got quite alot of things kept in heart..i need to find someone whom i can confine in, but who? i have been wasting my time away thinking about useless things. things that doesn't concern you as i believe you have already forgotten about what we used to be..
and since i don't know how can i talk to..i've decided to write it down somewhere..no paper witin reach and so, here i am..filling up yet another blog for today 031004..
so fast, i have been in the army for 1 yr 10 months..to think about it..5 months and i will ORD..it's time to prepare myself for the civilian world outside..these 22monthz in the army so far has been pathetic..i have reached a conclusion that i am the most unlucky ccis pc amongst all..ex TS, ex GB, ex MD, Janus Migration, Disposal plan, and the coming ex Wallaby...it has really been a fruitful experience..
there are times when i was really busy and ther were also times when i couldn't find anything to do..perhaps that's the way unit life is supposed to be..
other than army, these 22 months have not been beneficial for me in any way..i felt so tied down that i couldn't commit myself to other things..i keep pushing back things that i wanted to do and decide to slack when there are chances..
slacking, but that doesn't mean don't bother abt anything, including army..ultimately, i still feel that i have a responsiblity to fulfil as a 2LT..not much but i will still work when there's a task to do..
strange, but there are thoughts of signing on..however, it's abit too late to come to such a decision now..for i have longed decided that army is not for me...
experienced working in a network marketing company called nti recently..i went in with the thought of wanting to change my life..wanting to experience something different..since now, it has been 2 months and i have yet to achieve much..what i have to say it that no doubt it's a business where people can make it big...but it all boils down to individual..
for me, i feel that it's not a job for me..i want to give it up..still comtemplating...it's so not me..but what's me? who am i? what am i supposed to be? so lost..i am giving myself another week to think about it before making the ultimate decision..i guess i need to talk...
i need help
and since i don't know how can i talk to..i've decided to write it down somewhere..no paper witin reach and so, here i am..filling up yet another blog for today 031004..
so fast, i have been in the army for 1 yr 10 months..to think about it..5 months and i will ORD..it's time to prepare myself for the civilian world outside..these 22monthz in the army so far has been pathetic..i have reached a conclusion that i am the most unlucky ccis pc amongst all..ex TS, ex GB, ex MD, Janus Migration, Disposal plan, and the coming ex Wallaby...it has really been a fruitful experience..
there are times when i was really busy and ther were also times when i couldn't find anything to do..perhaps that's the way unit life is supposed to be..
other than army, these 22 months have not been beneficial for me in any way..i felt so tied down that i couldn't commit myself to other things..i keep pushing back things that i wanted to do and decide to slack when there are chances..
slacking, but that doesn't mean don't bother abt anything, including army..ultimately, i still feel that i have a responsiblity to fulfil as a 2LT..not much but i will still work when there's a task to do..
strange, but there are thoughts of signing on..however, it's abit too late to come to such a decision now..for i have longed decided that army is not for me...
experienced working in a network marketing company called nti recently..i went in with the thought of wanting to change my life..wanting to experience something different..since now, it has been 2 months and i have yet to achieve much..what i have to say it that no doubt it's a business where people can make it big...but it all boils down to individual..
for me, i feel that it's not a job for me..i want to give it up..still comtemplating...it's so not me..but what's me? who am i? what am i supposed to be? so lost..i am giving myself another week to think about it before making the ultimate decision..i guess i need to talk...
i need help
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