i know it's such a bad time...realli...very very bad...to be sinking into the bottomless pit again...

but i just can't help it...i know something isn't too right...but i dun have the means to find out...i guess i dun have the rights/privilege to know...nor do i have the choice to want to do anything for u to make things better...

i told brudder that i feel stupid when it comes to issues regarding you...yes...i am...VERY...



somehow...it still bothers me quite alot to find out that you are sad...i tot i have gone passed that phase...but apparently...i HAVEN'T





argh...i hate to say this...but i really hate this...




i'm tired...and i need sleep...but everytime i close my eyes...i think abt what might have happened to you...



STUPID!



i wonder why do i...and i wonder will there be anyone who will be like me...(i guess maybe brudder would...)



and i wonder if i feel sad...will there be a person out there who will be so bothered by it...like i am by her...



exams in 2 weeks' time...



all i can ask for...is for u to be well again...

please do! and tell me so!


i dun wanna get stuck in here....