2007 is coming to an end...

it's a brand new year yet again...well...so many things happened in 2007...happy times...sad times...it's amazing how time flies....and how memories last...

hmm...it's not a particularly happy year...not sad either...all i can say...is that it's a struggling year...semester in fact...struggling with studies...with pple...until i got so tired that i have to end it...not in the best of ways...but i wasn't given the chance to choose...

yep...and so...life finally goes on...

let it be...let it be...let it be...let it be....


hmm...there are times when i still think of it...missing somebody...but wat i can do...i'm already trying my best...it's my heart and subconscious mind that fail me time and again...but i'm not going to be a nuisance anymore...i had been one long enough i guess...and i really hate it when i got someone irritated...just as much as how i get annoyed when pple irritate me enough...oh well...i just hope a little more time will do the job and purge every memory of you out of my mind...

2008....mixed feelings...been thinking abt wat do i wanna achieve in this coming year...or half a year...gonna do intern at Exxon for the next 6 months...i hope it will be a wonderful and enriching experience...learning and working in the industry and hopefully impress enough to land a job there? but of coz...i'm someone who would wan to leave my options open...but the most important thing is to learn and grow...i really dun wanna waste half a yr there just to 'cheat' the high intern pay....


anyway...a new yr ahead...new resolutionz...and i really do hope for the best for everything that can happen....i know it sounds abit greedy....but who aren't? okay...that i will just narrow it down to hoping for contentment in everything...can? haha...


yup...and of coz...i hope that u are doing all fine and well for the hols tatz ending...(i know you would think that it's not really any of my business...but well...hope you dun mind to just let me have this little space in the net to write wat i wan)...since i'm already not allowed to say wat i wanted to...

i guess i should be going missing for awhile...maybe forever...coz i think we both need more time...and in fact...i really dunno how much time i need...yah...so...farewell










i will be fine...as a matter of fact...i'm really doing quite fine now...just that i could be better...and i WANT to be better....

:)

超sad的 “雨天”...

haven't bought myself a bday gift...

sad...


haha

results are out...


some pple are super happy with their performance...

some disappointed...


some set their expectations and met...

some put in effort but didn't achieve what they wanted...


for me? all i can say is that it's a funnie sem...well...if u are an avid fan for my BORING blog...u would have already known that i didn't really get into the mugging mood this sem...certain thing was happening during the exam period and that quite affected my mood...well...glad that it's over...

anyway...cn3108 lab wasn't the best of experience for me...lousy grp MATE...but i guess i couldn't ask for too much...judging from the fact that i used only one bid pt while the rest of my friends splurged like crazy for their precious wednesday lab slot...

a B+ for cn3108....JUSTIFIED...


okay...lets cut the story short...no expectations were set for this sem's result..just hope that the cap will not take too much damage...so here are the grades:

the funnie thing is that this is the sem i considered myself to be most cui...

but i got the most A+...2 out of 3 for the least confident modules....SHE is a joke...crapz...i tot i did so badly for the final paper...and yet..it turned out GREAT...MTO is a more subtle joke..( BUT IT'S STILL A JOKE)...the module that i had the cui-est midterm...and TADAA! still maintaining my record of getting A+ for all 3MCs modules so far....lolz...

okay...other than that...design was abit disappointing...no feelings for 3421 coz my maths really isn't very good...

so...applying the rule of averages...i tink the grades are too good to be true...CAP dropped by a mere 0.03...lucky...



yep...i guess results are just another thing in life...some take them lightly...some are very much affected by them...

quote from 'someone' sometime back..."there are more things in life than results"...how true...

so many things that are capable to make u sad...and disappointed...and yep...

happy or not? i think it very much depends on the weight u decide to place on each components of 'what-make-you-happy'...emphasise on things that u perform better in ba...life could be made much happier like this...


well...have been a while since i did a long post....gonna end it off here...


congrats to those who are happy with their results...

pple who didn't do so well...cheer up!!!...look at the other things in life that you might have tt other pple might not have...







:)


where is my 'getaway' for the holidays?

happy bday to you...
happy bday to you...
happy bday to you...
happy bday to you!!!!

i'm finally setting myself free...

i can finally be myself again...




*smilez

time for a brand new start....


thanks for giving the chance to talk things out...i guess it's now clear...everything is crystal clear...

yup...feel so much lighter now...free from all the loads that i have put on myself...now that i have decided to throw everything away...but the friendship will stay...

:)



there will be an unsent xmas gift this year...oh well...


BUT i'm still expecting presents!!!!!


hear that!

it's been long since i last did a 'wait-for-hair-to-dry' blogging session...


well...life's pretty much different after the exams...(apart from the usual missing-someone moments)...no more central lib studying till late night...no more stressing over the next paper...AND....LESS SLEEP!

yah...i have been practically not sleeping since 4th dec...okay...lets not exaggerate...i have been SLEEPING stingily for the past 3 dayz...

here's the brief summary...


4th dec: after paper...eat some food to fill stomach (so as to puke better afterwards)...then went over to walas for a night to chill after the most GROSS papers i had ever have in my NUS life...and so...we sat there and ordered drinks and some finger food to last us till very very late...more than 10 of us...mostly PRU pple (and i'm not in PRU btw) and the night's bill summed up to $368...fierce...ordered like everything's free....haa...and it's quite fun...when everyone got high...and not to mention...the BRotherHood gang was there also...siao onz! and selina and tiff were at coldrock.....practically.....the majority of the central lib level 6 chem eng yr 3 were at holland v that night....lolz....so funz...after walas...a bunch of us hopped onto wenhui's 'googoo' and went back sch SRC stadium for 2nd round of funz....really crazy! played texas hold'em with more alcohol...okay...i had retired by then...coz i 'bankai-ed' like twice already! haha...but it's cool...to just lie down on the track and star-gaze...and talked abt how 'fan jian' humans are...and that everyone has his pit that he has trouble dealing with...anyway to cut the story cut...the day ended at abt 4:30am...

5th dec: woke up at abt 9 plus for some 'god-knows-wat' reason...and slack in front of the comp...then went sch to meet some hot dates for lunch...very very short lunch coz hot dates still needed to study? or hot dates simply didn't have the 闲情 to lunch with me...haha...and then i went to the medical centre to get my medical checkup for IA done...which took blardy long and i didn't understand why...went back home to catch up on some sleep before i was called to join jessica alba for supper at cck with andy...haha...went back home later for soccer match which went until 5 plus in the morning...by the time i finished my half completed 斗牛要不要 episode 3...it's alr abt 6am!!!

6th dec: woke up at abt 11...practically didn't do much...except for some tidying up to the sem's notes and those from previous sems...and i realised the amount of paper used is 'wicked-sick'...damn alot larzz....i feel so sorrie to the trees...
okay...then i got tired from tidying and left the thing half-done and went on to play dota with BOTS!!! lolz...freaking no life....then went to see lianghan off and supper-ed with andy...mengyi...ghimsong...wenhui...and xintian...at changi v...reached home not long ago...and it's now 4am in the morning...


good thing that my hair is not very wet already...can sleep soon...



anyway....these 2 days...yest and today have been freaking cold and wet...raining periodically and heavy...hmm...been talking to some friends lately abt relationships and stuff...and expectations etc...i realise that i am actualli expecting alot from pple...in a way...i feel that i may be too greedy? or just that i expect too much? and that's the root of my problems...sigh...



a friend told me that my msn nick always sounds sad...well...not the 1st time alr...haha...i shall reflect on it again...

"if u try to believe that u r happy, u will be happy" - advice from a friend....thankz ar...i will try to do that...well...as i used to say...."it's not that i'm sad...it's just that there's nothing to be happy abt..." maybe not so for this sem...i tend to get sad when pple ard me are sad...and many many pple (including someone) were kinda down for his/her own reasons...and unavoidably...i was affected...





'zero expectations' from a friendship....hmmm....i will try...

'zero maintenance'...i think i'm more or less used to it...

'getting it out of my system'...no intention to do that...but i intend to change THAT system...and whatever ways it can be changed...


need to get the old zs back...the one that has more control over his life...more rational in thinking...and more disciplined in his studies...






and with regards to the missing posts...lolz...decided to removed them coz they are simply a waste of space and they tend to be mis-interpreted...



smilez...