finally found z-chen's 很想你...yes..it's the song that derrick sang on stage when he got out of the competition...he sang with so much feeling...so touching....set the song on repeat...listening to it numerous times today...

"我很想你 你知道吗
如果可以 就让我再见你
美好微笑 清澈眼睛
好确定那场分离只毁了我 一个而已"

sad song....yan just asked me "hey.. do u get emotional if u listen to too much of such songs?"

hm..how to ans her? well...sometimes i do try to sink into the picture of the song...feel with it and sadden myself....that is...if the song has enough 感动度 in it...

well...not that i'm particularly sad...to be frank...recently...i'm more stressed than sad...haiz...it's just me...always giving myself too much pressure that is sometimes not necessary at all....stress? becoz of sch..after 2 yr ns....think i shold just take it easy 1st...afterall..it's just the 1st few weeks...i need time to pick up pace....not sad? yes...what's there to be sad abt? in fact...i dun feel s much anymore...meaning...i dun think abt emotions stuff so much anymore....i would rather stuff all my emotions into a bag and throw it aside for the time being...

i look a happy man...i feel a happy man...coz i want to be happy...