22nd dec...3 more dayz to xmas! and it somehow marks the end of this week...i doubt you would be free on sat and sun...

and so...the waiting shall end...i'm foolish enough to wait...to try to free up noon time each day...anticipating a msg from you...just becoz you said you will let me know when you were free this week....apparently, you weren't free enough for me...i understand that...

but i have already somehow expected you not sms-ing...coz i know i'm less than a friend...and i know i'm just a bypasser...someone insignificant...

but still...thanks for giving me an empty hope...

有一点点失望...but thatz just for me...

haha...sometimes...i really think that i'm the world's biggest fool...clinging of something tatz so fragile...remembering every single conversation that we had...sigh...but is it so hard to just be friends? maybe i, myself am not ready to treat you as just a friend...no matter how hard i try to deceive myself...

maybe it's better this way...i shall once again learn to forget...let everything just be washed away by the rain...let all memories of you be gone with the wind...before anything gets too rooted in my heart...


christmas is here....对自己好一点吧!!

歌曲：平常心

歌手：张惠妹

街道静的刺耳
夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前
先上车不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得不想再拉扯
我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可