don't wanna be there anymore...

i don't wanna be...

in that same situation anymore...

always putting myself at the losing end...

keep on waiting, or even hoping, for things that will nvr happen...


and im sick of putting in too much...only to get nothing in return...

perhaps, being too nice means that people will start taking u for granted...

perhaps, when that happens, u have just proved ur 'unimportance'...

perhaps, ur 'unimportance' justifies the insignificance of ur existence...

呼之则来 挥之则去...



yesh...no one is indispenable in the world...

but i just tot tt i'm too easily being dispensed...


wonder why am i so angry over such a small thing...maybe if it's some other pple...i wouldn't be so...

and maybe i'm just angry with myself...for i'm seeing myself repeating whatever that had happened before...



am i too demanding? i dunno...

but i know i'm very easily affected...

yes...i would be affected by ur lousy mood when u feel lousy and need to whine...

but when i feel lousy...who can i turn to? i realli dunno...

sometimes...i just turn a round and realise there's really no one who would even bother and there i am..facing the front again...all by myself...



maybe i just need to grow stronger...afterall i have been in the current state for so long..i should have gotten used to it...i should be able to manage my own self...with my own shell (i'm called master wu gui by my intern friends) that marks my world...a shell thatz too small to accomodate strangers...

if u are just a stranger...dun squeeze in please...