i hope that she is with him...at least that gives me a reason to get out of it...



'an excuse' that's what yanz corrected me while i was chatting with her...yah...maybe...i dun wanna be hopeful and get disappointed in the end...i hate all these guessing games...my heart is too weak to take another blow...

that's probably the reason why i chose to stay out of all these...

but i do know...it's not always easy...like now...i'm freaking suffering...

i will find out someday soon...

i need an excuse...or a bigger hope...whichever comes....i will accept it with grace....