by your side
"if u want to cry.... i am here to dry your eyes ....
in no time....you'll be fine...."
in no time....you'll be fine...."
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Monday, April 28, 2008
不是问题的问题
问题不出在于。。。
做的不够好。。。
做的不够多。。。
而是。。。
根本不应该做些什么。。。
顾好你自己吧。。。不要浪费那么多精力去管一些不需要你管的人。。。
看好自己吧。。。因为除了你。。。没有人会有闲工夫来管你了。。。
做的不够好。。。
做的不够多。。。
而是。。。
根本不应该做些什么。。。
顾好你自己吧。。。不要浪费那么多精力去管一些不需要你管的人。。。
看好自己吧。。。因为除了你。。。没有人会有闲工夫来管你了。。。
Saturday, April 26, 2008
征服
"就这样被你征服
切断了所有退路
我的心情是坚固
我的决定是糊涂
就这样被你征服
喝下你藏好的毒
我的剧情已落幕
我的爱恨已入土"
so easily 征服-ed...thatz the kind of power...
but i'm glad that this time...i recovered pretty fast...i guess it no longer matters now...
...coz i know i'll never be there...despite how much i wanna be there...there aint any space for me...
每个人 都有专属于他的岗位...
我想 我的真的 不是在那里...
而是在遥远的这里 而已...
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i said my blog entries will only increase when i feel super stressed or emo...i dun see that coming anytime! haha...i'm happy to stick with just one for today...
shall find a good time to start for forensic sci revision...wonder if i could do it at home...or should i head down to my beloved Central Library....where are my "drivers"!!!! haha...lets see how it goes bah...
切断了所有退路
我的心情是坚固
我的决定是糊涂
就这样被你征服
喝下你藏好的毒
我的剧情已落幕
我的爱恨已入土"
so easily 征服-ed...thatz the kind of power...
but i'm glad that this time...i recovered pretty fast...i guess it no longer matters now...
...coz i know i'll never be there...despite how much i wanna be there...there aint any space for me...
每个人 都有专属于他的岗位...
我想 我的真的 不是在那里...
而是在遥远的这里 而已...
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i said my blog entries will only increase when i feel super stressed or emo...i dun see that coming anytime! haha...i'm happy to stick with just one for today...
shall find a good time to start for forensic sci revision...wonder if i could do it at home...or should i head down to my beloved Central Library....where are my "drivers"!!!! haha...lets see how it goes bah...
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
the time of the sem again...
but this time...it's sOo different for me....while everyone will be slogging away with their stacks of books and lect notez...going at full throttle for the last few weeks of hell before finally tasting the sweetness of heaven...i will be slacking away in my office...and yes....no hell...no heaven...sOo monotonous!!
hah...i bet many of u who are taking exams will be holding a chopper in ur hands right now...waiting for the chance to kill me...but rest assured...u won't be able to unless u come office and find me...wahaha....
okay...jokes aside... just wanna wish all muggers good luck!! and have lotsa fun studying....
n i really do miss those times in CL (central lib) last sem...those reaching-god-damn-early-and-stayed-until-library-close days...my endless cups of 'teh'...which eventually 'evolved' to 'teh-o'...(and now...i am hooked on kopi-o in office)... i miss those times in NUSSU sec 2 sems back (though i'm not part of PRU)... i miss those times in discussion rooms 3 sems back...haha... so much stress....and so much funz...wonder if there is anymore of such mugging in the coming sems...lolz
i think i have lost the ability to study alone at home...好怕寂寞argh!!!
haa...but this sem is a break for me!
haiz...my next few days in office will be sOoooo bored...the other 3 interns are on leave to study for ur HR module....and i will be alone in the room/....*sobz....haha...if anyone is too boliaoz...can contact me via 6663 ***7 (i dun rem the office number) and chat chat!
hhaha...kk...shall end the post with something that jinyan forwarded to me...so insightful to life...as expected from paulo coelho...forwarded the email out too...but just to share with those whom i dun have their email addresses....here it is:
Closing Cycles - by Paulo Coelho
One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we
insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the
happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go
through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters ...
whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past
the moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end?
Did you leave your parents... house? Gone to live abroad? Has a
long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a
long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself
you wont take another step until you find out why certain
things that were so important and so solid in your life have
turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be
awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your
husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister,
everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves,
getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a
standstill.
None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time,
not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us.
What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children,
late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our
parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone
who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming
back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really
go away.
That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to
destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages,
sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this
visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what
is going on in our hearts ... and getting rid of certain
memories also means making some room for other memories to take
their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from
them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we
win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do
not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be
discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your
emotional television to watch the same program over and over
again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain
loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships
that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no
starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for
the ...ideal moment.... Before a new chapter is begun, the old
one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will
never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could
live without that thing or that person ... nothing is
irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious,
it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance,
but simply because that no longer fits your life.
Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the
dust.
Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.
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hah...i bet many of u who are taking exams will be holding a chopper in ur hands right now...waiting for the chance to kill me...but rest assured...u won't be able to unless u come office and find me...wahaha....
okay...jokes aside... just wanna wish all muggers good luck!! and have lotsa fun studying....
n i really do miss those times in CL (central lib) last sem...those reaching-god-damn-early-and-stayed-until-library-close days...my endless cups of 'teh'...which eventually 'evolved' to 'teh-o'...(and now...i am hooked on kopi-o in office)... i miss those times in NUSSU sec 2 sems back (though i'm not part of PRU)... i miss those times in discussion rooms 3 sems back...haha... so much stress....and so much funz...wonder if there is anymore of such mugging in the coming sems...lolz
i think i have lost the ability to study alone at home...好怕寂寞argh!!!
haa...but this sem is a break for me!
haiz...my next few days in office will be sOoooo bored...the other 3 interns are on leave to study for ur HR module....and i will be alone in the room/....*sobz....haha...if anyone is too boliaoz...can contact me via 6663 ***7 (i dun rem the office number) and chat chat!
hhaha...kk...shall end the post with something that jinyan forwarded to me...so insightful to life...as expected from paulo coelho...forwarded the email out too...but just to share with those whom i dun have their email addresses....here it is:
Closing Cycles - by Paulo Coelho
One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we
insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the
happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go
through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters ...
whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past
the moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end?
Did you leave your parents... house? Gone to live abroad? Has a
long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a
long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself
you wont take another step until you find out why certain
things that were so important and so solid in your life have
turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be
awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your
husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister,
everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves,
getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a
standstill.
None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time,
not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us.
What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children,
late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our
parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone
who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming
back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really
go away.
That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to
destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages,
sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this
visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what
is going on in our hearts ... and getting rid of certain
memories also means making some room for other memories to take
their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from
them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we
win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do
not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be
discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your
emotional television to watch the same program over and over
again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain
loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships
that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no
starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for
the ...ideal moment.... Before a new chapter is begun, the old
one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will
never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could
live without that thing or that person ... nothing is
irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious,
it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance,
but simply because that no longer fits your life.
Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the
dust.
Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.
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Monday, April 14, 2008
unappreciated...
feel unappreciated again...i dun like this feeling....but humans are just selfish b***ardz...
i dare to touch my heart and say i did everything to the benefitz of everyone...and i dare say i put everyone in front of myself when i think and come to a decision...
but wat do i get in return...not even a 'thank you'...
and i can't even nag bit?!?!?!?
it's so unfair !!!
angry...frustrationz....
go away!!!!
i dare to touch my heart and say i did everything to the benefitz of everyone...and i dare say i put everyone in front of myself when i think and come to a decision...
but wat do i get in return...not even a 'thank you'...
and i can't even nag bit?!?!?!?
it's so unfair !!!
angry...frustrationz....
go away!!!!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
caught in the rain
it's irritating how weather changes so sudden...one moment it was scorching hot...the blazing sun not showing any mercy on the pple on earth...the next moment the sky became gloomy..and rain started to pour...again not showing any mercy (in a different sense)
that just sux...
got caught in the big rain on sat while i went for 扫墓 with my relatives...well...清明 has always been kinda a big event for gathering...coz apart for cny...this is like the ONLY other occasion when i get the chance to meet up with my paternal relatives...we always gather at an uncle's house to slack and chit chat and eat our day away...
this yr we hopped on a lorry instead of renting a bus...and all was fine and well until we were sweeping the last...my big aunt's tomb (got 3 tombs to sweep in total...balance: 02 x grandparents)...the sky just turned dark and the rain dropped...so harsh...
so...after every thing that was to be done was done...we hopped on to the lorry to head back to my 6th uncle's house...soaked like mad...and yes...it's a lorry that we were taking...so...more rain on the way back...but slightly lucky...at least there was a small roof that manage to hide abit of us from the stupid rain...
yep...caught in a rain == zs would fail sick...and true enough...got a cold yest....freaking weak! runny nose!!! so i went back home to bathe and nap awhile after that before going back to uncle's house....where i played daidee with my big uncle...big cousin and brother...haha...yah...family activities = eat, crap, gamble...these are where bonds are fostered...lolz....
woke up today and felt so much better....luckily i took a trip home...if not i think i would be worse....super weak....stupid zs!
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well...haven't been blogging very often...got nothing much to blog about...
IA's pretty fine now...last week was the busiest i had...but not busy until i had no time to slack...still got slack lar...haha
oh...did i mention abt the dragonboat thingy? exxon has this annual dragonboat event...when pple form teams to row boats....haha...soo..the engineers jio-ed us interns to go along...held on an EARLY sat morning...last sat actualli...the key word: EARLY!!! yah...but it's quite an experience...pretty funz! haha...and got free t-shirt and door gift...not bad at all!
apart from work...nothing already...other than those tuitions and late night soccer matches...(oh...i'm so disappointed with what's happening to arsenal...nothing seems to work out well...can't sustain their joys and always end the 90 min with frowns on their faces...sad..) ...oh...recently hooked on bleach comicz... haha...coz i dun like to stream the anime online...and i'm to lazy to dl..so i bought the comicz....shiok!
lolz...
yup...and so..the sem is coming to an end for so many pple...other than those doing IA and fyp...which is like majority of my course mates...many of my friends are going to graduate...leaving sch....entire the workforce...another phase in life...perhaps the one that's gonna last the longest...and hopefully the most fruitful and enriching...
for those who have yet to find jobz...hurry up go find!!! i will be waiting for the 1st pay treat....for those who have already found...congratz...i will be looking forward to the 'finally-get-job' treat....wahaha...
(sidenote: like that everyone will have to treat twice!! in case u havent noticed yet.. bleahz)
that just sux...
got caught in the big rain on sat while i went for 扫墓 with my relatives...well...清明 has always been kinda a big event for gathering...coz apart for cny...this is like the ONLY other occasion when i get the chance to meet up with my paternal relatives...we always gather at an uncle's house to slack and chit chat and eat our day away...
this yr we hopped on a lorry instead of renting a bus...and all was fine and well until we were sweeping the last...my big aunt's tomb (got 3 tombs to sweep in total...balance: 02 x grandparents)...the sky just turned dark and the rain dropped...so harsh...
so...after every thing that was to be done was done...we hopped on to the lorry to head back to my 6th uncle's house...soaked like mad...and yes...it's a lorry that we were taking...so...more rain on the way back...but slightly lucky...at least there was a small roof that manage to hide abit of us from the stupid rain...
yep...caught in a rain == zs would fail sick...and true enough...got a cold yest....freaking weak! runny nose!!! so i went back home to bathe and nap awhile after that before going back to uncle's house....where i played daidee with my big uncle...big cousin and brother...haha...yah...family activities = eat, crap, gamble...these are where bonds are fostered...lolz....
woke up today and felt so much better....luckily i took a trip home...if not i think i would be worse....super weak....stupid zs!
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well...haven't been blogging very often...got nothing much to blog about...
IA's pretty fine now...last week was the busiest i had...but not busy until i had no time to slack...still got slack lar...haha
oh...did i mention abt the dragonboat thingy? exxon has this annual dragonboat event...when pple form teams to row boats....haha...soo..the engineers jio-ed us interns to go along...held on an EARLY sat morning...last sat actualli...the key word: EARLY!!! yah...but it's quite an experience...pretty funz! haha...and got free t-shirt and door gift...not bad at all!
apart from work...nothing already...other than those tuitions and late night soccer matches...(oh...i'm so disappointed with what's happening to arsenal...nothing seems to work out well...can't sustain their joys and always end the 90 min with frowns on their faces...sad..) ...oh...recently hooked on bleach comicz... haha...coz i dun like to stream the anime online...and i'm to lazy to dl..so i bought the comicz....shiok!
lolz...
yup...and so..the sem is coming to an end for so many pple...other than those doing IA and fyp...which is like majority of my course mates...many of my friends are going to graduate...leaving sch....entire the workforce...another phase in life...perhaps the one that's gonna last the longest...and hopefully the most fruitful and enriching...
for those who have yet to find jobz...hurry up go find!!! i will be waiting for the 1st pay treat....for those who have already found...congratz...i will be looking forward to the 'finally-get-job' treat....wahaha...
(sidenote: like that everyone will have to treat twice!! in case u havent noticed yet.. bleahz)
Thursday, April 03, 2008
it sets me thinking....
this fever has set me thinking...
abt random stuffs....not hslx...but really random thotz...
abt how everything in the world conspires against u...
abt how it chooses its time to present opportunities just when u weren't around...(and it's really not that u are not ready...it just refusees to knock on your door...wat can u do? u have shown that u wanted a chance to try..but it's being turned a deaf ear...)
abt how he and she share this special bond...no! i dun think it's called 'love'...but perhaps a bond thatz almost equivalent...one that even physical distance proves no barrier...that even time lag becomes small issue...one thatz so precious...that make pple so envious....
abt how friends went missing all of a sudden...either getting busy with their own lives...or having fun in your own world...
abt how the stupid weather can change so rapidly that it makes decisions like whether to bring a umbrella such a dilemma...
abt how zs has grown to become so weak...and why does he have to fall sick like once every month....
abt how certain things just won't change....no matter how hard u try...no matter how deep u conceal it...no matter how long the time....
abt how harsh is reality....letting everything around u change...but just simply refuse to let u change...
abt how some stupid person grabbed hold of zs hp number and send stupid sms msgs and refuse to identify him/herself...
abt how arsenal can control and control but just dun score...
abt whatever there is to be 'abt' abt....
as i said.....random thotz....a.k.a crapz.....
abt random stuffs....not hslx...but really random thotz...
abt how everything in the world conspires against u...
abt how it chooses its time to present opportunities just when u weren't around...(and it's really not that u are not ready...it just refusees to knock on your door...wat can u do? u have shown that u wanted a chance to try..but it's being turned a deaf ear...)
abt how he and she share this special bond...no! i dun think it's called 'love'...but perhaps a bond thatz almost equivalent...one that even physical distance proves no barrier...that even time lag becomes small issue...one thatz so precious...that make pple so envious....
abt how friends went missing all of a sudden...either getting busy with their own lives...or having fun in your own world...
abt how the stupid weather can change so rapidly that it makes decisions like whether to bring a umbrella such a dilemma...
abt how zs has grown to become so weak...and why does he have to fall sick like once every month....
abt how certain things just won't change....no matter how hard u try...no matter how deep u conceal it...no matter how long the time....
abt how harsh is reality....letting everything around u change...but just simply refuse to let u change...
abt how some stupid person grabbed hold of zs hp number and send stupid sms msgs and refuse to identify him/herself...
abt how arsenal can control and control but just dun score...
abt whatever there is to be 'abt' abt....
as i said.....random thotz....a.k.a crapz.....
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
the aftermath of the fever....
1) a persistent headache at my back left brain...
2) an easily irritated mood that lingers throughout the day...
3) a sleepy mind that doesn't seem to think well...
so please...dun irritate zs these few days can? treat him as good as possible...god knows when he will fully recover...
sigh...wat a way to start april!
sidenote: happy april's fool day...
1) a persistent headache at my back left brain...
2) an easily irritated mood that lingers throughout the day...
3) a sleepy mind that doesn't seem to think well...
so please...dun irritate zs these few days can? treat him as good as possible...god knows when he will fully recover...
sigh...wat a way to start april!
sidenote: happy april's fool day...
