reservations

yes, i'm having reservation...but it's not abt if i wanna be friendly to u...coz i had been...and i know t didn't work out...so why should i persist? esp after trying for so long...i did give up in the end, you know...

there may be alot of things that you know...and somehow...i figured out some on my own too....that you nvr really mean wat you say...coz u say things so lightly that most of the time...you forgot that you even say that...

and you take things pple do for you for granted...okie..maybe i am being harsh to say that...but you haven't proven to me that i'm wrong abt that pt...in fact...without fail...you have been validating the very fact that you are too self-centred to even bother abt pple around you...

my qn is: did you even try? and how hard did you try? to savage the situation...the friendship that we had...the one that u so unintentionally spoilt...so senselessly...so non-chalantly...

so...i'm saying to u....forget abt the ipod shuffle...i actualli expected that you will forget totally abt it...let alone lost it....you just nvr fail to show me again...that i meant nothing...and watever i did before were just unasked for...were just things that i insisted but not welcomed...


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okie...on a lighter note...i do have reservations...
but it's abt another matter altogether....but i'm actualli in a dilemma of what i should do...esp when sch days are ending just like this...there might not be anymore chance to see each other...or bump into one another again....

i just regret that i got to know you personally so late in my NUS yrs....

and i'm having reservations of being friendly coz i'm afraid of the repercussions that i so often received...

hmm...a little lost of wat to do with this...

have been losing faith so often that i'm afraid that the same old thing could, well, just happen again....

tell me wat to do...give me a sign....

tried and failed...tried and failed....

tired...

now i dunno if i should...

coz i'm afraid of the consequences...that thing would somehow be the same as what had happened before...

i dunno if i should....

tell me that i should/shouldn't...

i need a sign...

fark!

sorrie for the title...i can't find a better word to describe how i feel at this moment.

well...tmr is report submission...i can't believe they still have this fark care attitude...correct me if i'm wrong...coz i dunno whatz goin on...coz i can't even BLARDY contact them...

and no one wants to settle it....fine!

tmd! if it's still sat and sun...i'm perfectly fine....i know everyone is busy with other things....SO AM I!!!! got a test...and ghim has 2 on thurs....and why are we still doing so much for the stupid report?

when someone just use the mouth and talk...and some just nvr talk...and one just can;t be contacted to even talk...

farking viet!!! switch on ur phone larz....ccb!

where is the commitment and effort? at least show it this week mah! i dun think everyone is so FARKING BUSY!

i mean i haven't even worked on my design 2 part...and i wanna settle my test 1st....plus this shit...and u guys just play hide and seek with me?

i feel nothing but anger now lar! seriously...



it takes me 4 yrs to realize how to choose proj mates....

2 cat of pple u should avoid:

1. pple whom u are too close for leisure activities (eg. dota, drink) but not work.
2. pple whom u totally dunno and who english is so damn farking lousy and refuse to communicate....i mean if u wanna hide in ur shell...go back to ur country! u wun survive here!

nvm...no more nus projz to come....

utterly disappointed...