as a friend of mine said, "你的心情完全由她牵动"...

sigh...

but there is not much i can do...

if the previous post has caused some misunderstandings...i hereby apologize...

there is no intention to badmouth the goalkeeper or what...(totally no intention to cause any trouble)...i mean... i believe as of now...the goalie and the goalpost are quite for each other ...and both are happy with the arrangement

and there is no intention of any party to break this equilibrium...


so...as far as i'm concerned...the goalpost with a goalie is just a talk for that particular night...FULLSTOP!

qn of the day: a goalpost with a goalkeeper....do u shoot?



haha...



well...in life...i dun think i would shoot if i'm not confident of scoring...a goalpost with a keeper? i dun see myself attempting a shot...but i will linger within the penalty box...and if there was a chance...who knows...i might attempt a shot? so the goalkeeper better be a good one...one that'z worthy to be standing in front of the goal...one that deserves his position there...and treasures it...

and as for me? i dunno...it takes me time to find another suitable goalpost...lolz...and once i found one...i tend to be rather persistent to it...

ya!

好想问自己...

我的执著是为了什么...












也许....喜欢一个人...就只是单单想对她好而已...













可是这句话...将会被深深的藏在心里...

it's eating into me....

alrite....here's a 新歌试听...
from wang li hong's newest album...改变自己...
track no. 7.... 爱在哪里

i think it has a super catchy tune...simple lyrics...that tells so much truth....
zs highly recommend this track...apart from the main hits like 落叶归根...and 改变自己...

of coz...there are some other songs in the album that are good...

all i can say is...this long awaited album is quite up to his mark...wang li hong is talented man...


alrite...for now...i shall present to you...the lyricz....njoy the song!


: 爱在哪里 - 王力宏 ::

在哪里
她到底在哪里
终于知道我给的太少
我的宝贝在哪里

哦好可惜
象是场梦而已
醒来以后发现
她却走了
不会变不灰心

告诉我爱在哪里
找过高找过低
爱在哪里
一直寻寻觅觅

爱在哪里
如果看到她
说我还在这里
告诉我爱在哪里
找过东找过西
爱在哪里
仍然无声无息
爱在哪里
我好想念她能回来因为
我好想念她能回
(快点回)来因为
爱在那里

went blog surfing for a while...and have some thots in mind...

why do some pple make themselves so busy and then start to complain abt not getting much rest?
i mean u plan for ur time...and u shud know watz enough for u...u dun go ard saying, "i want to do this...i want to do that...i will take up the jobs..."
then moments later u nag, "wah lau eh...i very busy lehz...sianz...no time NO TIME!!!"

if u are someone who has to get busy to feel alive....so be it...plan as many activities and take up as many projz as u want...just bear in mind that each item u take up comes with a certain level of commitment and responsibility...

if u need to nag to feel alive...by all means...but pls dun nag to everyone abt ur 'planned-to-be-so-busy' life...not everyone is interested in how sadistic u are to urself...

not particularly referring to anyone...i have known pple who are super busy...ya! they like to be busy...the pt that i'm trying to drive at...is that...u are in control of ur life...u plan for ur time...and so...pls be nice to urself...rest is necessary...so are food and water and air....and LOVE...



on a personal note...i'm a slacker by nature...i only get busy during sch terms....woohoo...for now...i am super free! really free....

i should really sit down and think...

just 2 more yrs....

i really dun wanna waste anymore time....

bon voyage!

haf funz...

没有给自己机会 就判了自己死刑...

for a day like this....

i decided to consume all my sources of happiness...my dark chocz...my B&J ice cream...my ribena...and what have i...


i think my throat's gone...


argh....






wat should i do?

i think i'm sinking again...心 不在焉...it's lost in transition.... (just like yanz...)


perhaps i should just keep my distance...and let time solves everything there is to be solved...just let time make me forget...and accept....

why did it feel so strange?













but it's lovely to be able to see u...

okay...i got pple commenting that my blog updates are not as frequent as before...

my reason being...i'm feeling much happier these dayz...yah...for no particular reason...i'm just feeling more carefree recently...nothing much has changed...i'm still the same old persistent me...the one that is good friend of Mr Cockcroach...the one that resists the strong temptation of evolution and remains pretty much the same...*stupid!...ceteris paribus (econs students must know this)...the only obvious change is that i have gotten abit richer! woohoo!

ya! after the Kukup week...which i slacked like crazy...i went back to Casco to work for another week...this time...the work aint that sweating anymore...less warehouse trips to check on the 'rock' (powder)...but this just means more lab tests also...

i think i had a record high of 40 test samples in a day...stirred and blend the adhesive until my fingers ached...until my hands start to develop thicker skins...until my back cried from standing too long...

so...last week was nothing but boring work...that denied all possibilities of any lunch dates...and destroyed any glimpse of hope that i could have a good lunch with....ermz...my friends!

ended the job on friday coz i dun wanna cheat their money...(or rather i dun wan them to cheat my cheap labour anymore)..and so this week's back to the same slacking routine...even though i'm quite resolute to bring in something new...like a robbing trip to the bank...a few laps in the pool under the scorching sun...a day trip to Sentosa for chess fwc beach day...a hunting for my backpack...a billiard session...

AND ANOTHER DENTAL SESSION TMR MORNING@!!!! (i just had one 2 weeks back!)...my teeth are giving my some problems lately...

i have to admit...that i'm starting to feel empty again now that i'm not working....argh...

*drag my legs to the toilet...



well...so that more or less sums up this post...

oh ya...i sorta saw my che3 timetable le...argh/!! two 8am-dayz...6 core modulez...tat spells disaster....


for once...i'm envious of those pple going overseas for SEP or NOC etc....

阳光越过窗沿
我在阴影里面
才过正午13点
就漆黑一片
没有人看得见
我心深处的阴暗面

只能眺望东边
你的世界太远
撑到想象的极限
幸福有多甜
可黑夜已吞噬我
就是拉不到你的手

因为我活在西边
只拥有半个白天
一到午后夜色就蔓延
虽然和你面对面
却看不到我的脸
感觉到你不安的视线

在西界的那一边
只能有半个白天
暗自祈祷上天的垂怜
在长夜的边缘
给我一丝光线
让你能多看我一眼

remember those materials that i have shown some time back for card making?
well...i've finally managed to put them together....





presenting to u...the 1st-ever card that is designed and made personally by zs...

oh...dun mind the desk please...it's my study desk during the holidayz...

okay...a close-up...

with tigger hopping on its bouncy tail...

a closer close-up...zoomed in to the bottom portion...

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY"...
yeap...it's a bday card...and i have no intention to bluff u on that...a card for someone whose bday is near....

nono!
not you...jas! urs is on friday the 13...so unlucky...
and of coz it's not ah cai!
ah yu! no way...haha

it's for none of these pple...no offense but my 1st card has to be special...
=)


here's how the interior looks like...simply plain...haven't written anything yet...





anyway...the card didn't really turn out to be as beautiful as i have been imagining...argh....u know...art and craft work...not everyone has talent...and it's not always that effort can fill up the void left behind by the missing talent...

well...still...sincerity counts! 礼轻情意重 mah...

pretty satisfied with how it looks though...

my 1st ever....










狂想念....\\

i'm stupid....

"Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you"

Alicia Keys - 'If I Ain't Got You'

::: Kukup photoz :::

these photos summarize the Kukup trip that i went earlier this week...

the entire group...all from PRU except me!! (coz rd didn't manage to find his passport...making me the only non-PRU member in the grp...) but i know most of them from union camp 2006...from Watzup....



the guys...mainly from chem eng...my batch...



the gals...



the sunset...which i tot it pretty well taken...there's an inexplainable (is it how u spell it?) calmness and serenity in this pic...



hk asked abt whatz with the sunset...coz everyone seems to indulge in it so much...admiring the scene...

well...as a matter of fact...sunset...and sunrise...are just daily phenomenons...perhaps...the special thing abt it is that pple have gotten so busy with their daily lives that they have forgotten abt this beautiful thing that's happening everyday...and only when pple are on holidays...on a relaxing trip...doing something they like...that they will spare a moment to allow themselves to indulge in...possibly...the simplest thing on earth...nature's creation...in its truest form...

another thing abt sunset is the person or crowd that you are with at that moment...in Kukup...the crowd was good...such moments u njoy with friends...

but it would have been even better (best!) if it's with someone u love...(think too much...) haven't movies always shown loving couples in a romantic scene with sunset as the backdrop? well...everyone will like to have his/her love story featuring one of such scenes right?


okay...i guess i shall just top it off with a few of my own sunset shots using my cheapo SE phone camera...haha...



when the pic below is inverted...it gives an "!"



p.s.: highlight of the trip was supposed to be the fireworks...instantaneous moments of splendid...momentary beauty...things that don't last long enough...

for reasons as mentioned...and without professional photography skill...i cant find picz of those fireworks...even for the simplest of them all...

i kinda agree with lingyan that organising stuff suckz...

not becoz it's a chore...well..it could be quite a tedious task sometimes...

mainly...it's becoz most of the time...pple tend to make it a chore for the one organising...

for the one that even bother to organise...


\
that precisely whatz happening to shaggerz bah...friendship of close to 10years...for some...it even surpassed that mark...but who had even bother to organise a gathering for a meal? touch ur heart and ask urself....have u ever bother to meet up with this bunch of stupid arse that accompanied u thru the times of sec sch...

sec sch friendship bonds...some say they are the strongest...and hopefully..can withstand the test of time...well...it's relative...

i've talked abt priorities...

i've talked abt changes....

i guess to many...this filmsy friendship just isnt worth the time anymore...

so many 'suddenly's....even though the gathering date was set last week....i told yan i'm not annoyed...coz i alr see that coming...in fact...i was laughing..coz they are so predictable....


i used to have tis idea in mind...that every yr we gather on an occasion...draw lots to decide who to buy whose bday presents for the coming yr...then we could make it a point to meet up once every 1/2/3/4 months for advanced/belated birthdays celebration...well...aint birthdays excuses for meeting up?

haha..but i doubt it would work...it really boils down to effort...


gonna end off here...






kukup was fun...relaxing...and overdose of sleep that was so much lacking before that...seafood-phobic...beer-drowning...lolz...texas-pokering(whoo!!!!)...

change a song on my blog before i go...

其实还爱你 - 阿沁

我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由

每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱

其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心

我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你

可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你

abt moving on

while i wait for my not-so-dry hair to dry abit...lets talk abt something...

to some, moving on seems to be the hardest thing to do in the world...it's gotta do with the person's character i guess...i'm such person...persistent in many things...reluctant to change even though everything ard is rapidly changing...

there's this saying that goes..."the only constant in the world is change" (or something along that line)...but even if the world changed from jurassic time to ice age...to modern dayz...the zs will still remain as zs...the innate nature just wouldn't change...

perhaps there are changes...but they are so minute that it's hard to even notice them...

perhaps i've moved on...but i dun dare to look back...coz i dun wanna realize how little i have moved...

to be frank...i quite like the way it is now...carefree...nothing to be bothered with...(or am i just bluffing myself?) i dunno...but i feel kinda good these dayz...coz i know that everyone will be fine...and i dun haf to worry abt you...coz someone will take good care of you...just that the 'someone' isn't me...

so much so that i wanna be the person...but fate just didn't allow it...


i like the carefree-ness now...it's called 无忧无虑...

non-chalant....

it's 2nd july already...time passes really fast....

just one more month...



will be away on monday and tuesday...Kukup trip...