dream vs reality....

i prefer the former....but i wake up feeling the exact opposite of the harsh reality....it often makes me feel miserable...that something is truly missing....something called love....and another called passion....





do you knw that you stopped being friendly to me? i feel it so strongly....i dunno if you're being deliberate or wat....but i feel sad....so much so that i dunno if i should start distanting myself away....but as much as i want to do that...i knw i will have difficulty....

it was exactly one month ago....

what abt one month later?

nobody knws what will be left of me one mth later.....

i dunno it myself....

looking back...many things have happened in the previous one month....so much so that i lost track of what have happened...

thinking back....maybe i shouldn't have crossed that line again...

but pple often regret their actions...like i always know wat's the right thing to do...but always ended up doing the opposite....well...i'm really a contradicting person....

this blog is getting busy....not a good sign....

haiz...

it's the dec season yet again....every xmas has been the same....

i yearn for a different xmas this yr....but i really doubt it will be....

so hard to focus....so hard to let go....so hard to forget.... but i'm really trying....i hope i dun have to try....but well....life has been brutal to me....

had i been looking for comfort? or all this while, had i been looking for love from you?

i'm not sure...but i'm sure feeling quite miserable now...coz of the things that have happened....coz of the things i did....coz of the things you nvr do....

如果没有你

hey…我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

hey…我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
最想说的话我应该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你
没有过去我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你

如果没有你
我在哪里又有什么可惜
反正一切来不及
反正没有了自已

hey…我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里
你是否也像我一样在想你

我怀念的

我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手 我让座
假洒脱 谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了 所以我
没有哭 没有说

am i feeling good?

no.

i feel awful. esp when i'm alone.

but well. no one can help me. only her. but i doubt she will.

爱我好吗

虽然收敛了许多的情感
还是泄露了我的不安
于是你开始冷淡
我也开始问自己该怎么办

如果你知道我的遗憾
千万不要再不以为然
我的生活已经混乱
到处漂流却始终靠不了岸

这是我最后
最美最真
最心碎的留言

oh 爱我好吗
我愿意让伤心再来一遍
只要你留一个位置给我
哪怕是在你心中
最容易被忽略的角落

expect the unexpected....

but only accept what you have wanted....


nope...it's not me that you wanted....

curse to the one that created emotions.....damn him for inventing love....

i hate you!!!!!!! for creating this thing in the human world and make us suffer!!!!!!! or maybe it's just me who is suffering...

but damn it!!!!! i hate you!!!!!

it feels like i'm going thru a rough patch again...

nothing particularly bad...but i think things are bad enough...

but i just dun feel good...nothing good....

why is nothing good happening to me?

i need love...