sometimes, you just have to wonder if window media player can read your mind...haha...

from a playlist of 20 plus songs...it played the song that i was thinking of at that very moment...

when i think 北斗星...it plays 北斗星....

haha...it has happened not just once...but a couple of times already...smae goes to tmy ipod shuffle...

well...i just think i should blog something...but dunno wat to write...haha...

hey anyway...北斗星 is really a very nice song...i love the lyrics!!!

happy bday, dad!!! stay handsome and healthy!!!


and happy bday to taoz too!

::: chinese new year post :::

it has turned out to be quite a good cny for me...financially...haha...

small win here...big win there...totalled up to quite a good amt...2 x my tuition pay (per session)

the spell of good luck really makes me happy...normally, i would end up in the negative for most cny..no! it's not abt winning...it's more to do with the feeling that Lady Luck is finally noticing me and shining on me...(okay...the winning part has to come in to justify her presence)...

pple say 赌场得意 情场失意 ... tat could probably be very true...at least tatz for me...but i dun wanna dwell into the 情场 anymore for now...all i wan is just to be friends...

still, i would think of her...still, i would wanna meet her for meals...but i would no longer allow myself to sink into the bottomless 'emotion pit' of mine...



cny has to come to an end soon...shall start to do some assignment today!!! maybe at night...tmr shall go sch mug...


tests!!! assignments!!! lab reports!!!

back to the harsh reality....

BUT I STILL WANNA BAI NIAN!!!!

" 身边有太多风景 我却停在这里
说我傻的可以 还不是因为你 "

-- 爱的主旋律

one song after another...i'll never get to sleep tonight....sigh...


it's getting me nowhere!

i think i should start getting used to it...

习惯了。。。就没事了吗？

"将过去刻化成石碑
我温习所有情节
却刻出一个字叫后悔"

"只有夏天盛开的玫瑰放肆的嘲笑落叶
自己却不敢不敢面对被搁在玻璃瓶的岁月"

北斗星 - 词:方文山

beautiful....

"天上一万颗星星我却只看见你
你说这是幸运 还是不可思议 "

-- 卓文萱&黃鴻升（小鬼) - 爱的主旋律

i didn't know so many pple actualli visit my blog...and even bother to read thru my posts....i'm really flattered...really...thanks for the 'kpo-ness' concern...appreciated...

but now...i feel kinda 'exposed'... it seems like many pple are reading abt my emotional world...i feel so....erm...transparent...

dun worry...i have no intention to put any password or whatsoever...feel free to drop by still...coz i think i have more or less settled the emotional stuff...well...perhaps there will still be ocassional not-so-happy posts...

coz the 'thing' that can make me happy is not mine...haha

and pple...if you really njoy reading pple's msn nicks....read mine...i always change mine...sometimes...i even change more than 10 times a day...very exciting one...lolz...

seriously...thanks for the concerns shown...and i hope thru this tiny website...you have known zs better...

he is just an ass! trying to complicate the world with his simple totz...completely harmless coz he only hurts himself...psychologically unstable but got very strong mental strength to prevent him from going berserk...(haha...make me sounds like some mental patients)...

okayz...thatz all folkz...i'm just a guy living in sg...going thru a plain uni life and hoping to be happy...thatz all..

=)

wat a day! walked miles...took so many train and bus trips...bought so many...erm...chocz!!!...lolz

yup...i went on a journey to search for the legendary canele (refer to previous post)...hmm...some info i found on net isn't true...it says there's a branch in shaw centre...went there but didn't find it...so was wandering in orchard area...ended up in taka...bought royce... the usual Nama champagne (my fave) and this criolio dark chocz (haven't tasted it yet...maybe tmr go sch to spread the love to all lonely soulz)...lolz...

eagerly wanna see how the chocz that feature so well in the cafe website...i decided to make a trip down to clarke quay...

unity rd or street...very near to river valley road...it's called robertson walk!!! passed by MOS while on bus 54 and found out that that robertson walk place is just at dlb O...i've been there before...just tat i dunno....see...i'm not a cheongster....

anyway...that place is really a nice cafe...the ambience is good...and they have a very large kitchen where you can see those chefs inside preparing the pastry and cakes...very professional...very elegant...(gosh...i went in with my Gio berms and OP slippers larz...) and the lady that serve me was....erm...'attractive'...i dun mean the look...but it's a kind of elegant, high class aura that she exudes...charming...okay...so i ask abt the chocz-of-the-day...there are only 12 types on display today...dun have the irish cream that i wanted to try so much...not knowing which taste better...i eliminated 3 and got 1 each of the 9 left...i believe i made some wise choices coz those that i eliminate were relatively in greater quantity...(dd-ss analysis...econz helps!!!) ...

chocz!!! so happy...but those wasn't meant to be for myself...met up with her at the bus stop there to pass those to her...

she said tmr night she going out with her bf! wohoho...i think i'm going crazy....haha...no larz...i'm feeling very okay...in fact...i'm a little bit happy today...coz i did something that i wanna do...tat is to buy the chocz...

a pity that i didn't have a chance to try..coz spent some money on royce earlier...so didn't wanna spree too much...

tell me if they taste wonderful! i wanna know...haha....oh yah...there will be a branch opening up in pacific plaza i tink...in feb i tink...shall check it out again...

and so...to mark the end of the day...went off after handing her that gift to 'da'bao' dinner for myself and my mom....

came home...slack...slack...slack...and prepare tmr's v-day lab abit....i'm gonna spend the v-day in the lab with 2 ladies!!!! (my lab partners) ...doing some kinky experiment....oppz...


tmr will be mugging day for me larz...gotta do abit of work to kill off the lonely feeling....maybe go jog at night also...then will feel more tired....less energy to hslx....


zs is a happy man!

i feel so proud of myself...all of a sudden...

我想我不算痴情....我只是笨而已....


was shopping online for high class chocolatez thatz available in sg...

Sins
Godiva
Royce

these are the more common names...

there's one that looks elegant...chocolaty

Canelé Pâtisserie Chocolaterie -
french...means canale pastry chocolate factory or something along that line...

the chocz look delicious...check out the gift boxes...















elegant right? perfect as a v-day gift...hmm...should i get one? to give myself? lolz...







irish cream








violette









passion








quad










caraibe





nice right?


so tempting to go buy...maybe i shall make a trip down soon...

11 Unity Street, #01-09
Robertson Walk
Singapore 237995

http://www.lesamis.com.sg/webtop/canele/shop.htm

hmm...you can say tat i'm not trying hard enough...but what if i tell you i have really did wat i could...but no matter how hard i try...it seems that i have not moved on...i found myself rooted on the same spot...waiting for nothing...looking for nothing but you....

but i'm not being pessimistic...i dun have to...

i'm just puzzled why i think of tat someone whenever i'm free....

i know nothing's gonna come out of mere thinking...and i know i'm not gonna do anything other than being her friend...



not hslx-ing...just pure 想念...but thatz heavy enough...



cny is coming...i hope for good mood...and GOOD LUCK!!! haha

"答案一直到今天
才在我心中浮现
爱情真出现 那一瞬间
我们都没发现
那雨是一直到今天
爱下在我心里面
淋湿了双眼 事过境迁
才清晰的看见
你的脸 "

--岚 - tank


yan said tank has got the sad-ness in his songs...hmm...maybe...tatz why his sad songs are so touching...got 感动度....

this song is kinda good... but the lyrics just can't really get into my head...quite metaphoric....i think it's abt regrets...thinking back of some past and feeling regretful....argh...so sad....*sobz sobz....



hk told me tat he got to know me better via reading my blog...oh well...i wonder who else do...am i revealing too much abt myself here? do i look or behave like a totally different guy in person? i think i do...maybe i may appear to be very 'heck-care' abt many things...but i think i do care...especially with it comes to people's feelings...

coz i know human beings are very vulnerable...i try not to hurt anyone's feelings...so if i did...apologies...it's unintended...even if i dun particularly like someone...i will not show him faces....i mean i'm not faking to be nice to him or wat...but i feel tat a person shouldn't just be condemned totally...unless he did something unforgiveable directly to me...

so far...i believe no one did...if you felt tt you have done me wrong...hoohoo...be careful when you walk....you'd never know what could happen...( an empty threat...=P)


oh...blog abt today's test abit...test was okay...managable...but the prof is super f-up...i'm very pissed by him....i mean...if he knows he only book the LT for one hr and there would be another class coming in at 11...then he jolly well not be late...and yesh...guess wat!!! he came a whole 20 plus minutes late!!! wth...and to think that his assistant came earli...even before 9am to wait for him to come so that he can help with distributing the papers....not only this...he arrived and wanted us to spread ourselves out when it's not really possible...crap! blar blar....and so the test commenced and due to those earlier events....we didn't have enough time for the other grp had to come in...so...he told us to do 4 out of the 5 qns...and he will mark the best 4....wat rubbish!!! i was so damned pissed at tat time that it made me forget all my memorized formulae....and i had to spend so much time to derive them on paper...with alots of hiccupz...damnit! blogging abt it now makes my blood boils again/....

"can i have your attention please?" do you deserve our attention in the 1st place? stop staring at your own lecture slides and look so unprepared for delivering the lecture! it's not your 1st time teaching this module...wake up your 'baldy' idea!!!!

oh no, zs! you should be mugging....you have a test tmr!!! remember?

yes, of coz i did...and i believe i have done enough...at least to answer to myself for tmr 3124 quiz 1...the 1st quiz for this sem...hooray! haha...sounds crazy...

alrite...then again...i may not have done enough...yest and today...probably 2 dayz spent at revision...for 2 chapters...but for a freaking 20%...dunno larz...just hope everything turns out well tmr...

okay...lets see what i remember....hmm...

particle Re = xU(density of fluid) / viscosity

drag coeff Cd = R' / (0.5 . density fluid . U^2)

R' = Fd / ( (pi/4)*x^2)

Ut = sqrt [4/3 * x(density_p - density_f) g) / (density_f*Cd) ]...

carmen kozeny (laminar flow): (-delta P)/H = 180 ((1-e)^2 / e^3 ) uU /x^2)

"nono! it not a memory test!!!" some inner voices exclaimed....yes..i know...but what if these eqns are not given? then dun nid to do test le...so long didn't have a closed book module with so many equations to work with...argh!!!

perhaps it's good...fill my mind with more equations!!! to get rid of you...lolz....


been keeping myself busy with studies for this week...but then...why do you still appear in my dreamz...sigh...

cny is round the corner...haven't shop for new clothes....new shoes....and new mood....




oh...just in case i forget...

happy bday to huiyee!!!! stay happy!!!!


and happy advanced bday to kokz chai!!!! grow rich!!!

am i trying too hard? to forget you?

i make myself feel so tired....

"我遇见谁会有怎样的对白
我等的人他在多远的未来
我听见风来自地铁和人海
我排著队拿著爱的号码牌"

"we are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all"

a friend's msn nick says this...

i was thinking...."hmm....how true..."

do you know what's the meaning of the word "岚"?


山里的雾气 = 岚...

山岚。。。晓岚。。。


and 温岚...lolz....

yup...i know she's attached...(somehow, it's like a known fact)...but still...

it hurts to hear that from her...


i realize i have been trying to blind myself from the fact...but now...no matter how hard i try to avoid...no matter how i try to keep my eyes close...it's glazing at me...it's telling me to let go...to go away to somewhere else...some place that i belong...

but where do i go from here? i seriously dunno...tatz probably why i chose to stay...to see if anything changes...to clinge to any pseudo-hope...to look at her from far...and wish her well... until i found a new direction...i will be where i am now....


02/02/2007...getting abit emotional today...met up with pj, craig, yan, ah yu, ah cai, qjia for steamboat dinner today...i'm glad i went...at least i wouldn't be spending time at home...allowing the chance for the emotions to drown me...5 yrs back...on this fateful day...yee suggested the breakup...i somehow still rem tat day till now...erm...the 1st time i cried for someone else...

i have always tot that the say "you will only learn to treasure it when you lose it" to be very true...pple just take whatever they have for granted...and nvr show any appreciation for the pple around...only when they were abt to lose it...will they feel the significance...the void that would be left empty after the loss...

treasure what you have now...and dun be afraid to tell the pple around you that you love them...

"Love" to me...is a very strong word...i dun normally use it...but even if i dun...you should be able to feel it don't you? haha...i love you, my friends!!!



hslx shall stop...slowly climbing over the barrier...denying myself any chance of hslxing...

希望你会幸福...

你知道我在想你吗?

hmm...