disappointments/apologies
Disappointments are just negative results of expectations. I have always believe that the higher the expectations the harder you would fall, if it happens that there should be a fall. I have learned to play down my expectations in every aspect in life. Expectations of results, expectations of friendships. coz i know that in life, there is hardly any equality. maybe i am still not doing it good enough, but i'm definitely constantly knocking this into my head. constantly reminding to give what i have to offer and only take what i need and what there is for me to take.
but i guess everyone has his/her weakest spot. i have mine but i shan't disclose it. But i guess it's pretty obvious from the things i did.
anyway, my actual intent of this entry is to reply to a friend.
i'm not mad at you. really. if i were really mad, then i think it's only appropriate that i were mad at myself, not you. i should have already gotten used to that. but i guess i'm freaking slow at adapting. and as many pple will agree with me, i think my biggest problem is that i bother too much when it comes to some persons. yah. so if i have disppointed you, i have nothing to say. i guess all i can do is to apologise if it affects ur mood for the day (but i guess it's not that impactful, at least i hope it's not). and please don't expect too much of me. i aint any saint. i'm human too. i dun wish that u get more and more disappointed in ur friend here. sorrie.
i don't know if u will read this. but anyway, i wrote it here not because it's intended for you to read. i just wanna blog it here coz it's really hard for me to put it down in words. in fact, i was at a loss of words this morning coz it's nvr my intention to cause harm or hurt anyone, esp if it's you.
haiz. so many things to accomplish. but so little drive. and what more. my fyp has come to a temporal halt. pit stop! no progress for one week plus already. no replies from my prof and co sup. wat to do? i dun wanna rush into things and get them all wrong and waste time on doing wrong things. as much as i will need advices, i think i am the most appropriate person to advice myself.
a test on wed. but it doesn't seem to be my concern at the monent. an eg proj due-ing in abt 2 weeks' time. but i guess pple work best at last minute. so i shall wait to see if there's anything more to add on for my part. well, afterall it's a grp proj and i need inputs as of now.
slack sem. with mind preoccupied by fyp. sux as it may seem, the earth still revolves in a way not many pple like. wat to do? make the best out of every situation and live life.
=)
hmm. i should say that things are no longer the same. as much as we would wish that they are, they are really no longer. but no worries, i will try my best to bring it back to how it's used to be.
but i guess everyone has his/her weakest spot. i have mine but i shan't disclose it. But i guess it's pretty obvious from the things i did.
anyway, my actual intent of this entry is to reply to a friend.
i'm not mad at you. really. if i were really mad, then i think it's only appropriate that i were mad at myself, not you. i should have already gotten used to that. but i guess i'm freaking slow at adapting. and as many pple will agree with me, i think my biggest problem is that i bother too much when it comes to some persons. yah. so if i have disppointed you, i have nothing to say. i guess all i can do is to apologise if it affects ur mood for the day (but i guess it's not that impactful, at least i hope it's not). and please don't expect too much of me. i aint any saint. i'm human too. i dun wish that u get more and more disappointed in ur friend here. sorrie.
i don't know if u will read this. but anyway, i wrote it here not because it's intended for you to read. i just wanna blog it here coz it's really hard for me to put it down in words. in fact, i was at a loss of words this morning coz it's nvr my intention to cause harm or hurt anyone, esp if it's you.
haiz. so many things to accomplish. but so little drive. and what more. my fyp has come to a temporal halt. pit stop! no progress for one week plus already. no replies from my prof and co sup. wat to do? i dun wanna rush into things and get them all wrong and waste time on doing wrong things. as much as i will need advices, i think i am the most appropriate person to advice myself.
a test on wed. but it doesn't seem to be my concern at the monent. an eg proj due-ing in abt 2 weeks' time. but i guess pple work best at last minute. so i shall wait to see if there's anything more to add on for my part. well, afterall it's a grp proj and i need inputs as of now.
slack sem. with mind preoccupied by fyp. sux as it may seem, the earth still revolves in a way not many pple like. wat to do? make the best out of every situation and live life.
=)
hmm. i should say that things are no longer the same. as much as we would wish that they are, they are really no longer. but no worries, i will try my best to bring it back to how it's used to be.
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