been feeling down lately...no particular reason...just some random thoughts in mind...feel lost in direction again...feel that everyone that is close to me is beginning to drift away...is it me? or is it them?
sigh...
sometimes, i really wonder wat level of commitment should i have? sometimes i wonder how commited i am to my friends, and how are they to me?
priorities in life may shift...but my friends stay...i may not be good in expressing myself...but all i want to say is...all my friends out there...yes...every single one of them..does have a place in my heart...
friendship....i think it's getting fragile...a few questions i have for myself...
"have you been meeting up with your close friends lately?" No...
"what have you been doing?" mugging?
"why can't you fork out some time to meet up with them?" hmm...coz they dun seem eager enough to even come out for a simple meal...
haiz...there is a supposed gathering for a dinner or supper either yesterday or today...ah yu initiated...but apparently, priorities shifted for a dunno-what-porridge...no...i'm not pissed...it's just that if you have other activities that are higher in priority...then dun jio an outing with another group of friends....
another matter that i dun understand...when someone ask you out...shouldn't it be basic courteousy to at least send a reply to tell them that you are not free? whatz the point of keeping pple in suspense...wondering even to the last minute if you are going to make a surprise appearance...
ha..something on a funnier note...jj said he is not going becoz he doesn't really like going town...it just makes me wonder is it a problem about the venue or the company? i dun believe he doesn't go town with his other uni friends....well...friends do rank in priority as well ba...shaggerz seem to be splitting apart...and i really can see that happening in the future...
wat a pity...friends for so long...or maybe it's becoz it's too long that we got sick of each other? and we never show appreciation for each other? hmm...maybe some of us just feel more loved by other company of friends....there is no one to be blamed....and no hard feelings....i'm just jotting down what i feel....
sad...becoz the pple that i care for are sad...i'm not good at consoling and comforting pple...but if my mere presence helps...please don't hestitate to get me out....i will still have time to spare for a friend...
i need happy people around me in order to get happy...
sigh....relationships are fragile...perhaps the strongest bond that can ever exist in this world is family ties...no matter how time flies...you will always care for each other and protect them from harms....i thank my parents for everything!
back to priorities in life....hmm....studies? friends? love? money? family? been asked to rank these before...but now...i think i will have a different ans...
1. family
2. studies
3. friends
4. money
5. love
realise that i hold things that i have more in greater importance...no love, so it gotta come in 5th...money? meagre allowance supplemented by tuition...4th...friends? getting fewer and fewer...3rd...
for now...my social circle is beginning to collapse...so...i see my parents and brother as ever more important...and no doubt...studies has always been important to me...
well...it's a long post i guess...
hope those that went for the dinner today are happy...since the sad pple aint around...
failed to meet up with friends this weekend...i dun see myself going out often in the coming dayz...
loner-transformation...probably by unforeseen circumstances....
i hate it when i am so easily affected by how pple around me feel...i just wanna live a simple life...accept whatever things that are granted to me...is it really that difficult?
it's really been awhile since i truly felt happy....guang said i need to love in order to be happy...sigh...dun think so....i'm fine without love actually...so long i have merry company with me....
yanz said that she suddenly feels like getting attached....coz she wans someone to hug her...wat a reason...for me...it will be more like i wanna hug someone...becoz i love that someone...and i'm attached to her...
oh well...i think i shall stop here...if not...i dunno how long more and how much more crap i will write....
*PS: pls dun take wateva i wrote in this particular post too seriously...read it and forget abt it...if not...you better dun read it...i dun wanna anger anyone...i dun wanna hurt anyone's feelings...
sigh...
sometimes, i really wonder wat level of commitment should i have? sometimes i wonder how commited i am to my friends, and how are they to me?
priorities in life may shift...but my friends stay...i may not be good in expressing myself...but all i want to say is...all my friends out there...yes...every single one of them..does have a place in my heart...
friendship....i think it's getting fragile...a few questions i have for myself...
"have you been meeting up with your close friends lately?" No...
"what have you been doing?" mugging?
"why can't you fork out some time to meet up with them?" hmm...coz they dun seem eager enough to even come out for a simple meal...
haiz...there is a supposed gathering for a dinner or supper either yesterday or today...ah yu initiated...but apparently, priorities shifted for a dunno-what-porridge...no...i'm not pissed...it's just that if you have other activities that are higher in priority...then dun jio an outing with another group of friends....
another matter that i dun understand...when someone ask you out...shouldn't it be basic courteousy to at least send a reply to tell them that you are not free? whatz the point of keeping pple in suspense...wondering even to the last minute if you are going to make a surprise appearance...
ha..something on a funnier note...jj said he is not going becoz he doesn't really like going town...it just makes me wonder is it a problem about the venue or the company? i dun believe he doesn't go town with his other uni friends....well...friends do rank in priority as well ba...shaggerz seem to be splitting apart...and i really can see that happening in the future...
wat a pity...friends for so long...or maybe it's becoz it's too long that we got sick of each other? and we never show appreciation for each other? hmm...maybe some of us just feel more loved by other company of friends....there is no one to be blamed....and no hard feelings....i'm just jotting down what i feel....
sad...becoz the pple that i care for are sad...i'm not good at consoling and comforting pple...but if my mere presence helps...please don't hestitate to get me out....i will still have time to spare for a friend...
i need happy people around me in order to get happy...
sigh....relationships are fragile...perhaps the strongest bond that can ever exist in this world is family ties...no matter how time flies...you will always care for each other and protect them from harms....i thank my parents for everything!
back to priorities in life....hmm....studies? friends? love? money? family? been asked to rank these before...but now...i think i will have a different ans...
1. family
2. studies
3. friends
4. money
5. love
realise that i hold things that i have more in greater importance...no love, so it gotta come in 5th...money? meagre allowance supplemented by tuition...4th...friends? getting fewer and fewer...3rd...
for now...my social circle is beginning to collapse...so...i see my parents and brother as ever more important...and no doubt...studies has always been important to me...
well...it's a long post i guess...
hope those that went for the dinner today are happy...since the sad pple aint around...
failed to meet up with friends this weekend...i dun see myself going out often in the coming dayz...
loner-transformation...probably by unforeseen circumstances....
i hate it when i am so easily affected by how pple around me feel...i just wanna live a simple life...accept whatever things that are granted to me...is it really that difficult?
it's really been awhile since i truly felt happy....guang said i need to love in order to be happy...sigh...dun think so....i'm fine without love actually...so long i have merry company with me....
yanz said that she suddenly feels like getting attached....coz she wans someone to hug her...wat a reason...for me...it will be more like i wanna hug someone...becoz i love that someone...and i'm attached to her...
oh well...i think i shall stop here...if not...i dunno how long more and how much more crap i will write....
*PS: pls dun take wateva i wrote in this particular post too seriously...read it and forget abt it...if not...you better dun read it...i dun wanna anger anyone...i dun wanna hurt anyone's feelings...
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