yup...i know she's attached...(somehow, it's like a known fact)...but still...

it hurts to hear that from her...


i realize i have been trying to blind myself from the fact...but now...no matter how hard i try to avoid...no matter how i try to keep my eyes close...it's glazing at me...it's telling me to let go...to go away to somewhere else...some place that i belong...

but where do i go from here? i seriously dunno...tatz probably why i chose to stay...to see if anything changes...to clinge to any pseudo-hope...to look at her from far...and wish her well... until i found a new direction...i will be where i am now....


02/02/2007...getting abit emotional today...met up with pj, craig, yan, ah yu, ah cai, qjia for steamboat dinner today...i'm glad i went...at least i wouldn't be spending time at home...allowing the chance for the emotions to drown me...5 yrs back...on this fateful day...yee suggested the breakup...i somehow still rem tat day till now...erm...the 1st time i cried for someone else...

i have always tot that the say "you will only learn to treasure it when you lose it" to be very true...pple just take whatever they have for granted...and nvr show any appreciation for the pple around...only when they were abt to lose it...will they feel the significance...the void that would be left empty after the loss...

treasure what you have now...and dun be afraid to tell the pple around you that you love them...

"Love" to me...is a very strong word...i dun normally use it...but even if i dun...you should be able to feel it don't you? haha...i love you, my friends!!!



hslx shall stop...slowly climbing over the barrier...denying myself any chance of hslxing...

希望你会幸福...