dun wanna...

i dun wanna sleep...coz i dunno who would appear in my dreams

i dun wanna dream...coz it's the only place where i would see you

i dun wanna see you...coz i know i would miss you

i dun wanna miss you...coz i know i shouldn't....

..... and it still hurts abit...


i thot memories will fade away with time...but apparently, however dormant they might remain...they would simply erupt with the slightest trigger...a simple photo of someone? a kind exchange of word? a song that was once heard?

all i could do...is to freeze out all those thots...but i can't stop dreamz...

i knew if i dreamt...i would wake up feeling the 'emptiness'...the 心酸...


i probably need something meaningful too....

couldn't find it in work...

couldn't find it in games...

couldn't find it in books....

couldn't find nothing nowhere....



sigh...zs is nothing but an empty shell now....

fill me in...