certain songs are long forgotten...but some still do exude the beauty they once possessed...like the one that is playing in the background...

simply nice!

i have to kick the habit of talking to u on msn...

coz it's always ONLY me who wanna talk...



a life that is out of sync with almost everything...a life that is centered around you whose life isn't centered around me...



"如果喜欢一个人...
那就得尊重她心里有她喜欢的人"

how many 'by today' do you have?!?!??!


well...perhaps u guys still dunno my working style yet...i'm not ganjiong spider...but i just dun like to leave things to the VERY last minute...and i find it hard to accept the fact that someone can keep pushing the deadline behind...day after day...

if u really got problem with the date set...SAY SO! nobody will know how much time u need or how busy u are unless u tell...

and the entire globe is not going to stop spinning becoz of a single person...



we need to work as a team...cooperation needed....and so does communication...so please...i think everyone has to answer to one another ba...now that we are in the same lab grp...

i hope things can get better...and i'm already trying my best to coordinate...if help is needed...just let me know...i will do whatever i can to assist....

i keep telling myself that i gotta do something abt it...but everytime...i find myself doing the direct opposite...

怎么办?

i think my persistence is a flaw in my character...it's just like i had hit my head against the wall but i still try to go into it...thinking that the wall might break down one day...yah right...that someday will be long long after the day my head breaks down 1st...

yanz said that some of shaggerz are rather similar in the sense that we are all quite 专情...wonder if it's a good thing...coz it's usually the source of trouble that we inflict upon ourselves... the 人是犯贱的-theory once again...

well...till the day i prove the theory wrong...i will always be a living example...a case study for the stupid theory...feel free to study ME!

argh!!

"就只希望对方多一些关爱的眼神
这辈子就可望得到对方的爱
她的一举一动都牵动着我的心
她就成了放出万丈光芒的太阳
我只不过是绕着她公转的小行星
在距离之外 奢望她赐予光和热"

我的容嘉学姐!!!! haha

this extract i got from 黑糖macchiato...a taiwanese idol drama....

damn funnie!

to the "kpo" that left a msg on the tagboard....

sorrie but i have to delete it...it's not very nice to name names here lar...esp when the entire chem engin community is quite small...and i really dun wanna cause any unnecessary problems to anyone...

anyway...it's not obsessing...

it's just liking...欣赏...

the rational side of me is still functioning... =)

okay...maybe to a certain extent...it's obsession...but who cares abt a little guy's obsession in the big big world? ya! so just let me be...let me write wat i feel like writing here can? and try not to get anyone else involved here...

i'm not a trouble maker...and i have no intention of becoming one...



apologies to anyone if u feel that u have been offended here before...or after...


and it's a totally democratic society (maybe not totally)....BUT...if u dun like wat u see here...by all means...dun even visit! i welcome anyone who feels welcomed here...and those that dun...please! u know what to do....

“What’s in a name? That which we call a rose
By any other word would smell as sweet.”

- Juliet in R&J









it means "pure", "beloved"....

让我心动的人 - 林俊杰

己好久没有你的消息
好久都没有和你谈心
好想念你总爱对我说
你近来痘痘怎么那么多

如今你是否还留长发
你是否仍每夜迟回家
你是不是还爱咬指甲
oh girl 我今夜好想你呀

梦若和你的一切都是梦
那为何我会心动
谁为了谁
为了谁心动在分分钟

风它不肯说
云悄悄飘过
黑夜它依旧沉默
只有天上一颗星星说她睡了
你是否也该休息了

风它不肯说
云悄悄飘过
心跳却说服我没有错
让我心动的人是谁呀
愿那在梦中的你会懂

slight changes to the previous timetable...now...my wed is essentially a 1-hr day...so i'm subjected to possible-not-going-sch-wednesday...cramped most of my tuts on tues...the last lect on tue are usually no lect as told by the lecturer...so...this sem's gonna be busy-tues-hungry-thurs-slack-wed-and-fun-fri....

anyone who wanna lunch with me? take note of the white boxes...

"我能遇见你已经是很不可思议了"

someone predicts my next msn nick to be something like this...

i laughed...haha...why got pple wanna predict my nick?

but it's from the movie "不能说的秘密"...and it's so appropriate for xiaoyu to say that to xianglun...

week1

if aeroplanes can fly, do can TIME! (Boo! wat a lousy starting phrase) but still....let the truth be told...this stupid entity called TIME is ever causing agonizing pains...there are shouts of complaints that they don't seem to have enough of this thing...and even if some do....they find themselves chasing it more often than not...coz it FLIES...but humans don't...

the 1st week has been relatively easy...but lab has started...AND! this is no cause for celebrations! today was my 1st lab and i already realised i have forgotten most of my stuff learnt last sem...normal? probably...been complaining abt the steep learning curve that NUS forces all its students up...only to pour water down from the top to make the slope slippery and almost impossible to climb...

Mission: IMPOSSIBLE 5,6,7,8 (4 more sems!!!)

everyone's taking out their ammo (ie seniors' lab reports...tut ans...and etc etc...) and start fragging....trying to own every single test there is....every graded proj and assignment...ya! it's THAT competitive...CRazY...

lucky me...i got friends who dun mind sharing their ammos with me...coz i really have very very LIMITeD supplies....

lets hope everything goes well for MI 5...for everyone that i love and loves me...




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it's hard to chat someone up...

and when u did...it's even harder to maintain the conversation...

esp when it appears to be a one-way type of conversation...

well...it happens now and then...

and somehow...i have a feeling that i can talk with strangers far better than with friends that are so NOT close...ya! as in those friends that u get to see very often but seldom talk to them other than those courteousy hi's and bye's...

coz strangers are just pple u got to meet on some fateful occasions and that after...u might not even see them again in the next 10 good yrs...so...it's easier to talk freely and u will not be too afraid to even offend them with ur words...unintentionally of coz...




能真正聊天的朋友不多。。。希望你是其中一个。。。也希望你愿意当我的其中一个。。。

was out last night with NESWG to celebrate ...ermz...for a last dinner ...with chun yen....haha...nothing sounds right tonight...

okay....this jc friend of mine is leaving sg for china on friday! so...it's sort of a farewell dinner for him...coz we wun be seeing him in local territory for at least the next 3 months...going for work...

duration: unspecified...

haha...it's fun being out...the usual crapz...lame jokes...the 'coldness'...and what have we....招牌动作...blar blar...endless suaning!!! probably chun yen's gonna miss us most for our constant suaning....

well friend...if u are ever in need of sourness...we are always online for u!!! do approach us...we will be kind...

photos taken in the exact chronological order as they are displayed...ermz...reason being...the rest of the pple were lazy to move...so...chunyen ownself move around to take these picz...so unwilling of us larz...

kev was again missing last night...gastric...


alritez...thatz abt all...NESWG! u can either ask me for photos or just grab from my page....oh...i still have those we took at cafe der mar....

(其实我不怕麻烦...因为是为了你...) ....sighz...

聊天 has become my habit...but who's there to talk to everyday!??!?!

haha...i guess i should start talking to my textbooks...but first...i would have to buy them 1st....

the kind of timetable u would die to have if u have...
well...the shaded boxes are my lessons...except for one that is not balloted yet...two 8am dayz per week!!! and 9am!!! all so earli....totally unacceptable!

and thurs is a 8-5 work day...YA! not the most ideal timetable that i want..but i guess i have to bear with it...lucky tues morning lect is to be webcasted...

BUT the possible free wednesday is gone! crapz...

"承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得不想再拉扯"

-- 平常心 - Amei

well...this is what i am doing late at night and not sleeping when i have a 0800h lect tmr morning...听音乐! so that i wun hslx?!?!?! and finding phrases of lyricz that are so...erm...sad...

probably tat why ppl of all eras like love songs...sad one esp...becoz...“爱是一种需要...一种缺乏"....

friday ...chem eng soccer in sch...tentatively...@2pm after lecture...

stay tuned for latest updatez!!!!

argh!!! sch starting le...so sad/...

foresee a very busy sem ahead...

busy mind...with so many things to think abt...

the mental mind would be thinking abt sch...sch...and sch...and the sub-conscious one would be thinking abt stuff that i couldn't not think...

sianz.....somebody pls! make my life more interesting pls!!!!

::: abt dreams :::

man...i had a rather weird dreams last night...

i dreamt abt a certain someone went missing...then i went all around searching for that certain someone...nvr found her in the end...at least thatz what i remember...

went so many places in the dream...places that were familiar...places totally foreign...

hmm...actualli...i had already forgotten most part of this long dreamz...only rem that i was busy searching for someone who seemed to be impt to me....



lolz...dreams are strange phenomenons in life...wonder how they work...

There was a time...when ppl say..tat singapore wun make it...but we DID!!!..(crapz aside...) when i was rather interested in dream deciphering...and probed into what could different dreams mean...

findingz: NOTHING! haha...my passion for it died-ed quite soon after it's ignited...

anyway...wonder what create dreamz...is it the sub-conscious mind? the 'second mind' that i mentioned before? And who controls this 'second mind' that everyone has? it appears that it operates on it own...the person himself can't even dictate what the second mind thinks...And...it functions in the background even without u noticing...it's like...u might not know that u miss someone so much..but u ARE really missing that someone...

there is a chinese saying that goes 日有所思 也有所梦...if it's true...then dreams will be the projections of wat ur sub-conscious mind is thinking that u are not aware of...



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okay...dreamz aside....

went to catch 不能说的秘密 on friday with pj...yanz and jiaz...didn't expect very much from the movie...and it turned out to be quite good...the fact that it's jay chou's 1st attempt at directing a movie...PLUS...original story by Jay CHOu!!!

*clap clap...

i recommend this movie...for those that like music...听音乐的 不是坏孩子!! but 听音乐 will hslx more....lolz

and also for those patow-ing couples...



galz who play piano are so cool! elegant! 陆小雨~~~!!!!


'The Secret'...


argh....甜蜜蜜...


and this is...of coz...陆小雨!!!

amazing!!!

just tot of putting some rubbish here...for those who aspire to be writers?

haha...

Machhiato (in italian)...means 'marked'...烙印...and frequently used to refer to two separate coffee drinks...

Caffè macchiato (or Espresso macchiato) and Latte macchiato

both...i nvr drink before...lolz...coz i'm not a coffee enthusiast...

maybe i shud try them someday...

so...tatz all for now....

i guess i have to go...

coz i can't be always looking at you...while you are always looking away...



even a fool can feel it...and yes...i do feel it...coz i'm the greatest fool of all...

那几个星期的心血 换来的 也只是那不到几分钟的欣赏

不仅使我觉得 我的那份心意 是否有被感受到

或许 只能在这里的我

无论做的再多 也比不上他对你一秒的安慰



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i told ah yu tat i dun feel appreciated...

and this was her reply, "hmm.. prob the other party appreciates ur effort juz tt its not sth tt can be expressed verbally or thru actions"

....dunno....


i wonder...is it really tat hard? i just wanna be treated as a good friend...

i realize tat i often put myself in situations that i dun wanna be in...sigh...

失去了方向感...

somebody....pls take my hand and bring me to somewhere i wanna be...

dated July 22, 2006 (Saturday)

"想念 只不过是单方面的怀念
心动 也只是未完成的心碎..."

was flipping thru my blog post and i saw this...if i rem correctly...i plagarised from S.H.E's '天灰'

'想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎"

8月2日...

感冒了...gotten caught in the rain while on the way to tuition just now...didn't feel it would become so bad...running nose non-stop...maybe i need panadol cold...and a good sleep...

“oh 思念是一种病 一种病”

那么说...我病的不轻...病到无可救药...

该做的 我也都做了...

也就是说 我已经没有其他理由 再为她付出些什么...

就算我愿意 她也不会想要的...


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getting all emotional now...sigh...it will be over soon...i promise...like what WENJING (tay ping hui) said in the 9pm show on channel 8..."有些事 就算想放弃 也要先学会如何放下"

我就是那么放不下!!!

oh well...


hiding away in the shades of the night...


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anyway....happy bday, my friend! i'm sure u will njoy ur 20th...










"爱 是一种需要 一种缺乏
所以 我们都喜欢情歌

不管 爱在进行中 还是仍未萌芽
不管 你爱他比较多 还是他爱你比较多
爱或被爱 其实 都是一种喜悦"

---the OS in the beginning of jolin's version of '听说爱情回来过'...an old song re-sang by our dancing diva....

有些事若想要放弃 也要先学会如何放下...

if ever u are getting emo....dun feel friendless...for i will always be there for u...i'm not good at talking...but i can provide a much needed listening ear....if ever u need one...

tat i can do for u...willingly so...

=)

旧歌听听

one of the old songs that i have always been looking for...finally made an effort to go find it...though i dun think chen xiao chun can sing..but this song really speaks for my heart...

actualli i came across this song on some tv show...我爱黑涩会...channel 102...lolz...

okay...there's this sing competition in taiwan thatz like project superstar in singapore...but i think the contestants are of better calibre...the males esp...and they have this album that features the top 10 of that competition...available in singapore also...and a chap called 林宥嘉 sang this song...i think he has more feel that chen xiao chun...but i can't seem to find his version on baidu...so here'z the original version...

我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声