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Sunday, June 29, 2008

something to share...

well...it's been sometime since i blogged...

haven't been busy lately (as usual)...just plain lazy...and how did a lazy guy spend his weekend? hmm...i watched a few movies...alone...in front of my comp/tv...in a self-setup, threatre-like, dark ambience...

and here's a poem i came across while watching "In Her Shoes"...some pretty old movie starring Cameron Diaz and dunno-who...

here it goes....by Ee Cummings

I carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)



a love poem? maybe...but i'm not too 'literature' enuff to come to such a conclusion...anyhow...it was recited by cameron diaz (the younger sis) on her sis wedding...and previously...they had a very big fight and some misunderstandings that caused them to distant from each other...and cameron diaz was previously a slut...(yeah...you got me)...ultimate! and she couldn't read for nutz....well...to cut the story short...GO AND RENT THE DVD URSELF!!!! haha...a pretty good movie for a lonely weekend night...=P about kinship and stuff...and a skimpy slutty cameron diaz onscreen....

yupz....so much for "In Her Shoes"

oh...i also watched "Evan Almighty"...crappy show...abt God asking someone to build and Ark...just like Noah in the Bible... (okay...thatz all i know abt the Bible) and guess what...Ark = A Random act of Kindness...and thatz probably the key idea that the movie wanna bring across? as well as kinship AGAIN...(such a family oriented weekend)....

but there's something that i find very true...even though i'm not too religious...

there's this scene when the God (disguising as a human) said "if u pray for the family to be closer, will God just give you the feeling of closeness? or will He give you the opportunities to get closer?" (something along that line)...how true...watever that are granted to u in life...they dun come totally Free Of Charge...they would need you putting in efforts so that together, you could be granted what u deserve...

another movie "The Enchanted"...definitely the most light-hearted...romantic-in-a-fairy-tale-manner movie amongst the 3...well wat to say...despite strong recommendation from a fren...since last yr dec to watch it...i have managed to delay it till half a yr later...i'm not a fan of fairy-tale...for i have stopped believing that "happily-ever-afters" will ever happen in reality...and this movie...(like it or not)...tries to instill in its viewers the idea of the possibility of fairy tales in real world...and i have to admit...it's a pretty decent attempt...thru a light-hearted female lead (whom i didn't bother to check out who she is)...who is so damn innocent and likeable...and naive...and 'cinderella'-y...haha....and thru songs that are so ear-catching...

the dream of finding the true love's kiss...probably the dream of every gal who still believes in meeting her prince charming...i guess i finally found out why this movie was a hit when it's onscreen...esp amongst the female viewers...and of cuz...without a twist that would have been too cruel....it ends off with "happily ever after's"..and "evil-witch-meeting-her-doom"...cool...everyone will be happy after watching the show...even the toughest of all guys...(well...maybe not the gayz...but then again...even gayz might wanna find their prince charming in the gay world...haha)......yup...it's definitely a good 拍拖-ing movie to catch...



ohhoohoo....such a long post...i hope i didn't bore anyone...


need some social circle updates!!!
pj..where are u? are u back from your hols already?
yanz and ah yu...our meal meet-up will nvr happen like this...go organise!!!
rest of shgrz...busy busy busy? with gf/bf? with work? with wat? when are we going ktv again?

uni class...class rep!!! shiyao!!! when are u organising a gathering? now that IAs are coming to an end...and FYPs are starting...

NESWG...who are going where when? who are coming back when? who are where doing what? lost touch sia...esp guang guang...

Acqua...sorrie...i totally forgot abt that sat's outing...when's the next? before the SEP pple fly off to njoy/waste the entire sem away?...(jealous!)

PRU...though i'm not an official member...but..haha...xie xie ni men shou liu wo... gan dong~ *sobz sobz...i'm always available for any booze outingz! ;)



oppz...no more le... yah...i guess i dun have many friends left...=(

Sunday, June 22, 2008

if it has made things better...

i really hope it did...

sometimes, it's really hard to get things thru...

and in the process, meanings might have tweaked abit..

but all i wanna say...is that i mean no harm...

and if i have hurt anyone anyhow...apologies...it's unintentional...



just another episode in life....

perhaps, one that's to be forgotten...

perhaps, one that we can both learn from...



sorry...

Saturday, June 21, 2008

don't wanna be there anymore...

i don't wanna be...

in that same situation anymore...

always putting myself at the losing end...

keep on waiting, or even hoping, for things that will nvr happen...


and im sick of putting in too much...only to get nothing in return...

perhaps, being too nice means that people will start taking u for granted...

perhaps, when that happens, u have just proved ur 'unimportance'...

perhaps, ur 'unimportance' justifies the insignificance of ur existence...

呼之则来 挥之则去...



yesh...no one is indispenable in the world...

but i just tot tt i'm too easily being dispensed...


wonder why am i so angry over such a small thing...maybe if it's some other pple...i wouldn't be so...

and maybe i'm just angry with myself...for i'm seeing myself repeating whatever that had happened before...



am i too demanding? i dunno...

but i know i'm very easily affected...

yes...i would be affected by ur lousy mood when u feel lousy and need to whine...

but when i feel lousy...who can i turn to? i realli dunno...

sometimes...i just turn a round and realise there's really no one who would even bother and there i am..facing the front again...all by myself...



maybe i just need to grow stronger...afterall i have been in the current state for so long..i should have gotten used to it...i should be able to manage my own self...with my own shell (i'm called master wu gui by my intern friends) that marks my world...a shell thatz too small to accomodate strangers...

if u are just a stranger...dun squeeze in please...

watz wrong with me...

'nothing impt'....just as i have tot i would be...

i guess thatz what i am...


呼之则来 挥之则去...

dispensable, maybe?


oh oh...i forgot...i'm a 便利贴, period.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Yesterday

Yesterday - Leona Lewis

I just can’t believe you’re gone
Still waiting for morning to come
When I see if the sun will rise, in the way that you’re by my side
Well we got so much in store
Tell me what is it I’m reaching for
When we’re through building memories I’ll hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we’ll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds, or least where the story goes
I never believed until now
I know I’ll see you again I’m sure

No It’s not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day one more smile on your face
But they can’t take yesterday

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we’ll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

I thought our days would last forever
But it wasn’t our destiny
Cause in my mind we had so much time, but I was so wrong
No I can believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I’m looking back on yesterday

(Repeat chorus)

Saturday, June 14, 2008

我要...

一个 孩子气的权利...

我讨厌...

我讨厌 不被相信
我讨厌 不受重视
我讨厌 没存在感
我讨厌 缺乏肯定
我讨厌 模糊不定
我讨厌 不够勇气
我讨厌 没有自信

我讨厌那么容易被动摇

我讨厌被当成张便利贴


我讨厌我的情绪...

我讨厌我自己...

我讨厌...

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

random

容易付出的人,比较容易心碎吧。

无论他再伟大,也会有个限制。

就算他不断的付出,但却没有一丝的回报,我想,也应该会有心灰的那一天。

我想他必须要有这心灰的权利,因为在这世上,没有谁欠谁。


人类毕竟还是自私的动物。人不为己,天诛地灭嘛。 这道理是确确实实的。



Monday, June 09, 2008

quote from a blog

" 擁有的其實已經很多

只是我依舊太在意那沒有卻 在我的認知當中 應該是要有的"

i guess it's pretty normal for pple to feel this way...never content with the current state...always feeling that he/she deserves more than what he/she is having...

yes...another 'not-so-awful' trait of human nature...i, myself, am super guilty of that sometimes...and sad to say, the more awful part comes when u think that u deserve more and yet, you don't want to work harder to achieve the 'more' that u so insist that u deserve...

stop thinking that the entire world owes u something...apparently it doesn't...it has already given u the land to walk on...the air to breathe...the day to live...the night to sleep...what more can u ask for?

watever more that u want? i guess we can only work hard for it..and i always believe that hardwork utimately pays off...(well...maybe not in every case...but at least u could keep ur head up high and said "i've tried my best"...)

u dun have to answer to anyone..except urself...

and self-pity is perhaps the pitiest (is there such a word?) thing on earth

yoga (林宥嘉) & 刘力扬 - 传说

i so have to recommend this song...it's been awhile since a duet has caught my ears like this one...





歌曲: 传说 - 太王四神记中文版片尾曲
歌手: 刘力扬 & 林宥嘉
词:施人诚 曲:郑楠

刘:宇宙洪荒那时候
第一句爱是谁说出口
当时的他 如何形容
对方 听懂不懂

林:开天辟地了以后
第一对恋人什么结果
洞穴湖泊 日升月落
他们 爱了多久

林:如果我们那时就相遇
会不会爱得比较放心
合:也许分离 还没被发明 来折磨爱情

林:一千次轮回都不错过
刘:一万里相随都不放手
合:在每个尽头 再约好碰头
再睁开眼 就认出你我

刘:一千次轮回足不足够
林:一万里漂泊又算什么
合:这人海辽阔 爱总被蹉跎
总该留一篇传说

刘:宇宙洪荒那时候
第一句爱是谁说出口
当时的他 如何形容
对方 听懂不懂

林:开天辟地了以后
第一对恋人什么结果
洞穴湖泊 日升月落
他们 爱了多久

林:如果我们那时就相遇
会不会爱得比较放心
合:也许分离 还没被发明 来折磨爱情

林:一千次轮回都不错过
刘:一万里相随都不放手
合:在每个尽头 再约好碰头
再睁开眼 就认出你我

刘:一千次轮回足不足够
林:一万里漂泊又算什么
合:这人海辽阔 爱总被蹉跎
总该留一篇传说

合:我会尽我全力 抵抗时间的侵袭
不停的爱你 HOHO......

林:一千次轮回都不错过
刘:一万里相随都不放手
合:在每个尽头 再约好碰头
再睁开眼 就认出你我

刘:一千次轮回足不足够
林:一万里漂泊又算什么
合:这人海辽阔 爱总被蹉跎
总该留一篇传说

刘:OH 还好我有你
林:幸好你有我
合:一起写一篇传说

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

wanna 远走高飞

"我心中的怕
不知该怎么做 才可以放下"


feeling like a 便利贴...being called upon only when needed...and thrown into rubbish bin once i'm have served my purpose...

brutal...

sad...

emo...

stressed...


ha...but who will bother anyway...



no worries...zs will be back to his usual self tmr morning...

this i promise you...