frustration

am i really that irritating to you?

haiz...sometimes...it really feels like i am damn bloody irritating...

i think 9 out of 10 times...i will get no reply at all on msn...

no...i have nothing of importance....but it feels more like i am of no importance at all...

it makes me wonder what kind of friend am i to you...

maybe i shan't even regard myself as a friend anymore...thatz the kind of feeling you are giving me...

i wanna talk...but i am nvr given the chance...

and i always care....no matter what...

it's so tiring...can you damn bloody at least reply me? so that at least i can know that you're alive and kick?!?!?! and please dun be stingy with your reply...if words are so expensive....then i have nothing to say....

i guess i am angry...i wun deny it...angry for nothing...angry for you doing nothing...

i am freaking tired of the kind of inconsistency i feel...

and if u ever see this...i hope by then...my anger would have subsided...

else...i also dunno...i'm kinda ready to just forsake this friendship...coz it's not something u need...even the friendship feels so one-sided....so why should i even bother? why am i always bothered by things that others dun care at all?

if i sound harsh...well...thatz becoz i'm really quite frustrated...more like of myself than of anything else...but still...i'm frustrated....\\


signing off,
the unimportant zs