been sitting lh's car to sch to mug...

influence of eng songs...some are nice....the old ones esp...

new ones? well...a miserable few? haha

the tune needs to be nice enough...for i'm a more 'melody' type of person...thereafter...i will look into lyrics...


"Tattoo" sounds nice...heard it on radio today...erm....let me see...by Jordin Sparks...(dunno who)

shall post the lyrics sometime soon...



and SHE has new song...some song for soe new drama in which hebe stars...thankz to wenhui for sending me the song...lolz



tues will be my 1st paper...

CN4119 - design 1

followed by mle1101 on tues

cn3122 on sat...

and cn3125 mon
cn3421 tues...


and HOLs!!!


not gonna set expectations this sem...coz i'm really not expecting much...attitude's not very right thru this entire sem...feeling's not too right also...certain issues that i shan't bore my viewers with...haha

and yes...i know i wun fail my exams...but if i'm just aiming to pass...i wouldn't be in chem eng...or simply...that person who aims just to pass wouldn't be me...

yup...but still...dun expect too much this sem...i really feel quite cui...and high chance that it will be the worst so far...so stay tuned for updates...i hope i have more good news than bad news in the month to come...

Dec is here....i'm expecting presents and parties and greetingz... *winkz

re-looking at some of my posts just weeks back...

life sux...when i tot i had took a turn for the better...i realized that it actually leads to a U-turn...i think i'm pretty much back to square one again...


lh told me i have to get her out of my system...

how?

i really dunno how lehz...can some kind soul help me?





argh...too many posts for the exam period...



stress plus emo...


not easy....

请不要走 带走我的所有
请带我走 生活全都要走

今天 寂寞感觉突然又出现
浮现 过去梦中的画面
哭泣 原来是我伪装 悲伤那一面
竟是我们曾经 拥有的笑脸

有谁能为我 减轻了伤痛
撒向了海中 让重新再来过

请不要走 带走我的所有
请带我走 如果真的要走
从来就不肯承认
你是我心中最爱的 那个人

请不要走 别在我面前走
我的温柔 有一天你会懂
曾深爱过一个人
今生今世就已经属于 那个人

emo emo emo...


wrong timing....but it happens....sadness seems to be engulfing the skies of so many pple lately...and there's nothing i can do to savage the situation...i'm equally helpless...in fact...i may even just make things worse...

like how i make things worse for myself...

dunno what i did today...practically going thru motion for everything...like a zombie...took numerous short naps and still tired...and instead of thinking abt the notes i read...i think of you...


somehow...it painz me to see u sad...



why do i let someone dictate my happiness like this? i dun like it tis way...i DUN!

i know it's such a bad time...realli...very very bad...to be sinking into the bottomless pit again...

but i just can't help it...i know something isn't too right...but i dun have the means to find out...i guess i dun have the rights/privilege to know...nor do i have the choice to want to do anything for u to make things better...

i told brudder that i feel stupid when it comes to issues regarding you...yes...i am...VERY...



somehow...it still bothers me quite alot to find out that you are sad...i tot i have gone passed that phase...but apparently...i HAVEN'T





argh...i hate to say this...but i really hate this...




i'm tired...and i need sleep...but everytime i close my eyes...i think abt what might have happened to you...



STUPID!



i wonder why do i...and i wonder will there be anyone who will be like me...(i guess maybe brudder would...)



and i wonder if i feel sad...will there be a person out there who will be so bothered by it...like i am by her...



exams in 2 weeks' time...



all i can ask for...is for u to be well again...

please do! and tell me so!


i dun wanna get stuck in here....

dun be sad...




a sudden lost of words...i hate to see pple ard me getting sad...coz i will unwillingly feel with them....


esp if it's you...


and i'm really not good at consoling pple...but be sure that i will be here for you...gal...


other pple may change overnight....but a stupid fool hasn't changed at all since the day we met....

:)

smilez!


i will be smiling for u too!






to another friend....cheer up too! things come and go...only the true good things come and stay! believe in urself....

i'm behind schedule!!!!

argh//....i dun even know how my schedule is like!


i so goner this sem....cuiz.....


pray for me....







i will pray for you....=)

i heard many pple having negative comments abt jay chou's newest album...

i beg to differ...

though i'm not a fan of his...and i'm not into american folk song like his 1st hits of the album



but the zhou jie lun-fang wen shan combination is still as good as before....
"我不配" - it tells a story...i think...his personal story...

dun give up on yourself when i haven't given up on you....

where is my PI controller? and my 're-life' valve? i got NO FREAKING LIFE!!!!

getting emo...

coz of stresses...

primary stress
hoop stress
longitudinal stress
principal stress
bending stress
shear stress
critical buckling stress...

so many!


and pple! pls...stop thinking that i'm very smart....i'm not!!! i feel very stupid these dayz! and stop asking things from me...i dun have anything to offer!!!!



emo ...emo....emo....

::: taking a turn :::

while recently, life has been taking a turn...things are changing but i can't really tell why...well...on a lighter note...at least i'm not as depressed as before?

it's really strange how someone can step into ur life...alter it unknowingly...and leave without he/she knowing the impact that he/she has brought to that person...nothing's bad or good...

and i dun wanna get into the confused state of mind anytime soon...


all i wanna say...is that i dun miss her that much anymore...and i'm beginning to treat her as a friend...and i feel that this friendship may be taking a turn too...yep...to somewhere good...

i just hope that i will be happy...she will be happy...you will be happy....and everyone's happy...


as for now...i will just wait for exxon to call me...lolz...(i really hope they will call lorz...) and get my engine started to mug for the final exams in less than a month's time....

cheer for me...

thankz