year 4 sem 1
went blog surfing for a while just now (haven't been doing that for quite some time already) and happen to chanced upon brudder's blog. and i sort of found the ans to a qn of mine. somehow, i have always gotten this feeling that this sem (year 4 sem 1) feels weird. initially, i thought it was becoz of me doing IA in the previous sem that i have gotten too slack. But 8 weeks have passed. any kind of slackness should have somehow been tuned away.Then i thot maybe it's FYP. hmm. thatz probably the root of every problem this sem. it seems really to be the case, but then i realised that fundamentally, it's not.
"Mayb its becos of the individual nature of e things we r doing now.. At least as a grp, slog together, at most die together, e extra strength u can derive from one another is, immense.. Mayb tats y some of u r feeling less motivated tis sem" - abstract from brudder's blog.
Thatz it! no wonder i'm so not motivated. why must be do indv fyp? no one to push me this way. and there's no synergy to talk about. so lonely. so powerless. and u can't whine to another about it coz everyone has his/her own problems and truly, none can fully comprehend what problems the other pple are facing.
apart from this constant pain in the arse. the rest of the modules are. hmm. slack as they may seem for now. or maybe everyone just choose to be slack towards them. so much so that not many pple are doing anything much for these. no mug-together sessions. no brain-farking sessions. hahz. somehow and strangely, i miss those sems when everyone is complaining about the same thing. the same farked-up profs. the same stupid quiz. labz. and projz.
wat more? it seems hard to get lunch khaki also. hmm. everyone's schecule is so different from one another's. that there are no fixed lunch time. and i am really turned off by the possibility of having to eat lunch alone if i go mug in sch alone. so turned off that i might just opt to stay at home even though i know i would be less than half efficient.
haiz. where are my friends?
can i fast-forward this sem?
or better still, can i fold?
can you just give me an A- for my fyp?
can i just find something i would feel really passionate towards?
apart from thee.
anyway. i hope i'm doing some right things. i hope i'm contributing and doing good.
i hope.
"Mayb its becos of the individual nature of e things we r doing now.. At least as a grp, slog together, at most die together, e extra strength u can derive from one another is, immense.. Mayb tats y some of u r feeling less motivated tis sem" - abstract from brudder's blog.
Thatz it! no wonder i'm so not motivated. why must be do indv fyp? no one to push me this way. and there's no synergy to talk about. so lonely. so powerless. and u can't whine to another about it coz everyone has his/her own problems and truly, none can fully comprehend what problems the other pple are facing.
apart from this constant pain in the arse. the rest of the modules are. hmm. slack as they may seem for now. or maybe everyone just choose to be slack towards them. so much so that not many pple are doing anything much for these. no mug-together sessions. no brain-farking sessions. hahz. somehow and strangely, i miss those sems when everyone is complaining about the same thing. the same farked-up profs. the same stupid quiz. labz. and projz.
wat more? it seems hard to get lunch khaki also. hmm. everyone's schecule is so different from one another's. that there are no fixed lunch time. and i am really turned off by the possibility of having to eat lunch alone if i go mug in sch alone. so turned off that i might just opt to stay at home even though i know i would be less than half efficient.
haiz. where are my friends?
can i fast-forward this sem?
or better still, can i fold?
can you just give me an A- for my fyp?
can i just find something i would feel really passionate towards?
apart from thee.
anyway. i hope i'm doing some right things. i hope i'm contributing and doing good.
i hope.
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