floppy Dudek...and the hardworking Carragher...and Stevie G working hard to prevent crosses from the right flank....
the moment came when Andrei Schevcenko's strike in the late 80-something minute was saved by Dudek and so was his follwoing up...even when dudek was still on the ground...it marked the end of the 90 minutes...and soccer bettors (mostly) either lost on AC or won on Pool but lost on AC at 2nd half...see the irony....only pple that support liverpool with their money throughout the entire game won....and of coz...the bookies.....
the remaining of the extra time was just an extended battle as when money is concerned...most were done for the good of the 幕后黑手s....interesting..went into penalties and Dudek-the flop..who hadn't been performing in the match until the very late was the hero of the night....he saved abt 2 shots...and saw one flew over the post....and this the how liverpool created history....amazing it is....remarkable performance from the Reds...esp Gerrard and Carragher....Those that saw the match would have to agree with me for these 2 unsang heros...(more for Carragher i guess) wasn't him just everywhere on the field last night?!?!?
haha...think i can start a column in newpaper for after match analysis of possible fixed matches le....haha...maybe if GP has an essay topic that says "Modern soccer matches are money making machines and no longer just sport" Comment....
think i will definitely score an A for that....haha....and even more true..i would keep asking for more papers coz i had endless examples....lolz
that'z all for today...din go to work today..coz woke up with a headache...and hangover from the unacceptable reality of the darkness behind soccer....that'z why i quitted soccer bettin months or a year ago...coz i can't understand and make use of the 'power from the drak side'
'May the force be with you'....
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
just realised that i have been blogging for a very long time le...since 3 years back bah...haha...my brother intro me to this thing called "blogging"..as usual..he's always the one that leads me astray (blogging is not a vice though)..haha..electronic diaries
w.e.b-l.o.g.s...w.e-b.l.o.g.s...whatdoes blog mean? i always tot that it evolves from web logs...coz pple log down their events or whatever they wanna say in the web...
anyway...i'm an 'old bird' le...frequent blogging before....lost my blog before....haha..still remember when i pressed a wrong buttom once and the whole template was gone...wanted to quit it once and for all at that time....but in order not to disappoint my friends...those who frequent my blog...or are too bored that they actually roam around in the world wide web and once in a while, drop by...i picked it up again sometime this year...
i must say it's a good place to pour out your inner thoughts..in whichever clear or subtle way you like...crap abt almost everything under the sun...no doubt see the comments made by friends and the msg left in the tag board can sometimes be interestingly crappy...funny....another way to interact...
it's also a place for you to know me better..coz i often write what i truly wanted to say here...(whether or not i really voice out literally is another matter)....
i love to read my fellow friends' blogs too...some talk about their daily life...some show their artworks....simply like to "k-po" abit here and there larz...think i will furnish mine with more photos...more interesting....of beautiful GALZ....(hmmz...probably not)...of scenery...objects....etc...
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work's coming to an end for me in sigma aldrich...(selling chemicals, reagents for scientific research ranging from a vast field of life sciences....biology..chemistry...etc)...it's been wonderful working here....friendly and nice pple...other than the meagre pay and the fact that i do not have a fixed seat and phone ext...i like the place....
haha..the workload her is periodic...sometimes super busy..with phone calls of all kind of customers....endless quotations....but it's good....i don't like to zuo boh @ work...given nothing to do..it's very hard to spend the time at work...you would try to keep yourself busy in whatever way possible....and often...you would walk around in the office...trying to find something,,or make yourself useful...
i don't like monotonous and brainless job also (esp admin type) coz it makes you wanna sleep during work...
think i'm hard to please? yeapz..i guess you are right.....if you can't please me...just leave me alone ba....
w.e.b-l.o.g.s...w.e-b.l.o.g.s...whatdoes blog mean? i always tot that it evolves from web logs...coz pple log down their events or whatever they wanna say in the web...
anyway...i'm an 'old bird' le...frequent blogging before....lost my blog before....haha..still remember when i pressed a wrong buttom once and the whole template was gone...wanted to quit it once and for all at that time....but in order not to disappoint my friends...those who frequent my blog...or are too bored that they actually roam around in the world wide web and once in a while, drop by...i picked it up again sometime this year...
i must say it's a good place to pour out your inner thoughts..in whichever clear or subtle way you like...crap abt almost everything under the sun...no doubt see the comments made by friends and the msg left in the tag board can sometimes be interestingly crappy...funny....another way to interact...
it's also a place for you to know me better..coz i often write what i truly wanted to say here...(whether or not i really voice out literally is another matter)....
i love to read my fellow friends' blogs too...some talk about their daily life...some show their artworks....simply like to "k-po" abit here and there larz...think i will furnish mine with more photos...more interesting....of beautiful GALZ....(hmmz...probably not)...of scenery...objects....etc...
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work's coming to an end for me in sigma aldrich...(selling chemicals, reagents for scientific research ranging from a vast field of life sciences....biology..chemistry...etc)...it's been wonderful working here....friendly and nice pple...other than the meagre pay and the fact that i do not have a fixed seat and phone ext...i like the place....
haha..the workload her is periodic...sometimes super busy..with phone calls of all kind of customers....endless quotations....but it's good....i don't like to zuo boh @ work...given nothing to do..it's very hard to spend the time at work...you would try to keep yourself busy in whatever way possible....and often...you would walk around in the office...trying to find something,,or make yourself useful...
i don't like monotonous and brainless job also (esp admin type) coz it makes you wanna sleep during work...
think i'm hard to please? yeapz..i guess you are right.....if you can't please me...just leave me alone ba....
i feel heavy-headed...left ear is like semi-blocked...wtz happening to me?!?!?! too much mango i think...but can't help it...coz it's always there in the fridge....can't bear to leave it neglected....mouth-watering...slurp*
early post today..coz got something to share...was on my way back home when i realised i had only 7 bucks left in my wallet...so..decided to make a turn to the atm machine to withdraw some money...as i did...i went to the slot with the shortest queue and when it's my turn...this annoying couple was beside me...they had been at the atm machine for quite some time...don't know what they were doing...but the lady was standing so close to me that i had to tilt my body to one side in order to block her from looking at me keying in the pin (if she really does larz)...so i was in this position..awkwardly parallax from the screen....and so...i was going for the "other withdrawal amount" option and haha...i actually pressed the upper one....if you frequent posb/dbs amt machine...you will know the 3rd option on the left....lolz....yesh..i'm "filthy rich" now...at least in my wallet...not my bank....haha....
3rd buttom on the left will give you 1000 buckz!!!! 1K!!!!
3rd buttom on the left will give you 1000 buckz!!!! 1K!!!!
Monday, May 23, 2005
Was looking through some of my recent photos in my comp and yah here are some i took in wallaby last nov...i like scenery shots...
a view at the pool from my resort room
vast ocean
beautiful sky in Aussie
a view at the pool from my resort room
vast ocean
beautiful sky in Aussie
did i mention that i have passed my advanced theory? yeah~!!...waiting for my practical lessons..in july...june no slot le....and no time...
yesterday went liqin's(jc classmate) bday celebration in the noon...sat down there...talked crap...eaten...and then the galz(my jc classmates also) whom i haven't seem for years wanted to go ktv...so i tagged along....
watched "wu jian dao I" vcd when i reached home...good show...struggle within the internal self...between evil and justice....andy lau and tony leung are good actors....haha....think i will play the 2nd episode tmr...lolz...
changed a song on my page...just wanted a change and i always love chen qi zhen's songs...talented!
watched "wu jian dao I" vcd when i reached home...good show...struggle within the internal self...between evil and justice....andy lau and tony leung are good actors....haha....think i will play the 2nd episode tmr...lolz...
changed a song on my page...just wanted a change and i always love chen qi zhen's songs...talented!
Saturday, May 21, 2005
woke at so early on a saturday? yeahz...coz going billiard later...but it's amazing how i wake up feeling tired and shag for work everyday but i'm actually quite energised on weekends...
mother went for genting yesterday, with my aunt (maternal side) for the weekend...hope that it's will be fun....as for me...shall stay local...attending some jc friends' bday celebration on sat and sun...probably a good chance to play some catching up...coz long time never keep in contact le....
went jogging last night...how shiok and shag....i actually ran all the way to stagmont camp....then took a short walk....before i made my way back.....haha...almost knocked down by a car turning.....coz of this couple (*arsehole)..they stood at the junction..blocking the already narrow path...watz worse was that they had no intention to cross the road yet and the lady was standing on the left while the guy on the right....as i approached...the guy shifted himself a bit (a gesture i thought to be giving way to me) and the lady totally blocked my view of the vehicles turning right into the highway (either this or i was too shagged already)...anyway..i tried to cross..only to realised that at the same time...this white car was turning...i had got no choice but to signal to him and ran across....but hell...the driver horned at me!!!! i hate drivers that horn...(furthermore, it's a slow reaction horn)..meaning he horned after i had reched the other side of the road....wat the hell....
anyway...felt good after the run coz long time never workout le....fitness is damn low these days....
oh yahz...next week will be my last week @ sigma aldrich....
mother went for genting yesterday, with my aunt (maternal side) for the weekend...hope that it's will be fun....as for me...shall stay local...attending some jc friends' bday celebration on sat and sun...probably a good chance to play some catching up...coz long time never keep in contact le....
went jogging last night...how shiok and shag....i actually ran all the way to stagmont camp....then took a short walk....before i made my way back.....haha...almost knocked down by a car turning.....coz of this couple (*arsehole)..they stood at the junction..blocking the already narrow path...watz worse was that they had no intention to cross the road yet and the lady was standing on the left while the guy on the right....as i approached...the guy shifted himself a bit (a gesture i thought to be giving way to me) and the lady totally blocked my view of the vehicles turning right into the highway (either this or i was too shagged already)...anyway..i tried to cross..only to realised that at the same time...this white car was turning...i had got no choice but to signal to him and ran across....but hell...the driver horned at me!!!! i hate drivers that horn...(furthermore, it's a slow reaction horn)..meaning he horned after i had reched the other side of the road....wat the hell....
anyway...felt good after the run coz long time never workout le....fitness is damn low these days....
oh yahz...next week will be my last week @ sigma aldrich....
Thursday, May 19, 2005
Forwarded a msg i received from a friend this morning just for fun...this is how the msg reads "Describe me in ONE WORD, just one! Send it to me...."..haha..got various different replies and strangely, there is not a singel repeated word...lolz....
the list of words are as follow: pig, SNAG(sensitive new age guy), deep, Funky, Lame, caring(as in xi xin), Smart, Thinker, "Bochap but sentimental", Slack, Direct, Easy-going, "Pretty?"....
hmm...wat should i say...a variety....guess i have split personalities...lolz....but there are some truth in all these words bah...every single one does describe part of me....or should i say i behave and act differently to different people bah...thatz why i look so different to various individual....
try it if you are really damn bo liaoz....it's funz....help me spend time in office replying some of these sms-es...haha
the list of words are as follow: pig, SNAG(sensitive new age guy), deep, Funky, Lame, caring(as in xi xin), Smart, Thinker, "Bochap but sentimental", Slack, Direct, Easy-going, "Pretty?"....
hmm...wat should i say...a variety....guess i have split personalities...lolz....but there are some truth in all these words bah...every single one does describe part of me....or should i say i behave and act differently to different people bah...thatz why i look so different to various individual....
try it if you are really damn bo liaoz....it's funz....help me spend time in office replying some of these sms-es...haha
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
okie...don't really know how to continue....happy to know that she's happy....that's all that i need.....i don't need to see it for myself....not till i'm happy myself....
Monday, May 16, 2005
i think i need to post one more entry tonight....
that i'm not depressed.....i'm just not happy for myself....
call it neutral...moderate...letz not be extreme...
that i'm not depressed.....i'm just not happy for myself....
call it neutral...moderate...letz not be extreme...
oh man...i have lost the power of blogging...i have something i wanna write...but i can't seem to pour it out of my heart....i feel so trapped inside....grasping for air....
was talking to tiongz the other day when we were sitting on the bench facing the sea....he asked me to play jay'z "ge qian"...."a sad song"...he commented...well...yesh....again...ever wondered why pple like to listen to sad songs and sink into a slight depression as the melody goes...trying to piece the scenario described in the song and feel what the singer is feeling....pple like to sadden themselves with songs like these....
hmm....tiongz said that he is a person who does not really know how to express what's in his heart...i think i fall in this same category...emotions that are trapped inside are unbearable....they devour the whole person...so it's time to learn to let go out them....
think what you wanna think....feel what you ought to feel...don't let your mood depends too much on someone..or on others....make the one who decides how you feel be YOU....
easily said but hardly achieved....perhaps the first step is to let go of what that is supposed to be let go of....forget that which is meant to be forgotten....don't bring back the memories that are so deeply buried....don't see the person that you know would only make you feel worse....
haha...listen to light-hearted and merry songs help....yahz..it's amazing how the songs you listen play a part in determining your mood....
if one day, there is no more yes 93.3...i think tiongz will suffer....lolz....coz he;s like can't-live-without-93.3 like that....for me....i would die if there is no music....make me deaf and i will kill myself in front of you.....
=P
a jc friend msged me today to invite me to his bday next sunday....haha...he's one of the fun friends i have had in class..but he's like missing for years and suddenly jio me when his 21st is here....haha...dunno if i should go annot...buying present very xiong...broke....this coming sunday still got one...jc classmate also...but this one is a gal larz...
hmm...maybe the gal one must go...then the guy one...leave it to my mood...haha...
saw yan'z many personality tests results...wanna take them also..but the site keeps failing me...oh well...nvm lorz...go and read at her results...see how crap they are....bleahz
was talking to tiongz the other day when we were sitting on the bench facing the sea....he asked me to play jay'z "ge qian"...."a sad song"...he commented...well...yesh....again...ever wondered why pple like to listen to sad songs and sink into a slight depression as the melody goes...trying to piece the scenario described in the song and feel what the singer is feeling....pple like to sadden themselves with songs like these....
hmm....tiongz said that he is a person who does not really know how to express what's in his heart...i think i fall in this same category...emotions that are trapped inside are unbearable....they devour the whole person...so it's time to learn to let go out them....
think what you wanna think....feel what you ought to feel...don't let your mood depends too much on someone..or on others....make the one who decides how you feel be YOU....
easily said but hardly achieved....perhaps the first step is to let go of what that is supposed to be let go of....forget that which is meant to be forgotten....don't bring back the memories that are so deeply buried....don't see the person that you know would only make you feel worse....
haha...listen to light-hearted and merry songs help....yahz..it's amazing how the songs you listen play a part in determining your mood....
if one day, there is no more yes 93.3...i think tiongz will suffer....lolz....coz he;s like can't-live-without-93.3 like that....for me....i would die if there is no music....make me deaf and i will kill myself in front of you.....
=P
a jc friend msged me today to invite me to his bday next sunday....haha...he's one of the fun friends i have had in class..but he's like missing for years and suddenly jio me when his 21st is here....haha...dunno if i should go annot...buying present very xiong...broke....this coming sunday still got one...jc classmate also...but this one is a gal larz...
hmm...maybe the gal one must go...then the guy one...leave it to my mood...haha...
saw yan'z many personality tests results...wanna take them also..but the site keeps failing me...oh well...nvm lorz...go and read at her results...see how crap they are....bleahz
Sunday, May 15, 2005
we should all think about the ppl around you...don't just think about wat's best for you and neglect the rest ...
don't take pple for granted....even very small actions of care and concern can mean alot...the same applies for the otherwise...
think abt it
don't take pple for granted....even very small actions of care and concern can mean alot...the same applies for the otherwise...
think abt it
i love the wind...it blows your memories away....
i love the rain..it wash your sorrows away...
but i don't like yesterday....it's cold and wet and unbearable...
i love the rain..it wash your sorrows away...
but i don't like yesterday....it's cold and wet and unbearable...
Friday, May 13, 2005
morninz...friday the 13th...
going badminton later at 9am....but didn't have a very good sleep last night...tot wanna slept at 10..but i ended up sleeping at 12 plus...wondering around in www (it's either i'm loiter outside or wonder in internet...)..so aimless
"我的专长叫做 流浪
你注定要为我绽放
我的心寻找家我的家没有花
我的花却在这山谷等着我"
-abstract from LeeHom's "心中的日月"
anyway, tot that i would just fall into a deep sleep last night..but i just couldn't...too exciting for today (yeah!!!)...or otherwise (dunno~)...well..had a dream again....long time never dream..or could not remember my dream when i woke up coz of tiredness...but strangely...i remembered yesterday's...and i don't feel so tired..even though i woke up the same time as normal working dayz...
okay then...i shall disclose abit of my dream here...dreamt of a particular person i should not and my bunch of close friends...and of don't-know-what reason (shh...secret) i got abit pissed...jealous maybe....the feeling was sucky...woke up several times throughout the night....
coming to waking up several times...a friend of mine actualli told me before that if you sleep in intervals of 3,6,9 hours...you will not feel as tired...example, if you sleep 3 hrs and wake up...then go back to sleep for 3 hours...lidat...dunno whether it's true..he said some very power person discovered one...researcher or something...worth a try though....
it's amazing that there are 2-3 new posts in haggerz' blog..haha...so active huh...good good...more things to read...can know you guys better....looking at the poll...wah...most like the lame me....hmm...but i prefer the quiet one lehz......anyway...the other me is not lame but humourous...mind that...
maybe i can be zhansheng and zen (can think of an english name)...just like yixin and joeann in the channel 8 show....haha..then go take revenge on pple who is bad to me....watch out...touch your heart and say you have been always good to me...if not.......lolz
enough crapz..abt time to go buy abit to eat and meet taoz to go badminton....
Hooray...
going badminton later at 9am....but didn't have a very good sleep last night...tot wanna slept at 10..but i ended up sleeping at 12 plus...wondering around in www (it's either i'm loiter outside or wonder in internet...)..so aimless
"我的专长叫做 流浪
你注定要为我绽放
我的心寻找家我的家没有花
我的花却在这山谷等着我"
-abstract from LeeHom's "心中的日月"
anyway, tot that i would just fall into a deep sleep last night..but i just couldn't...too exciting for today (yeah!!!)...or otherwise (dunno~)...well..had a dream again....long time never dream..or could not remember my dream when i woke up coz of tiredness...but strangely...i remembered yesterday's...and i don't feel so tired..even though i woke up the same time as normal working dayz...
okay then...i shall disclose abit of my dream here...dreamt of a particular person i should not and my bunch of close friends...and of don't-know-what reason (shh...secret) i got abit pissed...jealous maybe....the feeling was sucky...woke up several times throughout the night....
coming to waking up several times...a friend of mine actualli told me before that if you sleep in intervals of 3,6,9 hours...you will not feel as tired...example, if you sleep 3 hrs and wake up...then go back to sleep for 3 hours...lidat...dunno whether it's true..he said some very power person discovered one...researcher or something...worth a try though....
it's amazing that there are 2-3 new posts in haggerz' blog..haha...so active huh...good good...more things to read...can know you guys better....looking at the poll...wah...most like the lame me....hmm...but i prefer the quiet one lehz......anyway...the other me is not lame but humourous...mind that...
maybe i can be zhansheng and zen (can think of an english name)...just like yixin and joeann in the channel 8 show....haha..then go take revenge on pple who is bad to me....watch out...touch your heart and say you have been always good to me...if not.......lolz
enough crapz..abt time to go buy abit to eat and meet taoz to go badminton....
Hooray...
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
haven't been myself lately...hmm...'myself'...how does being 'myself' feels like? happy? crappy? well...just feel tired these few days...did nothing much except working...went home straight everyday...so why am i still feeling tired? somemore the earlier i sleep the more tired i would be....probably it's because i did not start the week well...slept super late on sunday night...
watever the case...tmr will be my last working day for the week...self-declared day off for friday...been trying to contact my friend for the tent but he never reply me...wth...i hate pple who did not bother to reply when i sms him a question...if i never expect a reply...would you think i would phrase what i wanna say as a question...with lotsa "???"...
just realised i have final theory for drving on sat morning...went to take a look at the BBDC lesson slot for practicals...mostly booked for june and july...hell...should have booked all my lessons earlier..but that time no money...guess i will have to delay all my practical lessons le...take it slowly ba...but i want my license!!!!! and i have yet sat in the driver seat!!!!
it's just so 'me'...lazy...not motivated in things...lifeless...instill some LIFE in my please!!!!! someone!!!!!
watever the case...tmr will be my last working day for the week...self-declared day off for friday...been trying to contact my friend for the tent but he never reply me...wth...i hate pple who did not bother to reply when i sms him a question...if i never expect a reply...would you think i would phrase what i wanna say as a question...with lotsa "???"...
just realised i have final theory for drving on sat morning...went to take a look at the BBDC lesson slot for practicals...mostly booked for june and july...hell...should have booked all my lessons earlier..but that time no money...guess i will have to delay all my practical lessons le...take it slowly ba...but i want my license!!!!! and i have yet sat in the driver seat!!!!
it's just so 'me'...lazy...not motivated in things...lifeless...instill some LIFE in my please!!!!! someone!!!!!
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
香香'z "老鼠爱大米"....i prefer this version of the song...the gal's voice is good...should be an upcoming china singer bah...watch out for her...
"我听见你的声音 有种特别的感觉
让我不断想 不敢再忘记你
我记得有一个人 永远留在我心中
哪怕只能够这样的想你
如果真的有一天...爱情理想会实现...
我会加倍努力好好对你永远不改变...
不管路有多么远...一定会让他实现...
我会轻轻在你耳边对你说...对你说...
我爱你...爱着你...就向老鼠爱大米....
不管有多少风雨...我都会依然陪着你...
多想你...想着你...不管有多么的苦
只要能让你开心...我什么都愿意...这样爱你..."
Monday, May 09, 2005
"我顶着大太阳 只想为你撑伞
你靠在我肩膀 深呼吸怕遗忘
因为捞鱼的蠢游戏我们开始交谈
多希望话题不断园游会永不打烊
气球在我手上 我牵着你瞎逛
有话想对你讲你眼睛却装盲
连蛋糕跟你嘴角果酱我都想要尝
园游会影片在播放这个世界约好一起逛"
--- jay'z <<园游会>>
the tune of this song keeps replaying in my mind for the whole day...took a clearer look at the lyrics (i dun usually look at the lyrics at jay'z songs...coz it doesn't seem like what he sings out)...
depicts him...bringing his lady to the 园游会 (a fun fair) and how they enjoy themselves...hoping that the fair doesn't close for the night but instead goes on forever....so romantic...i like the chorus...i like the tune....i like the way it is sang....
你靠在我肩膀 深呼吸怕遗忘
因为捞鱼的蠢游戏我们开始交谈
多希望话题不断园游会永不打烊
气球在我手上 我牵着你瞎逛
有话想对你讲你眼睛却装盲
连蛋糕跟你嘴角果酱我都想要尝
园游会影片在播放这个世界约好一起逛"
--- jay'z <<园游会>>
the tune of this song keeps replaying in my mind for the whole day...took a clearer look at the lyrics (i dun usually look at the lyrics at jay'z songs...coz it doesn't seem like what he sings out)...
depicts him...bringing his lady to the 园游会 (a fun fair) and how they enjoy themselves...hoping that the fair doesn't close for the night but instead goes on forever....so romantic...i like the chorus...i like the tune....i like the way it is sang....
lunch time~....keep dozing off at work...sigh~..must be yesterday's late night msn....gosh...i have no more stamina...
Sunday, May 08, 2005
i don't like emotions....it's so complicated....esp love...willing to sacrifice so long as the one you love is happy....even though it means that you will not be happy...or rather...not be extremely happy...love is blind?!?! some pple may say that...oh god..then pls make me deaf...*(no link)...lolz...
friendship is much more simpler...there are no promises to be broken...no tears to be swallowed...it' s a pure mutual faith that we have for each other ...believing that they are the ones that will share and be part of your life...they may MIA for a while...some will come back while some won't...but that doesn't really matter...lets leave it to fate whether or not they are going to feature again in your life...
you may think that i take friends lightly...but no! you guys should know how impt you are to my life...esp those that i always disturb...always jio for mahjong....billiard....beach...ktv....and tou huey....
cheers.
friendship is much more simpler...there are no promises to be broken...no tears to be swallowed...it' s a pure mutual faith that we have for each other ...believing that they are the ones that will share and be part of your life...they may MIA for a while...some will come back while some won't...but that doesn't really matter...lets leave it to fate whether or not they are going to feature again in your life...
you may think that i take friends lightly...but no! you guys should know how impt you are to my life...esp those that i always disturb...always jio for mahjong....billiard....beach...ktv....and tou huey....
cheers.
first of all, Happy Mothers' Day to all wei da de mama out there...and all the mothers-to-be...
okay...wat shall i touch on today? okay..today met craig, yee, ck and yanz at causeway point for lunch...as usually, me and craig were early..coz he intendedly started his tuition earlier so as not to be late...but once again..the gals were late!?!?!? haha..but no big deal...of all the gals i know...i think none of them are punctual for once...even the 'guai'est of all....well.. i think it's just another of the entitlement for our wonderful ladies in the world ba...
okay...enough of that...so we went to the food court for lunch...after that....guess what....haha...it's the typical, usual "where to go next?"...haha...and so the story goes....and we ended up in party world...again?!?!?!?!? haha...anyway..called up pj and asked if he would be joining us and came to know that kokz was playing billiard there (WCRC - a.k.a West Coast Recrea Centre)...wth...yesterday jio he he said he overslept...then today he said his finger itchy....then never jio me somemore...went with his airforce friends...haha....watever the case...got pj to ask if kokz wanna join us also but he had got a date with his mummy...so filial...
and so...we sang and sang and sang..the usual songs...till craig left at 4pm...and we sang and asng and sang...till pj came at almost 6...haha...so late...and we went on singing and singing until yEe left to go her wai-po's hse...and again, we sang and sang until the last song...so tired...so shag....
i like singing...i can't live without music...i like to sing for friends...i like to sing for you....haha...but i have got no voice now?!?!?!?
okay...wat shall i touch on today? okay..today met craig, yee, ck and yanz at causeway point for lunch...as usually, me and craig were early..coz he intendedly started his tuition earlier so as not to be late...but once again..the gals were late!?!?!? haha..but no big deal...of all the gals i know...i think none of them are punctual for once...even the 'guai'est of all....well.. i think it's just another of the entitlement for our wonderful ladies in the world ba...
okay...enough of that...so we went to the food court for lunch...after that....guess what....haha...it's the typical, usual "where to go next?"...haha...and so the story goes....and we ended up in party world...again?!?!?!?!? haha...anyway..called up pj and asked if he would be joining us and came to know that kokz was playing billiard there (WCRC - a.k.a West Coast Recrea Centre)...wth...yesterday jio he he said he overslept...then today he said his finger itchy....then never jio me somemore...went with his airforce friends...haha....watever the case...got pj to ask if kokz wanna join us also but he had got a date with his mummy...so filial...
and so...we sang and sang and sang..the usual songs...till craig left at 4pm...and we sang and asng and sang...till pj came at almost 6...haha...so late...and we went on singing and singing until yEe left to go her wai-po's hse...and again, we sang and sang until the last song...so tired...so shag....
i like singing...i can't live without music...i like to sing for friends...i like to sing for you....haha...but i have got no voice now?!?!?!?
Your dating personality profile:
Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.
Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important component of any relationship you have.
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.Your date match profile:
You match with women who have following traits:
Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Adventurous
2. Romantic
3. Athletic
4. Funny
5. Outgoing
6. Conservative
7. Practical
8. Traditional
9. Stylish
10. Big-Hearted
You matched the following traits:
Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If her jokes make you laugh, she has won your heart.
Wealthy/Ambitious - You seek someone with goals, someone to whom success is important. You would like for this person to open up new experiences and opportunities for you.
Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw her out of her shell and get to know what she is all about.
Your Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked
1. Funny
2. Wealthy/Ambitious
3. Shy
4. Conservative
5. Adventurous
6. Sensual
7. Practical
8. Traditional
9. Athletic
10. Stylish
These are the things that are generated when i took yanz' dating profile quiz...hha...true and not true bah...but if you think you fulfill the criteria...please complete the similar quiz and get your print out sent to me....you will be called up for an official interview...please include your portfolio and resume....
Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.
Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important component of any relationship you have.
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.Your date match profile:
You match with women who have following traits:
Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Adventurous
2. Romantic
3. Athletic
4. Funny
5. Outgoing
6. Conservative
7. Practical
8. Traditional
9. Stylish
10. Big-Hearted
You matched the following traits:
Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If her jokes make you laugh, she has won your heart.
Wealthy/Ambitious - You seek someone with goals, someone to whom success is important. You would like for this person to open up new experiences and opportunities for you.
Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw her out of her shell and get to know what she is all about.
Your Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked
1. Funny
2. Wealthy/Ambitious
3. Shy
4. Conservative
5. Adventurous
6. Sensual
7. Practical
8. Traditional
9. Athletic
10. Stylish
These are the things that are generated when i took yanz' dating profile quiz...hha...true and not true bah...but if you think you fulfill the criteria...please complete the similar quiz and get your print out sent to me....you will be called up for an official interview...please include your portfolio and resume....
Friday, May 06, 2005
a friday night at home...seldom for these few months...always in the past....
but why is there no one at home now!!?!?!?!?!?
freaking out~
but why is there no one at home now!!?!?!?!?!?
freaking out~
i enjoy the company of friends...it keeps me occupied...even if it's just a simple chilling session..simply sitting there doing nothing...it helps me past time easier.....at least i won't be alone..when i tend to thin of depressing things...
i enjoy the feeling of being alone...it keeps me focused..i like to go jogging on my own...in thie way..i won't feel any restrictions and i can run for as long as i want...tiring myself out to the limit...last burst of energy...
see..such a contradicting person i am...haha..i like it this way...
how a simple sms puts a smile on my face...
how an irritating call dampens my mood...
haha..a colleague was asking me "do guys have mood swings?" the other day round...we look at each other and hmm..."don't think so larz.."as i have said before..perhaps we guys are just too emotionally-'handicapped' that our mood don't swing like a swing (was a bad analogy...swing like something else pls!!!)...or perhaps we are better at suppressing such erratic changes in mood...that we try to look as though we feel nothing impactfully....i will go for the latter...haha..
so be it...mood swinging is an entitlement solely for women...just like crying is for babies...ahmud is to malay...oppz (thats a damn racist comment)....
i do swing my mood sometimes...but the motion is slow and of less frequency...
i enjoy the feeling of being alone...it keeps me focused..i like to go jogging on my own...in thie way..i won't feel any restrictions and i can run for as long as i want...tiring myself out to the limit...last burst of energy...
see..such a contradicting person i am...haha..i like it this way...
how a simple sms puts a smile on my face...
how an irritating call dampens my mood...
haha..a colleague was asking me "do guys have mood swings?" the other day round...we look at each other and hmm..."don't think so larz.."as i have said before..perhaps we guys are just too emotionally-'handicapped' that our mood don't swing like a swing (was a bad analogy...swing like something else pls!!!)...or perhaps we are better at suppressing such erratic changes in mood...that we try to look as though we feel nothing impactfully....i will go for the latter...haha..
so be it...mood swinging is an entitlement solely for women...just like crying is for babies...
i do swing my mood sometimes...but the motion is slow and of less frequency...
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
"You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times
You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin’ me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
Mama, mama you know I love you
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn’t anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn’t have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul
Yes you did ...Yes you did
You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin’ me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You’ll always be
You will always be the girl in my life
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul
Mama, mama you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul"
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul
Mama, mama you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul"
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
just finished watching "shi zi lu kou - shanghai part I"..the one with S.H.E as guests...this is the 3rd time i watched this bahz..laughing over the same jokes...haha...so funny...downloading the part II now...only managed to watch a part of it on tv the other time round...
got this feeling that i'm falling sick soon..the whole throat area is so dry and "heaty"...not enough rest ba...maybe gonna take a day off from work to rest at home...but maybe not..coz gotta earn money...shall see my condition tmr morning...
anyway...been seeing alot of what pj wrote in his blog...well...maybe it's true that we are alike in many ways...but i feel that he is a far better person than me...coming to keeping things to ourselves...i think most guys do that...call me a male chauvinist if you want..but it's like you will not want to appear vulnerable in front of your guy friends...though everyone has his soft spot...instead...we like to subtlely turns things that are serious into a joke or something and talk abt it in a light-hearted manner...haha..i guess guys are just emotionally less inclined than the female counterpart...
to all my friends that care abt me...i'm okay..perfectly fine...it's just that memories are so sweet...(like those words at the top of my blog) that they dun seem to fade in my mind...of coz...you people that rock my world feature in them too...
thankz pj for thinking of recommending your ling-meiz to me...haha..keep her for yourself bah...maybe she will grow mature..into the type you like in times to come...so dun lose contact with her...haha...
as for me...to choose among 爱恋 - 暗恋 - or whatever 恋 ...i will still go for 不恋 for the moment...=P
coming to the question abt how long shaggerz will last...i can firmly say that it's gonna be something that will go a long long way...at least for the group of guys...still rem the situation we imagine at WCRC the other day...the few old men..all wearing "lau hua" glasses...but still knocking balls around the green table...perhaps that's for the night and in the day...we would probably be playing mahjong ...or bridge!!! daidee!!! uNo!!! monopoly!!! (but definitely no chess) coz i dun like...lolz...
okayz...my dling is finishing soon...92%...maybe watch abit more of the clips and kunz...
i'm tired and falling sick~
got this feeling that i'm falling sick soon..the whole throat area is so dry and "heaty"...not enough rest ba...maybe gonna take a day off from work to rest at home...but maybe not..coz gotta earn money...shall see my condition tmr morning...
anyway...been seeing alot of what pj wrote in his blog...well...maybe it's true that we are alike in many ways...but i feel that he is a far better person than me...coming to keeping things to ourselves...i think most guys do that...call me a male chauvinist if you want..but it's like you will not want to appear vulnerable in front of your guy friends...though everyone has his soft spot...instead...we like to subtlely turns things that are serious into a joke or something and talk abt it in a light-hearted manner...haha..i guess guys are just emotionally less inclined than the female counterpart...
to all my friends that care abt me...i'm okay..perfectly fine...it's just that memories are so sweet...(like those words at the top of my blog) that they dun seem to fade in my mind...of coz...you people that rock my world feature in them too...
thankz pj for thinking of recommending your ling-meiz to me...haha..keep her for yourself bah...maybe she will grow mature..into the type you like in times to come...so dun lose contact with her...haha...
as for me...to choose among 爱恋 - 暗恋 - or whatever 恋 ...i will still go for 不恋 for the moment...=P
coming to the question abt how long shaggerz will last...i can firmly say that it's gonna be something that will go a long long way...at least for the group of guys...still rem the situation we imagine at WCRC the other day...the few old men..all wearing "lau hua" glasses...but still knocking balls around the green table...perhaps that's for the night and in the day...we would probably be playing mahjong ...or bridge!!! daidee!!! uNo!!! monopoly!!! (but definitely no chess) coz i dun like...lolz...
okayz...my dling is finishing soon...92%...maybe watch abit more of the clips and kunz...
i'm tired and falling sick~
Monday, May 02, 2005
hmmz...back from the ktv session with my jc friends...haha...ktv + dinner at pasta mania...ultimate broke....no choice but to work for the next 4 days to cover my expenses...how i envy those who have finished their uni exams!!! holiday time!!!
tired...after a night of mahjong with the usual 3 other guys...(pj, kokz, and ht)...pj still slping!!! ht went for driving lesson...kokz went home to get ready to study for his final exam(in airforce) on friday....
and now, i'm here...finally manage to "shake off" from them (lolz) and blog a littl small entry here, as well as the grp blog....gong ktv with my jc friends later at 1pm...not really keen...sigh~ tot i am very into ktv...but these dayz...not so...maybe i just wanna sing for you...and no one else...
but i gotta get the tent (my bday present 2 years back) from kev...so that we can use it for camping someday rather soon...okay...i shall go singing then...go there relax...spend money...i'm broke~ (not a single piece of note in my wallet) why? coz i gave them all to ht last night...(i shall not disclose the amt here)...
another working week ahead!!!! "good morning, sigma aldrich."
and now, i'm here...finally manage to "shake off" from them (lolz) and blog a littl small entry here, as well as the grp blog....gong ktv with my jc friends later at 1pm...not really keen...sigh~ tot i am very into ktv...but these dayz...not so...maybe i just wanna sing for you...and no one else...
but i gotta get the tent (my bday present 2 years back) from kev...so that we can use it for camping someday rather soon...okay...i shall go singing then...go there relax...spend money...i'm broke~ (not a single piece of note in my wallet) why? coz i gave them all to ht last night...(i shall not disclose the amt here)...
another working week ahead!!!! "good morning, sigma aldrich."
