so irritated by my friend again..
he never fail to irritate me..my course mate..my colleague now..
f* up..
does him realise that he is so annoying?
only cares abt himself..
think that wateva he feels are always right..anything that differs from his are wrong..
i'm like ' shang bei zi qian ta de'..
wtf..better dun irritate me again..1st Warning Order!

my tagboard sometimes up sometimes down..
muzt do maintanence le..lolz
..well..i dunno where the smileys are from..they cum with the tagboard..

"so, is it a virus?"

"we don't know"

"are they alive or dead?"

"we don't know"

wat the hell~!! wat do you know then?
that the hell ran out of space for the deads, thatz why they cum to roam the earth?

pretty stupid show "dawn of the dead"

my mum just bought 'ai qing da mo zou' vcd
the one that had been shown on tv be4..
yes..dunno wth she waste money for..
but i still take and see..crapz...
coz got hebe? ..
not really...coz i got nothing to do..

"Error 4001: We are experiencing temporary technical difficulties. Please try again later"
thatz wat my tag board shows..lolz..

'dun cry, my love, bie zai ku le'
--mini and gu-er "don't cry"

though they dun really sing well..but some of their songs are quite soothing to the ears

one entry for today..
went back stagmont today for the cadet mess opening..
drank 2 cans..
dunno why bu drinking alwayz give me this very 'cheng mo' feeling..
'yi jui jie qian chou' - once drunk, you can forget about your thousand sorrowz..
izzit true? i dun think so..
but i never 'jui' before

today, my duty clerk is a shiit..
slacker..most of the time sleeping one...
wth..wanna give him extra if he does something wrong...
he better not...
watch out!

DO duty on a sunday

took off the starz...
it's affecting my vision

a little winning..30 plus buckz..not too bad..
but could be more if villa give one of its goal to everton
lolz..
dun be too greedy larz..
long time never win from soccer le..
be contented

a twist of luck
abit of winnings...
hopefully

s-h-e.cjb.net
to all S.H.E fans out there..

i love hebe

love watching american idol..
sort of grown to love the songs they sing...
the way they sing them..

have been listening to some oldies recently
since my encik's radio in the office alwayz blast them..
many wonderful nice n soothing songs that i've grown fond of..

well..maybe i'm those oldies type..i belong to the 80's!!

embarking on a new journey..
to "the fifth mountain"

hot

slacking in office once again.,..
yesterday, more of my guys went up ROC le..
lolz...

more empty...more lonely...

"Life's a big gamble...
know how to take riskz, then gain some hope in life"
thatz what my brother told me..
so interesting..he actualli encourage me not to stop betting..
but bet small..

true though..life's a big gamble...
tatz why i'm alwayz losing?
crapz..

"hope"...buying some hope with money...
thatz why sgpoolz is so successful..lolz

"therez a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's you heart you can't trust,
therez a reason why people do stay where they are,
coz baby sometimes love's juzt aint enough"

--Sometimes, love's just aint enough

not worth it...

i know not watz happening in your life..i wish that i cud have the chance to noe..
but deep down inside..no matter wat..the tot that i had once cross ur life..
i had been a very minute part of it...tatz enough..i'm glad...
juz hope that everything will be okay..for you and for me...
and for everybody...

okay..lets be more determined this time..
QUIT SOCCER BETTING!!
once and for all, i'm gonna quit this bad habit...
so shiit..it's almost impossible for me to win from it..
why waste the time and money?
i've got better things to persue in life..
i've got dreamz..must really 'jin pen xi shou' this time..
feel so pain when i see my money gone juzt like this..
God(if there is one) pls help me quit!!!

tonight taking leedS
think it's time for ars to lose..
though i support ars but i don't tink it will not lose someday
and today is the today !

buzi buzi buzi~
suddenly got a whole lot of things to be done...
army stuffs..own probz..tonnes of them..
my CCIS stores require so many repairs that i have to get them going before it's too late...
new OA terminalz..need to request for many thingz!!!
installation -wise is hectic too...so many concurrent activities..
and now..my own pc gone crazy!!!!
think got virus...maybe hacker hacked in!!!
wth...i'm a computer-idiot!!!
so shiit...

yesterday was an 'event'ful day..
yesh~ and in army, too many events aren't good...
tuesday the 13th...
my DIV RSM(if you know watz that) popped by in my office...
commented on the wallpaper of this particular i-net terminal..which happened to be some gals in sleazy clothings..lolz...
luckily he didn't burst and give any 'special'
gotta ban all such pics from now..(sad) lolz
'DO' duty at night was so "funz"
'continental' wide blackout!!!
was reading my book halfway and *hooF*...into the mysterious world of nothing...
can't even see a shiit..
scared..thought the terrorist finally acted..hooray!!!
cudn't sleep le..called up the necessary pple..waited for the light of enlightenment to bless my holy night..
so happening...
unforgettable 'DO' experience..

confined in camp..so sad
doing DO duty..nothing to do..
but luckily enough, i'm used to this place
..i'm used to being lonely...

'you're only lonely'

something's been on my mind for quite awhile some time ago..
decided to put it aside but it seems that it's cuming back..
shud i make a choice? i dun think i'm ready though...

maybe there's no choice at all..
just let it be..
let it be...let it be...

good luck to all taking their examz soon
i give all my luck to you...
n my blessingz..

*chant chant chant*
there you go

not a word...
so distant...as usual..

my $180 is floating in the air....
a transaction mistake when i signed for a dinner at Cafe Cartel..

still drifting in the universe of economy...

the 'bridge'

destroyed...reconstructing...on hold...

wtaching the NKF show now..
so draggy..so long...

how smart is the organiser of this event...a change of tactics to get more calls..
so many give-aways provided you call in the next '10 min'..
clever marketing strategy...
working on human's greed...

Greed--the devil that devours all possibilites of happiness in life...
gotta kill this devil...

nice song
'I'm not a star'

"when a person really desires something,
all the universe conspires to help that person to realize his dream"

"Personal Legend"
whatz my personal legend?
is it somethin reflected in dreamz?

"Life's a bitch, no shit"
saw this as one of my friend's msn nick...

disagreed

too much shiit..too bitch

feel so lost...
lost in the profound tots of mine..abt the aspect of Life in the wide field of chimology..
the previous blog was crapz..
i can choose to delete it but dun wan to..
sounded insane..complicated...funnie...
i shall get back to my book and read a few chapters be4 i 'bed'...
since when did 'bed' become a verb...
lolz...laughing at my own insanity...i'm mad~!!!!

hMmzz..this feeling that life has been bad to me particularly is back again!!!
since when did i have this feeling? well..2 years back? due to wateva reason..i dunno..
but through these times, there and again, i had been able to convince myself that life's not bad afterall..
yahz..convinced myself..
had it really been the case?
it's so unfair..why am i the one suffering..alwayz at the losing end of things...
i dun really believe in a religion wholly but God(if there is one) is so unfair to me..
put me through all these hard times..never really feel that i am fortunate..
but is my life really that bad? i guess not..i'm just being greedy...i hope that i'm just wanting to have more..
perhapz it's time to be content with life...one which i feel has not been real good...
but no! pple shud strive on ...shudn't just submit urself to fate...
"fate"..it's such a vague thing...no one knows what form it takes..
something which can only be explained by the stars?
or is it the "destiny" which we have control over?
philopsophical terms..but crapz...

hahaha

'lan le yi zhen tian' at home analysing soccer..so tiring..muz think so much..even in betting..
which is good..lol...stimulates thinking for a long-never-been-used brain..

Pay day!!!!

"ai hui yong yuan yong yuan, ni shuo de...
li kai wo de shi hou, mei you she bu de..."

--chun zai...5566

4-2
welcum back ARSENAL!!!

goalz!!
2 goals in 2 mins...
ars is up by a goal...so fast...
3-2 to the champ!!!

2-1 to liverpool at half-time...
*sigh~..cumm on my team! get a goal back in 2nd half..
let it be 2-2...jiayou

Goalzz!!!! arsenal equalised on the 30th min...go on arsenal!!! you can do it!!!

can't believe i started soccer betting again..
sigh~ lolz..but i find it funz(contradicting)..
no longer the 'muz win put lotza $$' attitude..
which is good i guess..at least can play with another thing other than gunbound..
at this moment ars - liverpool game is going on..
i really hope ars can win ..i'm a huge fan of theirs..
n they have been rather disappointing these days..out of CL and FA Cup..
hope tonight they will win and turn their fortune round..
n i'll win a little..lolz..
but they are 1-nil down now!!!! help !!!someone help them!!!!

hmmz..being irritated by a friend in gunbound just now..
juzt wanna have funz there and he called me "stupid" for some shots i made..
pissed..u dun do this to a friend dun you?
"stupid" - so insulting.
who does he thinks he is?
no big deal..it's juzt a kids' game..
spoil my mood

juzt finished another book "Veronika decides to die"
a lovely twist in the end..lolz..
embarking on a new book soon "The Alchemist"
quite famous book...

xin shi?
yahz..i hav tonnes of them
"hao shi" or "huai shi"...i dunno
life's just so comfusing larz..
while realised my life has reached this stagnant point..
neither moving front nor falling back..
it's STAGNANT!!!!

i guess i need to start my engine once again..
do something useful..perhaps learn something..
okayz..i shall start this weekend!!! i promise myself

had been a slack week for me..
slept in bunk during office hour..practically rotting away..
perhapz that's why i feel that i hav been stagnant..
i need something to keep me buzi..
something to do..
arrowz(a.k.a sai kang)...pls cum to me(but a few will do)..
lolz

Ars 1-2 chel..monaco 3-1 Real
how can this be!
ars and Real are out of champion's league
so sad..2 of my fave european teamz..
well i guess it's just fated..
watched the ars-chel game yesterday..
very tightly matched..
but 2nd half
i counld really see the whole of ars side slackened down..
so shiit..disappointed..
well..i guess there only left Milan to clinch the title this year..
yet again for the 2nd consecutive year..
who else? chel? monaco? porto?
maybe porto...
lets see

"hui yi...guo qu..tong ku de xiang si wang bu liao..
wei he ni hai lai, bo dong wo xin tiao...
ai ni ze me nen liao...jin ye de ni yin gai ming liao..
yuan nan liao...qing nan liao...."

"ai ni"
lolz..cyndi's new song..heavily advertised on tv
she looks so cute...when she sings, "ai ni"

HaPpY BeLaTeD BdAe tO hEb3!!
30/03..i actualli forgotten her bdae..how could i..
lolz..

i love hebe

recently..one of my friend just started blogging..
yeah..i added her link here too..

juz pondering..why do pple blog?
from wat i look..pple with lotza 'xin shi' usually blog?
i guz so ba

recently in to Paulo Coelho's bookz
this brazilian writer..quite amazing..
his books actualli touch on lives of people..
discuss human nature..
good natured or evil?
desire to live or die?
interesting sia

hmmz..
happy? or sad?
emotion..can this be controlled?
or should Nature decide how u feel?
puzzled..amazed..confused..

life's so complicating

gonna log offle...
brother cuming to take over again...so unfair..
he cum i must siam...anyway...

i'm gonna go running tml morning!!!

PpLe hAvE wEnT uP tO ROC..
sO littLe peEpz leFt..
nOtHinG mUch tO dO..
sO lOsT..sO hmmzzz...sad?

The struggle in yourself..the constant dilemma b/w being good or bad...

" Perhaps the fight between GOOD & EVIL
is raging all the time in every individual's heart,
which is the battleground for all Angels & Devils;
they would fight inch by inch for thousands of millennia
in order to gain ground, until one of them finally vanquished the other"

got this from a book "THE DEVIL AND MISS PRYM" by Paulo Coelho.
quite like his book.