pessimism

i think that my pessimism is driving pple away from me....

i really think so, u know...

shiit...and i'm really really no longer used to be a loner anymore...

today's like the 1st day of the sem that i had lunch in sch alone...if it wasn't in sch...i would feel just fine....but i'm in sch!!! and there is no single person whom i can lunch with...so sad...(okie...perhaps to be fair...i did manage to find lunch khaki...but the timing wasn't right for me...) well...the point is i feel so damn lonely in clib today...

pardon me...but i'm really learning to be optimistic....despite everything that has happened...that will happen...and that could happen...

and optimism = happiness...

i guess nobody in the right kind of mind..would strive to be sad...it's just in the character...some pple find it harder...and i think i belong to this grp...

i just need time...more time than anybody else...

and i do feel very helpless sometimes...

so pls dun leave me behind...i need friends!!!!


where are you?