was chatting with ghim just now and he asked, "qing chang shi yi?"..then said everytime see me "sian sian one..."...haha i dunno how to reply him man...

but i always sian sian one meh? well, there are times when i just wanna remain silent and be alone bah...but i'm beginning to be so afraid of loneliness...i dun like that actually...i feel more dependent on the people around me for emotional needs...i'm not as strong as i used to be anymore...

vulnerability seems obvious...